Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I Love Trees

Today was my rest day from running - for me it's not even about necessarily resting from running - but also having space to allow time for walking.  I love Running but I also love walking - not speed walking or power walking - or racing to get to a destination - just the type of walking where you allow your intuition to guide you - to take you on a journey - tapping into your body and getting out of your mind.

As I was putting on my joggers, my boyfriend was watching the news and it was heartbreaking to read about the 39 people who have been killed in Moscow as a result of 2 female suicide bombers who blew themselves up in two separate stations on the Moscow metro yesterday morning.  It was upsetting!! Watching or reading the news is always upsetting to me.  I remember years ago, our company challenged people reading the news - saying that it is all negative news - and encouraged everyone to invest time in positive material.  At the other end, my Dad has always challenged me to read the paper - or challenging me because I rarely read the news.  Even when I flick through the Sunday paper, I am selective in what I read - I choose to be selective - not ignorant - not not wanting to know.  It certainly does not mean I am not concerned with world affairs or big issues or the suffering - on the contrary - I am silenced and saddened by the suffering - and I am also dedicated to increasing my knowledge and awareness - to help me be more conscious - so that I may Spread The Yellow.

As I was walking out the door, I said to my boyfriend that I don't understand, why when there is often so much human suffering, that can happen so suddenly and outside our control, that brings such devastation, why humans choose to inflict suffering on others - or make life harder for others?  Hmm...

With that thought, I kiss my man goodbye, wishing him a happy day, and walk out into the world.  Today was a rainy day - but no reason not to walk - I grabbed my umbrella (yes, my Yellow umbrella) and was happy to be outside.  Yellow always brightens my day - even my Yellow umbrella on a rainy day.
                  
My walk was lovely and relaxing.  I found the sky a good analogy for life - despite the clouds, there is still a brightness and a beautiful glow.  I walked up along the beach, admiring the view.  I feel so blessed to live where I live - to be so close to the beachside. 

I love walking along the beach - and I also love walking along the Bay - Gunnamatta Bay.  My friends from up the coast once visited me and they absolutely loved Gunnamatta Bay - they kept saying "It's Gunna Matter" one day - they were so impressed with the area.  I love walking along the beach in low tide and I love just walking through the natural bush-setting park- it is so natural and peaceful.  My boyfriend had rung me just as I was entering the Park - but being free of the phone, free of words, quiet in silence is what makes this walk so special to me.  As I am walking through Gunnamatta Bay, I notice a tree that looks like it has been crying - it is the sap on the tree.  The tree is sparce, not many branches or leaves - but I am happy to see that the tree is still living and breathing and attracting life - a bird, a small insect, a centipede.  I am then delighted to see all the planting of new trees - they have probably been there before (have I been too busy, lost in thought, or trying to relax, that I have failed to notice?) - there are 30, 40, 50 baby trees, all being protected with wiring fences to give them space to grow.  It warms my heart.  I Love Trees.
                           

As I am feeling so happy about the planting of Trees - I am then devastated by the sight of a Tree being cut down.  About 4 workmen are putting up a baracade, and one man is up a Tree with an electric saw.  Instantly, I feel pained in my heart.  This beautiful Tree being cut down.  I stand nearby in shock.  I then ask a workman the reason why this Tree is being cut down - he tells me that they are clearing space for a new marina.  I am speechless.  I look at the tree branches cut into pieces on the ground and the tree is gradually being cut, one painful piece at a time. I look around at the other Trees in the local area - the slight breeze is softly blowing the leaves - it seems that they are waving goodbye to their friend.  Now I know why the other Tree is crying.  I now have a knowing what must drive the Greenies - the feeling that I too could chain myself to save a Tree.  It is not the exact image below -but can you image -just being present to the destruction.
                                         

And this is just 1 tree - which immediately turns my attention to deforestation - I realise that I need to be more conscious.  Did you know that an area of forest equal to 20 football or rugby fields is lost every minute?  I turn to the Internet to learn more - http://www.rain-tree.com/facts.htm. Just some of the facts from this website include:
- Rainforests once covered 14% of the earth's land surface; now they cover a mere 6%
- Experts estimate that the last remaining rainforests could be consumed in less than 40 years
- Experts estimates that we are losing 137 plant, animal and insect species every single day due to rainforest deforestation - that equals 50,000 species a year
- As rainforest species disappear, so do many possible cures for life-threatening diseases - currently, 121 prescription drugs sold worldwide come from plant-derived sources
- Most rainforests are cleared by chainsaws, bulldozers and fires for its timber value and then are followed by farming and ranching operations
- There were an estimated ten million Indians living in the Amazonian Rainforest five centuries ago - today there are less than 200,000.
- When a medicine man dies without passing his arts on to the next generation, the tribe and the world loses thousands of years of irreplaceable knowledge about medicinal plants
- Experts agree that by leaving the rainforests intact and harvesting it's many nuts, fruits, oil-producing plants, and medicinal plants, the rainforest has more economic value than if they were cut down to make grazing land for cattle or for timber - the latest statistics show that rainforest land converted to cattle operations yields the land owner $60 per acre, and if timber is harvested, the land is worth $400 per acre - however, if these renewable and sustainable resources are harvested, the land will yield the land owner $2,400 per acre.

If these facts aren't heartbreaking enough - my attention then turns to the plight of the Orang-utans - reading that their rainforest is being destroyed for palm oil at such an overwhelming rate, costing the lives of 50 Orang-utans per week.  Now that breaks my heart.  Experts predict that Orang-utans will be extinct within 20 years.  There are some terrible, heartbreaking images on the web but I have chosen to show a beautiful image of the Orang-utan - I love that Orang-utan comes from the Malay language and means 'person of the forest'. 

While the image above captures the beauty, if you are interested in learning more, there are so many websites that further explore the horror of this situation. 

But now for the hope - what can be done - what can I do?  I Love Trees, I Love Animals - what can I do?  I instantly draw in strength from one of my favourite quotes - "I am only one, but still I am one. I cannot do everything, but still I can do something; and because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something that I can do." (Helen Keller)..." my philosophy - my principles - my wanting to Make A Difference.  And I remember that my being aware and conscious in my daily choices, can Make A Difference.  I can choose to use recycled paper and less paper, stop getting throw-away cups from Gloria Jeans.  I can also be more conscious of choosing palm oil free products - see this great website http://www.orangutans.com.au/Orangutans-Survival-Information/Helping-you-buy-responsibly-Palm-oil-free-alternatives.aspx.  I have been so shocked of how many products contain palm oil - but pleasantly excited by the opportunity to be aware and make better decisions.  It is good to see that Lindt Gold Bunnies are confirmed as palm oil free and Cadbury has also confirmed that its dairy milk Easter range is palm oil free.  I am also happy to see that my boyfriend's favourite cereal, Sultana Bran is free of palm oil.  I am also happy to see that soap without palm oil is available, including, to my surprise, a Woolworths Select Brand and Herbon from selected health food stores.  Huge day today - so much to consider...

In fact I was happy to have some lightness and be introduced to a wonderful story on Today Tonight about the 'Free Hugs' You Tube Clip - that was one of the most popular in Australia - YOU HAVE TO WATCH THIS - http://hubpages.com/hub/Best-Youtube-Video-Free-Hugs - this clip makes my heart sing.  This guy, during a time of his own darkness, was given a hug by a stranger and he felt wonderful - so he was inspired to go out and Make A Difference - I am inspired by this guy, who clearly is a great man, who in such a simple way is able to Spread The Yellow.

If you read my Blog - I invite you to become more aware and more active in your choices so that we can Make A Difference, Save Trees, Save Animals, Spread The Yellow, Offer and Embrace Free Hugs...

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Coz I Can - My S.M.A.R.T. Goal

"You must see your goals clearly and specifically before you can set out for them. Hold them in your mind until they become second nature."
Les Brown


As a Coach, I am committed to a lifetime of growth.  I also believing in setting and achieving Goals - I love having Targets and a Vision, I love achieving my Goals.

So today I started my journey towards a new Goal - today I have set the Goal to run from my place, around the Esplanade at Cronulla - I am estimating that the run will take about 1.5-2 hours. 

I often talk about how I "used to be" a runner.  I love running, LOVE running!  In the past I "used to" run many fun runs and races - every weekend I would be making sure I was in the front line, and off I would race, watching the clock, racing to beat my time, racing to win.  Running was a HUGE part of my life, I loved being in a running club, I loved running every morning, I loved competing in a race, rain, hail or shine, super early in the morning - I loved it!!

However, I have not raced for a long time, probably 3-4 years - a long time!  Over the last few years, I have set myself a new Goal of just enjoying running for the love of running, no longer competing or being in a running club - however, in the last 2 years I have been injured, on and off, that has definitely been slowing me down - where I have probably only ran for blocks of 15-30 minutes.  Plus now I have exchanged my loved brand of Asics that were light and speedy for Shape-Ups, which I love, and feel serve me, but which I have recently found out burn 15% more oxygen - which is great sometimes - but makes running more challenging - although I am choosing not to focus on this fact.

I have turned to other sports, I talk of other sports, "I'm gunna.." - thinking I will take up swimming or paddling or yoga or pilates - and while these would no doubt be wonderful as part of a cross training plan, I still come back to running - I love running!

After speaking with my Physiotherapist, who is a brilliant woman, I have decided to get back into running.  My Physio is one of those people that you feel so grateful to have met on your journey - I love hearing stories of the impact she is having on healing her Clients, everyday she is touching lives and making a difference, she is definitely a woman who knows how to Spread The Yellow.  Aideen is so honest and I love her direct communication - I also love that Aideen is a strong believer in the power of Visualisation and the Law of Attraction.  When talking to Aideen about running and my struggle - Aideen was quick to remind me that I had pictures and words about running on my Vision Board - that this is important to me - Aideen was direct in telling me that I CAN RUN - that I have to run - it is on my Vision Board!!!   


I have been putting up so many barriers - and I am realising my own fears and limiting beliefs that are holding me back. One fear is that I will do further damange to my back, I also have a fear that my love of running will take my life out of balance (where life balance is very important to me) - and in line with that, if my running becomes so huge in my life again, I have a fear that my love of running may lead to dramatic weight loss which may affect me having a baby.  And Yet with Aideen's reminder, I turn to my Vision Board and there are the words, "Run For You - And Enjoy It!" .

While I Run For Me, and don't want to put pressure on myself, I'm realising that I am missing the sense of achievement that comes from setting and achieving running Goals - even if I am only setting and achieving them for myself.

I also remember in talking to Aideen, my gifted Physio and friend, that when I was running and competing, I was so often injured, I was always having scans, and getting fractures - and yet it had never stopped me running - I just wanted to get fixed, get the go ahead and get running.  So thank you Aideen - for giving me the go ahead - I am going to get running!

So time for a S.M.A.R.T. Goal.  Looking up on the Internet I can see that there are different variations of the acronym, and there seems to be an overlap of the meanings, in some of the different letters in the acronym -
S - stretching, significant, specific
M - meaningful, measureable, motivational
A - attainable, achievable, agreed upon, action-oriented, acceptable
R - relevant, realistic, rewarding, reasonable, results-oriented
T - tangible, time-based, timely, trackable.

What makes sense for me, for this particular Goal is
Specific - Running from my place, around Gunnamatta Bay, up and around Darook Park, around the Esplanade, up to the fence that leads the way to the Sand Dunes

Measureable - This Goal is to be achieved within 12 weeks (I have allowed 12 weeks since this is normally the time of working with a Client on a Goal, so I thought I would give myself the same amount of time) - my Goal is to be achieved by 20 June 2010

Action-Oriented - Coaching is always about taking Next Steps towards a Goal - my Goal is based on running 3 times a week, every 2nd day (which will help me maintain balance and help me with my fears)

Rewarding - This Goal is about me - setting and achieving a Goal for myself - that is always Rewarding - I love the pure joy of running - to run the 1.5-2 hours for this run will be wonderful and exciting and definitely Rewarding

Timely - The Goal has a specific time frame and the time frame for the Goal is realistic - I have previously been on runs up to 3.5 hours, up to 35kms - I know training is the key, and as I have run before, I can draw on my Inner Strength and strong memories of my running success - I also feel that 12 weeks gives me plenty of time to build up my endurance (without too much pressure).

Aideen, who is so in the know, recommends that I visualise myself running and see the picture so clearly in my mind's eye, that it feels so real and is so possible - and then I just go out and run - running the run the second time - the first time in my mind's eye.  It makes sense!!  I was reading on the Internet where there was a study done a while back with Olympic runners and visualisation, where there were two groups - one group of runners just practiced running for a set number of hours a day, and another group of runners used the same number of hours a day, but split the hours between practicing running and visualising themselves running.  "The results: Those runners that practiced without visualisation showed little improvement on their times where those that mixed creative visualisation in with their training showed great improvements over their previous times" (http://www.positivethinking-toolbox.com/importance-of-visualization.html - there are other great treasures on this website)

So last night, before I fall asleep, and first thing, this morning, I close my eyes, focusing on my breathe, letting go of my thoughts, and visualise myself running - walking down the stairs and then I run, running down the street, running along the waterway of Gunnamatta Bay, up the hill and racing halfway up the street to Darook.  So I visualise it twice and it feels wonderful.  And so this morning, I felt fantastic - and I went running, so confident - and so clear about my Goal - so focused!  I ran, and kept running and kept running - knowing my Goal, despite the struggle up the hill, I kept going, relaxing into my breathe - and even sprinting the final 200 metres.  It was wonderful - all up I only ran 17 minutes - but I reached the milestone for today - and I felt FANTASTIC!  Thanks Aideen for inspiring me, and reminding me of my own capability, my own dreams, the importance of visualisation.

I'm looking forward to Wednesday's run, Coz I Can, next milestone is to run past Darook Park (visualising it first - and then time to go running!!) 

Monday, March 29, 2010

Newtown - Love, Food, Books!

Today my main priority was to have a date, quality time, an adventure with My Mr Wonderful.  I always want to make time for the two of us.

We have been wanting to go to Newtown for a long time - talking about it for a long time - so today was the day.  I was excited to go to Green Gourmet, Vegetarian Restaurant - Gareth and I loved it - especially the chestnut sang chow bow and vegan rice paper rolls (see menu on their website www.greengourmet.com.au/ with restaurants at Newtown and St Leonards).  It was a great start to our adventure, and we are already talking about going back for lunch and/ or dinner.


What I love about Newtown and loved about our day is the opportunity to just explore - and see where the journey leads - also the opportunity to expand our horizons.  We were drawn into the home furnishings shop - Classic Furnishings Gallery Javanese Collection - beautiful furniture.  What impressed me the most was reading the "Our Story" book displayed in the store.  It talks of Indonesia where they source teak, where the owner works with people from several villages in Central and Eastern Java, where they locate disregarded trees that have fallen due to erosion or flood..  The owner also buys wood from homes that have fallen into a state of disrepair or deterioration and pays the owners enough money to rebuild their homes in bricks that are cooler in summer and warmer in winter.  The furniture is also made in Java, creating jobs for the local communities. See their website to read more about their Story www.cfgallery.com.au/NewSite/about.htm. Gareth and I both felt that we would venture back to Newtown when we are looking for furniture in the future.  I felt so inspired reading the Story of their business, felt very inspired that in the designing and building of my own business I would love to help people and make a difference to community, being conscious of mother earth.

Next adventure was Gould's Book Arcade.  Love this place - this is an adventure in itself - aisles and aisles and stacks and stacks of books - up and down, around and around.  This is a 'must go to' when visiting Newtown.

I walked in and felt that I would be led to where I needed to go.  I just love books.  I found myself (to no surprise) in front of the self-discovery section and the book that jumped out at me was Dare To Connect Susan Jeffers - I have read another book by this author and loved it!  It was only on the drive home, that I flicked through the book and realised that this book was such a gift of insight and beautiful words.  Susan Jeffers refers to Ram Dass, author and teacher who "suggests that when we are born, we immediately go into 'Somebody Training'; that is, we are taught by our parents and our society that what we are 'supposed to' be in this world is a Somebody!  They define a Somebody as a person who has achieved some measure of external success.  As a result, our 'Somebody-ness', or self-worth, is dependent on such factors as money, status, power, personality, looks and intellectual excellence."

Dare To Connect explains what is wrong with this:
"a) Somebody Training emphasises individual differences and puts us in competition with everyone around us.  Hence, we are always on a treadmill trying to keep up with or surpass everyone else... or we just give up when the competition seems too great.
b) When we strive to fill ourselves up with approval from people 'out there', we twist the essence of who we really are and create a false picture which we hope will bring us the acceptance we crave.  And when we lose sight of who we truly are, we feel empty inside.
c) When we focus only on externals, such as looks, money, success or sex appeal (ours or theirs), we lose sight of our common humanity.  We lose sight of the feelings that lie within, of those unseeable qualities that create a feeling of bonding.  And we feel alienated."

I just love this book - it explains -
"Somebody Training teaches us to... Work on what's outside
Everybody Training teaches us to... Work on what's inside
Somebody Training teaches us to...See how much we can get
Everybody Training teaches us to... See how much we can give
Somebody Training teaches us to... Develop a winning act
Everybody Training teaches us to... Discover the authentic self
Somebody Training teaches us to... Ignore the Higher Self
Everybody Training teaches us to... Act from the Higher Self
Somebody Training teaches us to... Control the actions and reactions of others
Everybody Training teaches us to... Control our own actions and reactions."

I really love the beautiful words of the affirmations in Dare To Connect -
"I am good enough exactly as I am...
and who I am is a powerful and loving human being
who is learning and growing every step of the way."

"I am powerful and I am loving.
I have much to give to this world.
I am a person of worth.
I deserve love.
I am a capable person.
My life has meaning.
My life is unfolding perfectly.
There is plenty of time."

"I acknowledge your presence.
I salute our humanness.
I welcome what you have to offer this world.
I hail the beauty in you.
I receive you with a loving heart."

I love this one, which is simple and so easy to remember and can help Spread The Yellow - "I greet the light in you!"

Susan Jeffers in Dare To Connect has created an "Everyday Training Action Vocabulary" - which is so in line with my Vision of Spread The Yellow -
"Appreciate   Validate   Empathise   Praise   Care   Share
Flow   Include   Relate   Compliment   Encourage   Reveal
Play   Relax   Balance   Explore   Commit   Cooperate
Listen   Learn   Grow  Blend   Lighten up   Enjoy"    

Wonderful book!!!

Wonderful day!  The rest of the afternoon we just explored shops, browsing, popping into any shops that caught our eye - eating gelato from Ice + Splice and venturing down to Eastern Flair where Gareth bought me a beautiful bright Yellow sarong that I will display in my Coaching space (photo below does not capture the brightness of the Yellow).

I am so blessed to have My Mr Wonderful who always wants to Spread The Yellow to me and is so supportive of my 'me-ness' and our 'one-ness' and my Vision. It gave me such joy and happiness today to just 'be' together, walking together hand-in-hand, kissing, laughing, talking, sharing, caring.  How nice to be 'in love' - finally, after years of aloneness and wrong relationships.

As I end my Post I would like to share some great images from the other book I found (or that found me) at Gould's Books - Happiness Is... A Warm Puppy Charles m. Schulz (I think I was drawn to it because Gareth loves dogs and the word Puppy caught my eye) - it is definitely a book that warms the heart - enjoy.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Not Yellow At First Glance

"To everything there is a season,
A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born,
And a time to die;
A time to plant
And a time to pluck what is planted;
A time to kill (???),
And a time to heal;
A time to break down,
And a time to build up;
A time to weep,
And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn,
And a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones;
A time to embrace,
And a time to reframe from embracing;
A time to gain,
And a time to lose;
A time to keep,
And a time to throw away;
A time to tear,
And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence,
And a time to speak;
A time to love,
And a time to hate;
A time of war (???),
And a time of peace."
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

I woke up high of life - I was in the middle of a dream and woke up to my boyfriend trying to get the iron out of the cupboard - and then we chatted and laughed - and I got up and was singing and dancing around, singing and dancing around naked - just so happy to be alive.

I then went and said goodbye to my home (no longer naked) - the place I used to call my home - the apartment I own.  I thought it would be hard letting go, yet surprisingly, miraculously, I do not feel attached - which is a nice relief and realisation - I actually feel comfortable with the letting go and the change.  It's also surprising that the words that came up a few weeks ago when I was meditating in my home and the process of letting go, were the words sadness and loneliness - and yet today I also enjoyed the time of reflection - with a feeling that this had been home to me, and I had felt very comfortable just being in my home.  Yet I had, very often, found myself, being so comfortable that I closed myself in from the world - now it was time for me to venture out and spread my wings.  Just before I walked out the door, I chose to let go and I Spread The Yellow, sending good intentions in my heart to the woman who will be renting out my unit - wishing her joy and happiness.  And then I walked upstairs back to my new home - the home I now have with my boyfriend - and he is definitely home to me.  Yes, for those who don't know my story, I met my fabulous boyfriend in my own apartment block - and he has been a lovely surprise!

I had such great ambition and intention for the day - Spread The Yellow - bright, happy, positive.  Of course, how can we ever know exactly what we can expect, or what is in store for us.

Mid-morning I was blessed to visit my close friend and her beautiful baby, baby Leah - she is so precious - I love that my friend says "Aunty Kath is here to visit'.  In those moments I have the sense of Spread The Yellow to me - just spending time together means so much to me.  And I was gifted with a few beautiful photos of her smiling - joy!!

The day looked like it was going to be perfect - that was the plan - a lot of beautiful time with my family and then a date tonight with my spunky boyfriend.

But out of the blue someone I love, and believe in, was given some bad news, out of the blue, quite unexpected - in those moments it was not bright and cheery and definitely not an obvious colour Yellow - it was heartbreaking - my heart ached as I felt the pain of this person (who shall remain nameless) - he said he "felt like he had been shot" - I felt like he could drown.  So we sat.  And I listened.  And he spoke from the heart.  And I said I believed in him.  And from my heart I am so proud of him and I have to trust that he will find his way through this maze.  In my heart I carry love and will be there for him.  I know that he is wise - my wish is that he taps into his Inner Voice and trusts himself, and finds the blessings and opportunities as doors are closing - he did refer to a poem 'The Road Not Taken' that he says makes so much sense for his journey - and I hope he remembers how brave he has already been to walk his walk.

Robert Frost (1874–1963) - The Road Not Taken
"TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back. 

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I -
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."

Hmm... makes me stop and reflect reading those words...

In the afternoon the energy shifted, spending time with my three beautiful nieces, who are forever bringing joy to my heart - they definitely Spread The Yellow to me.  I picked up Ashley from school and she drew me a picture and then wrote 'I Love You' - how blessed I am.  And Olivia and Brooke are precious and moments with them are Yellow - cuddles, kisses, giggles, just being in their presence.


Perhaps Yellow is about being Present to "what is" - as the verse from the bible tells, there is a time for everything - and today is very true of the mixed emotions, the highs and lows.  For me, Yellow is also about being ever aware of the Yellow, the moments of joy and happiness, despite the dark clouds that are present. I know Yellow today was certainly about sitting in the darkness with another and waiting for a glimmer of hope or a ray of light to Shine. In these moments perhaps all you can do is sit and through words and presence communicate to another "I Am Here".  Yellow to me is also about trusting and having faith that all will serve our greater good - although at the time, the hardship may seem so dark and grey.  Yellow, is also about believing that we always have choices and options - we just have to feel into our felt sense and sense what is within our sphere of control and what is needed - we often need to make decisions on the way forward and be brave enough to take a step towards our Vision - even if we are adjusting our sails along the way.

That's the theory.  And it is easy when you are looking on the outside in.  Perhaps that is when we are able to 'helicopter up', check into a new perspective.  I do not have all the answers.  I am just a student of life.  I am on my own journey.  And I am very conscious that life for some is not always Yellow - not Yellow at first glance, and perhaps for some it is so hard to find the Yellow - how can I possibly know about somone else's journey - all I can offer is Compassion.

I do know that my own life is not always Yellow - not Yellow at first glance - sometimes I have a sore neck or my back aches or I am worried, or those I love are in distress or are sick or are worried, sometimes I need to sit in my own times of shades of grey or pain or darkness and wait for the light - other times I need to change my focus.

Yet my commitment is that I want to be forever positive and hopeful and definitely forever grateful for the Yellow in my life.  My commitment is to be always grateful for the beauty and the love and the sunshine.  I also want to acknowledge and be thankful to beautiful souls I am blessed to meet on my journey.  I am always very thankful to my boyfriend for his love and support (and for taking me out for dinner and conversation tonight - thank you for our date nights - and for always laughing together).  I would also, very importantly, like to make a special mention to Christie, a soul sister, who has a beautiful blog 'Follow Your Bliss' and is a woman of inspiration, living her Vision, so true to herself, so real and authentic, and so supportive and inspiring to me - a big THANK YOU for being so supportive of my Vision to Spread The Ye llow.  Thank you for being you - you have Spread The Yellow to me.  I love the photo you emailed me of the sunflower that was blooming in a vegetable garden - thank you for sharing with me.


It is 11.50pm, - tomorrow is almost here - and I am hopeful that no matter what the day brings I will wear Yellow in my heart.  I will embrace the Yellow in my life.

Connection and Sharing

How fabulous to Connect with another.  And from that Connection, who can possibly know the impact that is created and swirls out to other Creations and Connections.  Being in Connection is a feeling of being in the essence of Spread The Yellow - and the feeling of knowing at a deep level that there will be a ripple effect from that original Connection.

Today I am grateful for time spent with my friend Beate.  We spent a lovely time being in each other's presence, allowing space for stories to be told, meanings to unfold.  Beate was telling me an exciting story, about her journey of getting her new job - I was on the edge of my seat, I wanted to turn to the last page of the book and find out what happened - but I sat, listening, with every part of my being, fully engaged in the story, fully wanting the best ending - it was a great happy story - we laughed and I felt happy in celebrations for Beate.  It would be so lovely to be able to slow down and enjoy spaciousness in all Connections - space for listening, space for just being in the space, space for acceptance, total presence.

It was also great sharing ideas, sharing resources and discussing books we are reading.  It becomes clear in these moments to always maintain the "I AM I, YOU ARE YOU" - as I often find myself excited by ideas or tempted to want to find out more about someone else's journey or get involved in something that is so awesome for them - and then I rememeber to just Trust my own journey and feel into what is right for me.

Beate offers the suggestion, recommendation about Facebook, that it opens up a whole new world - and it was just staring at me all this time - that Facebook offers the opportunity for Connection.  Other friends, including Beate, have offered up this recommendation to me - and now the time feels right - my Blog is teaching me the power of being true and real and being me.  And I am discovering that the best way to be me is to Connect and be in Relationship with others.  So thank you Beate - I have now uploaded my photo onto Facebook and have offered an invitation to be friends.  Hmm...  Connection - the possibilities...

I was also telling Beate about my Vegetarian Lasagne and she encouraged me to post this recipe on my Blog.  A special mention again to Christie who always inspires me with her cooking and sharing of her recipes.  So the other day, after wanting to cook vegetarian lasagne for so long I looked up a recipe on the internet - www.taste.com.au/recipes/14430/vegetarian+lasagne (see link if you are interested in cooking this delicious recipe).


I loved cooking the recipe (note the picture above is the image on the recipe webpage).  I loved the joy of selecting and buying all the ingredients from the fruit and vegetable shop, the deli and the supermarket - and loved the quiet time in the kitchen Connecting and Creating.  I loved Sharing time with my lovely boyfriend enjoying the lasagne.  I didn't realise when I was initially buying the ingredients that the Recipe Serves 10 - which was such a Gift as I was able to Share some lasagne with my close friends and family - I loved just being able to make that offering without any attachment or expectation.  My lasagne didn't look as fabulous as the recipe picture above, yet I was happy I had achieved something important to me - my goal of cooking new vegetarian dishes.



Part of Connection and Sharing for me, is also in the knowing when it is time to Connect and Honour myself.  Now that I am home - I am so happy to be home - time to relax and just enjoy the quiet.  Time to enjoy a cup of peppermint tea with a twist of honey, in my beautiful Japanese tea set that Gareth gave me for Christmas, also enjoying the Gift of my beautiful homemade tea tray that my friend Julie made me years and years and years ago that I still treasure - Julie painted the tray and painted "Kath's Cuppa" in bright Yellow.


It's really wonderful to slow down, time to read and then enjoy a meditation.  Time to Spread The Yellow to myself - so that I can recharge and Spread The Yellow to others.

Friday, March 26, 2010

The Gift of My Inner Voice

Welcome to the New day.  This morning, lying in bed at 6am, I felt my Inner Voice guiding me to get up and go to the beach to watch the sunrise.  What a Gift - my Inner Voice.  What a Gift the sunrise.

The sunrise was perfect.  I sat watching the sky- the beautiful pink glow, it was such a relaxing and peaceful space.  The glow brightened and deepened, and I waited with bated breathe.  And then the sun peaked above the horizon, greeting the day - breathtaking, amazing, incredible.  The camera could not capture the beauty - so I captured the image in my mind's eye, mesmorised. 


Most importantly I sat into the feeling of the essence of how I was feeling. I felt witness to the sun - I felt in connection with the sun - I see you, I am here, I choose to Embrace the Light. In those moments I felt in Surrender - Please guide me to Love, Serve and Spread The Yellow - Please guide me God, Universe and My Angels - Please guide me to where I need to be.  I felt in complete peace and harmony.

I had left my phone at home (not intentionally - but thankfully), so no calls, no checking the time, no expectation of calls or checking if there were messages - and so I just listened to my Inner Voice and went for a walk, just allowing my intuition to guide me.  It was wonderful to be out of my head, not thinking or stuck in thought, or racing to get to a pre-determined destination at a pre-determined time for a pre-determined objective.  I just walked, asking for guidance where I should go and just allowing my 'gut' to lead me.

I came to a crossroad and just as I was about to turn right, I felt the pull to turn left - and found my feet taking me to my favourite bookstore.  Through Conversation and Connection, came forth the offering that there is still space available that may work for my life coaching business.  I was able to pay a visit to the rooms at the back of the bookstore where a Community of Healers are working - and I was able to just 'be' in the space to see how it felt, to sit and once again tune into My Inner Voice.  Yes!!!  This is where I need to be.  It is such a spiritual space and felt right.  In this new space of trusting, I believe in my heart that this place would be perfect to start my business, Shine Coaching - perhaps this will be 'the' place I coach or just one of the places where I coach - now I am willing to Trust the Flow and see where this journey leads.  I remain open to the possibilities - and in my heart, I feel that this could be the start of something amazing - like the sunrise - a new beginning - a bright new day.

As I was just about to leave - I commented that the pictures displayed in the rooms and bookstore are breathtakingly beautiful - and was shown the perfect book GODDESS. Awaken Your True Potential. Reach For The Stars.  Toni Carmine Salerno - "an intuitive artist and published author with a strong interest in spirituality, philosophy and energy healing".


His artwork and verses are ___________________ - I can't find the right word - his website is http://www.tonicarminesalerno.com/ if you would like to check out the Gallery of his work.  I took a quick snapshot of some of the prints to share on this Blog (not sure about copyright??)


"Follow your heart
Your sacred duty is to follow the guidance of your soul.

So do not let fear cloud your purpose
Your inner light will show you the way
She is your wisdom - trust in her.
Every moment is precious.  Every challenge A BLESSING.
Every day presents A NEW OPPORTUNITY." Toni Carmine Salerno

After a beautiful morning - I went home feeling energised and excited.  Hmm... the perfect time to get stuck into my housework and create sunshine, peace, beauty, space - to Spread The Yellow here in our home.

Of course I then reward myself with a meditation - which I start with the words of Toni Carmine Salerno -
"Gently close your eyes and as you quiet your mind,
relax every muscle and joint.
Let go of all tension and
bring your focus to your breath.
Imagine myself breathing in light.
As you breathe out,
breathe out all unwanted thoughts.
Feel a gentle breeze flow through your mind -
feel it clear away any concerns or negative feelings.
... Breathe in light...
... Breathe out love... "

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Yellow In My Life

Yellow is all around me - Yellow tops in my cupboard which are my favourites to wear, my Yellow toothbrush, my Yellow towels, my Yellow pencil case, my Yellow umbrella (to Spread The Yellow on those cold, cloudy, rainy days), my Yellow drink bottle (although I'm using a purple drink bottle at the moment to 'mix it' up a bit and embrace my spirituality), my Yellow socks - Yellow flowers in the garden - I see Yellow everyday - everywhere I go I am drawn to Yellow, especially Yellow flowers.  And I love that in my new workplace there is a Yellow mug that was just waiting for me to enjoy my peppermint and green tea.

Yet - let me introduce you to the FAVOURITE Yellow In My Life - LOVE!!!

I am so Blessed to have a fantastic boyfriend who gives me so much Love - to Love and Be Loved is the Greatest Gift of all - Gareth brings so much Yellow into My Life.  I Love how often we laugh together - plus how easily and freely we can talk together - of course he is also a great kisser!!!  Plus, I Love that Gareth is always filling our Home with Yellow flowers - just the other day I got home from college and I was greeted by Yellow sunflowers.  Thank You My Mr Wonderful.


I also have the BEST PARENTS - once again I am so Blessed and have always been so Grateful for my Parents.  They have always given me so much Love and Support.  I would like to Honour them.  I Love that they are so Positive, Happy and Friendly and are always Interested in Me and My Life.


My Gorgeous Nieces, Ashley, Olivia and Brooke, also bring me so much Happiness, Love and Light - they are Yellow in My Life


I Love watching them Dance and Laugh and Play and I Love when they Gift me with their beautiful drawings that are filled with Colour and Love!  They definitely, consistently, innocently, subconsciously Spread The Yellow to me.


I am so GRATEFUL for ALL the Love in My Life. 

Dr. John F. Demartini in his great book You Can Have An Amazing Life In Just 60 Days writes about 60 Laws - Day1 is 'The Law of Love'.  He tells the story of his interaction with his Mother when he was young and feeling lost and thought that his life's dreams were shattered - he writes "My mother looked me right in the eye and with great love, said 'Son, whether you become a great teacher, healer and philosopher, or go back to your life as a great surfer, I just want to let you know that your father and I are going to love you, no matter what." - WOW!!!  As I read this, I feel so much Yellow in my heart that My Mr Wonderful, Parents and Nieces offer me the same Unconditional Love - Yes WOW I am SO Blessed!

Dr. John F. Demartini in his writing is offering up a suggestion, perhaps a recommendation, certainly an Invitation - he writes "You probably influence people, too, such as your children, family members or co-workers.  Know that if you love them for who they are, you heart will gleam, shine, and reach out to share that love, and you'll make a difference in their lives.  They'll become more, accomplish more, and have more in their lives - and so will you.  The power of unconditional love is unsurpassed in its power to transform."

I will hold close the Love In My Life, the Yellow In My Life - from this place in My Heart, I am Inspired to SHINE and Spread The Yellow!!!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Trust The Flow

Wearing the Intention of Yellow in my heart is changing me, changing my life. Thank you Universe. Thank you God.

Firstly, I would like to honour my Soul Sisters – I am in honour of you all – thank you for sharing an amazing weekend discovering Vision and Purpose. Thank you for your encouragement and support, for your beautiful words – I am honoured to share this journey with you. Thank you for allowing me to sit and be with you all, as we continue to believe in, and be a witness to one another.

On the weekend I became in touch with my strong impulse to rush off and get busy, busy, busy, rushing, rushing, rushing to compile my to do list, so I can do, do, do, and run, run, run towards my destination. And thankfully, I also became in touch with the beautiful feeling of just being in the flow, trusting the flow, the rhythm – taking one step and trusting the Universe would open up the next door, showing me the next signs, feeling in at a body, intuitive level. I loved getting in touch with that swaying, flowing feeling and then being a witness to the feeling of the ‘twister’ that comes and wants to carry me away- and my capability of being a witness to the 'twister' but my capacity to choose to stay in the flow.  The feeling of trusting the flow is no longer just a theory.

I was reading some of the beautiful pages from The Persistence of Yellow (Monique Duval) – it has beautiful imaginative stories and illustrations – I loved these words:
Today I saw the future. She was sitting in a lawn chair in the centre of the road with a sign that said, 'Don’t go this way'. She doesn’t always take the direct approach. She might camouflage herself behind traffic jams, alarm clocks, burnt toast and deadlines causing the urban observer to believe she’s really not there. But no matter what, she always leaves a little trail of hope leading to her infinite arms.” WOW!!!

And today I experienced the Universe in operation – the beautiful opportunities to serve my greater good. A reminder I just need to Trust The Flow. This morning, I was on my way to get some keys cut and I had a plan – get there at 9am, get the keys cut, race home and then race to work – so simple!! And yet, when I arrived at the shop, it was closed.  The man in the shop next door advised me that the shop was usually open at 8.30am – and then pointed me in the direction of the hardware at the end of the mall - yes they can cut the keys. So off I venture, to the end of the mall, giving up the plan or the need to rush. As I walked down through the mall I saw a woman - a woman the Universe knew I needed to see. I could have just said hello and walked on by (especially, if I had have remembered that I had a plan), but I stopped and we spoke, we connected – just for a few moments. This was a woman that I had previously judged, judging her for how she acted and the way she spoke – but in that moment I had the honour to just be in conversation and have compassion for her journey – the honour of her trusting me, to share with me a small brief insight into her pain, her struggle, and now her sense of hope. I thought I knew so much more than her - I thought I knew her and knew her story.  And yet today I had the privilege to witness her beauty, her light, her greatness. As I walked away from this woman, with the offering that I would like to chat another time, I walked away with a choked up feeling, a tear in my eye.  I walked away sending her genuine light and love. This woman taught me the greatest lesson – the greatest of lessons – how can I judge another when I have not walked in their shoes, how can I possibly know what it is like in their world – I remember a beautiful quote from the beautiful movie “As It Is In Heaven” (a ‘must see’ movie) - "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." I also now have this huge understanding that I cannot just be selective as I Spread The Yellow – giving to some and not to others – I have to wear the yellow deep within me – it is me – it is not a choice that requires discrimination. I Am Yellow – I am Love.

I am grateful to the Universe for creating the opportunity to walk down the mall in search of another service to cut my keys. Of course, the keycutting machine at the hardware was broken, so with grace I walked back to the original shop that was now open, although the owner was absent getting a coffee. And happily I waited, forgetting my plan, forgetting the need to rush.

So as I journey each day, I now Trust the Universe and Trust The Flow of events to best serve me in My Mission.


Of course I then got home tonight, actively thinking about my day and caught up in the excitement and rushing to get inside to watch my favourite TV show - and I tripped up the stairs - hmm, therein lies another lesson - watch where you are going, pay attention - and the reminder - stop rushing, slow down!!!  The Universe has a great sense of humour, thank you for the lessons.


"As your faith is strengthened you will find that there is no longer the need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will, and that you will flow with them, to your great delight and benefit.”
Emmanuel Teney

Monday, March 22, 2010

Spread The Yellow - Defined

Yellow = Love, Warmth, Connection, Presence, Genuine Interest and Curiosity, I'm Interested In What You Have To Say, I'm Interested In Your Journey, I Care, I SEE YOU, YOU MAKE A DIFFERENCE TO ME, JOY, Happiness, Positivity, Energy, Excitement, Enthusiasm, Eye Contact, Just Being With Another, A Smile, A Moment, A Kind Word, Words From Your Heart, A Hug, An Encouragement, An Acknowledgement, Gratitude, Appreciation, Gift Of Words, Gift Of Thoughtfulness, AWARENESS, Opportunity, Possibility, Right To Choice, Right To Choose, An Offering, An Invitation, Make A Difference, Make This Moment Count!!!

Spread The Yellow is about Sharing, Moment To Moment, Positive Energy - and in that Moment, in that Creation, there is a Far-Reaching, Flow into the Universe, a Domino Exponential Effect.  'The' is about Purpose and Intent - in those Moments, Taking A Moment to Spread The Yellow, these Moments come from a Natural, Heart-Felt, Genuine, Place of Love.  It is the small things that are the BIG things.

It is easy to get caught up in the busyness, racing to the next task, racing to do more, be more, have more - but imagine if we all just took a few Moments each day to Spread The Yellow - Can You Imagine the Difference We Could All Make?

This is not about spraypainting the world Yellow - there are so many other beautiful colours to enjoy and embrace (purple for spirituality, orange for creativity, green for growth, red for love and passion, blue for peace, pink for play (my own impressions and expressions of these colours) - and sometimes we may feel stuck in black or shades of grey, and may be in Surrender.  Yet there are 960 waking minutes in a day, which equals so many Opportunities to Share, to Offer, to Take a Moment for Warmth and Connection, to Help Others See the Light in the World and the Light in Themselves, so that they May Shine! 

This is also (SO IMPORTANTLY) about Connecting with You and Your Light and Being in Appreciation of Your Greatness and Uniqueness - Love for Self - Love and Appreciation for Your World - the Yellow and Beauty in You and the World - and  from that Flows Positive Sparks of Light, Bright Energy and Love.

There is a Light in all of us.  This is Your Invitation to Spread The Yellow and Make A Difference...


“Infinitely more important than sharing one's material wealth is sharing the wealth of ourselves -- our time and energy, our passion and commitment, and, above all, our love.” 
William E. Simon

“It only takes one smile to offer welcome...and blessed be the person who will share it.
It only takes one moment to be helpful...and blessed be the person who will spare it.
It only takes one joy to lift a spirit...and blessed be the person who will give it.
It only takes one life to make a difference...and blessed be the person who will live it.”
Amanda Bradley

“In each of us, there lies a divine connection to a power more powerful than hate or violence. Today is the day to attune to that power and use it on behalf of peace on earth.”
Marianne Williamson