MY YELLOW HEART
Initially my Self-Reflection was about observing where I spend my time - in my Mind, Feelings or Body. I quickly realised that I was spending a lot of time thinking, a lot of time overthinking. In my Mind I was thinking about the Past and the Future, thinking about things I couldn't change, thinking about what I did and didn't like about work - just thinking, thinking, thinking. NOW I am excited that I am able to bring myself into the NOW - to be fully Present - I am not in thinking mode, or feeling mode, I am in a neutral, relaxed position. My Touchstone, my symbol of this Presence, is My Yellow Heart. I have a sense that My Yellow Heart is my Soul's Home. It is a place of Love, Light, Peace and Truth. It is a resting place. I feel myself totally relaxed in my Body, totally Present. When I am sitting with my Clients I am in My Yellow Heart - totally Present, creating a Sacred Space.
When I reflect on my Coaching Business logo, and what my work is about for my Clients, I feel that I am able to experience the essence of my logo - where I am sitting in a relaxed place, in My Yellow Heart, and then from this place I will naturally bring my Yin and Yang into the Coaching Space.
And if I look at my Past from a Spiritual perspective, I am able to see that all of my experiences are part of who I am and my Journey. My Past experiences have motivated me to become a Coach and a Healer. From this perspective, when I do turn to my Past, I feel that all my stories and life experiences are like books in a bookshelf. As books in the bookshelf I am able to open and close them and certainly refer to the lessons to help me in my life. My life experience also gives me an incredible sense of Compassion for my Clients.
In My Yellow Heart I feel Love and Light, I am Presence, I am in the NOW. In this place I am able to hear the whisper of my Soul's longing and feel the rising of Spirit in my Self and my Life.
Being in Presence has been very important to me, especially with all of the ups and downs and swings and roundabouts in my life. When I am Present, I also have a sense of Trust that all will be okay, that I have the Strength within me.
MY ARCHETYPES
I have also found, that these different Parts of me, naturally emerge when I am in my Presence, totally Present in My Yellow Heart, when I am living in the Now.
I have enjoyed Art Therapy, sketching and colouring with my crayons and pencils. I have enjoyed walks in Nature. I have enjoyed being a Client and working with my Coach. I have enjoyed Meditation. I especially loved the 'Gathering of the Whole' Meditation where I was able to be a witness and interact with my Archetypes. I have also enjoyed reading about the different Archetypes and selecting images that resonate for me. While I have been researching the Archetypes, I am not sitting in a place of trying to understand the theory - instead, I am really sitting into the truth of what this is for me, and with a curiosity of what is possible from this Part of my Self.
I loved getting to know my Yin and Yang and now I am loving getting to know my Archetypes which have both Yin and Yang in them. I feel that when I am in tune with my Yin Intuition, my 'gut feel', I am able to get my Yang to speak and act for the Highest Good. I am still learning about these Parts of me and I am enjoying getting to know My Sage, Nature Child, Innocent Child, Caretaker, Regular Gal, Wanderer, Warrior, Jester, Destroyer, Organiser, Creator, Magician, Visionary, Lover, Healer.
And in my Self-Reflection I am realising that I need to also evolve the essence of My Caregiver - moving away from coming across as the Parent of my Nieces, Brother, Parents or My Man. And so I am Consciously shifting My Caregiver Part of me. By being a Witness to my Self, I am learning that I need to be there for my Family and offer help and yet I need to remember the words "I am I, You are You". With my Family, especially my Brother and my Parents I need to communicate from a place of Sacred Space and Trust my Family - not try to be the Parent. I need to Trust that we are all on our own separate Journey and allow us each the Space to walk our Path. I need to Consciously tune into My Sage to help me with My Caregiver Role as it can be challenging when I have Parents who are not well and I am wanting my Brother to be different in his Caregiver role - and of course this is outside my control - and I need to respect Boundaries. In particular I believe that My Sage and My Caretaker can work together for the Greatest Good.
When I feel drawn to work with children and communities living in poverty, I also feel a Call to My Caregiver Part of me. I am not sure where this Call will lead me, although I know that one day I would love to visit and work with these communities. For now, I am glad that we sponsor a little girl in Laos. I am also committed to donate $5 every Coaching Session to Plan Australia, who is committed to helping empower children and communities to create a positive future. I am drawn to images of Princess Diana and her charity work.
My Healer
Similar to My Sage, it is exciting to move away from a belief that I have to know everything or have everything prepared and organised - instead, I can Trust that I am here to Serve and I can relax in the mystery and spaciousness and Trust I will be filled with Spirit. My Healer energy also moves me away from having to be in my mind and always thinking, or self-conscious of having to get the right words, to a place of genuine, Heart to Heart Connection.
My Regular Gal
My Organiser
In terms of My Organiser I feel that I am moving away from a belief of "I can't" to a new belief of "I can". I always believed that it was my personality type that does create clutter in my home and study - now I am choosing a new belief of "I can choose to get organised and create systems, to create space and simplify". It can be overwhelming as I have a lot to clear and organise - this is when I bring in my Sub-Personality of My Cheerleader. My Cheerleader has been an essential part of me - encouraging and cheering me on - helping me to be motivated and focused for my Goals.
My Destroyer
I have been getting to know My Lover Archetype at different levels - Love of Self, Love of My Man, Love of what I do, Love of All. A few months ago I asked My Sage for some guidance in my relationship. In my Meditation I could see my Future with My Man, a wonderful Future of Love and Ease and Laughter and Dreams coming true. In the Meditation I was also shown an alternate Future, a life shared with a man from the past - in this Future, I saw myself walking through mud, being in hardship, feeling unloved and me trying to get love from him. In this Meditation I also saw that I had stayed in that bad relationship for so long since it brought out my Lover and Goddess Archetype, which had not been Present in me for a long time. I had been so focused on running and living the life of an athlete, and training my Body to be lean and fast, and was strict on myself, that this did not bring out the freedom and joy of being in my Goddess. And so when I rediscovered this Part of Self, I did not want to let this go - and so I continued in a loveless relationship. And then I cut this Part of Self off again, perhaps cutting my hair was an act of letting this go within Self. I am now bringing this Part back in me again.
My Lover loves music and dancing and loves My Man. My Lover is also discovering the joy of doing what I love, doing what has heart and meaning for me (a new belief) - rather than me trying to do something to attract or please others (which is where I spent years living in the Shadow of the Lover). I love Shania Twain's music and she reminds me of My Lover Part of me. In my 'Gathering of the Whole' Meditation, My Lover states "I Am Free, I Am Love". Yes, I love the idea of freedom. I definitely felt My Lover emerge when in a moment we decided to go skinny dipping late one night - I felt so free and it was wonderful to just embrace the moment.
My Warrior
My Nature Child
My new belief in terms of Nature is that I am in Connection with all, and being in Nature is so important to my well-being, it is not just something that I want to do sometimes - being in Nature daily is vital to me. I am also learning that as I say to God "I am here to serve you today, show me the way", that I am definitely being asked to step up, to show that I am true and authentic. Just last week, as I am starting out for my Nature walk, very excited that I had an hour to enjoy the outdoors, I see a possum being attacked by a crow. There were some workers from the school next door and we thought the possum might be dead. Automatically I went into "save the possum" mode and we worked together as a team to get the possum safely in a box, and ensured the possum was taken to a local vet. I realised that I never quite know where I will be called to service, and I was glad that it came naturally for me, to help rescue the possum.
My Wanderer
And as I am in the NOW of my Journey I feel that there is so much joy, as if I am in a field of Sunflowers.
My Visionary
When I am out Walking, when I am not caught up in my thinking, I am conscious of allowing Space for My Visionary. A long time ago I possibly believed that I had to think about my Future and think up ideas - now I believe that Vision is not of the mind, that it is of Spirit. Just the other day, when I was out Walking, I had a Vision, the same Vision I have had a few times. It is a Vision that feels so real, where I am lighting candles, one-by-one, and then those people go and light other candles, and then those people go and light candles, and so many people enjoy Light. I look back on my very first Art Therapy from the first year of my Coaching Course and this is the image that I also created on paper. In January this year, in a Meditation, I also had a Vision of me being in a Village, living and working among the community, where I am handing out Yellow pieces of paper. I was also Gifted with the words 'Spread The Yellow' and I have a knowing that this is definitely my Purpose. I feel My Visionary Archetype is around me and I would like to be more in touch with her Inspiration. Most important is to get My Visionary working with My Creator, My Organiser and My Magician.
My Creator
In my Coaching I am here to help my Clients Create A New Story for their lives. And so it is important for me that I am active in Creating My Own Story. I feel that I have the Power within me to write my own Story, not just journaling about the Past or Present - but putting my Vision and Goals down on paper. I want to write an Exciting Story and make this come true for me.
As well as painting the picture, My Creator is also active in putting all of the pieces together to Create the extraordinary artwork of my life, and bring projects alive.
I recently felt My Creator in action when I designed a competition for my Coaching Business, which has been wonderful in connecting with new Clients. I followed my Yin Intuition and my Yang made it happen. In My Creator I definitely want to be maximising the Power of my Yin and Yang to bring my Ideal Life into reality. Every morning I look at my Vision Board that I have Created and yet I also know that I have to take ACTION and allow My Creator to be active in my life. In My Creator Archetype I believe that ALL IS POSSIBLE!!! I have the Power to make my Dreams come true!
My Magician
In my 'Gathering of the Whole' Meditation I am moved to go down a flight of stairs, where I enter a deeper Meditation and through the forest I can see a Light.
I have a sense of My Magician - this is another Part of me that I am inviting to play a bigger part in my life. I have a sense of my Magician sending out Yellow bubbles of my Dreams and Intent and trusting that these will Manifest for me. I feel that My Magician is the Part that can become more active in my life - where I am able to activate the power of the 'Law Of Attraction', where I can clarify what I want, and I can send this wish out to the Universe, asking for God and my Angels to help me.
I was very touched recently when a Friend of mine called me 'Magic Girl' and referred a Client to me for Coaching and said that I bring Magic into people's lives. Hearing these words made my heart sing. I definitely want to be more in my Magic.
I am enjoying reading 'Everyday Grace' by Marianne Williamson and I am Inspired by her words "Each of us carries, in the depths of our consciousness, a boxful of mystical tools. And central to our tool kit is the magic wand. A wand is not just stillness from children's literature. Fairy tales are rife with Archetypal truths that teach not only children, but open-minded adults as well, deep and fundamental truths about the nature of our reality. A wand is a medium of power, not just for wizards, but also for you and me. A wand is essentially a principle, an intention, a focused thought. When focused thought is negative, it creates ill. And when focused thought is loving and enlightened, it creates miraculous breakthroughs."
My Jester
My Jester Part of me loves to laugh and have fun. My Jester likes to play, make jokes and be funny. I feel My Jester come out at work and at home, living in the moment and lightening the mood for Family, Friends and colleagues. My Jester loves shaking things up and seeing everyone laughing.
I welcome in My Jester to be more Present in my life. I love that Humor is one of the Coaching Competencies and I am really Excited that my Jester has just started coming forth in my Coaching, very naturally, and creating lightness and brightness during a Session.
My Innocent Child
Today in Meditation I found the energy of My Child - the Innocent part of me. I have read that the Innocent Archetype is a Call for the "desire for purity, goodness and simplicity". As I bring in all My Archetypes I definitely don't want to lose a sense of My Innocence.
I sometimes feel that there is so much to do and so many books to read and so much to do and so many books to read. And then I stop and remember that all of the answers are inside me, that I can just Trust my Self. And then this sounds all so serious - and so I remember to lighten up, be less serious, be playful and have fun. My Innocent Child takes away the Part of me that makes life complicated - and gets me back to simplicity. In the past My Innocent Child may have walked alone - now My Innocent has the backing and protection of all of the other Archetypes - where I am realising to walk only in one Archetype does not serve me or others.
FEELING INSPIRED
I will continue to enjoy the Opportunity For Self-Reflection on a daily basis, to be a Witness to my Self, as I commit myself to living a life of Love and Service in my Professional and Personal Life.
I am VERY Excited that I can now help my Clients at a deeper level - I can help them get in touch with their own Archetypes, accessing their own Lifetools to Serve them on their own Journeys and bring their own Dreams into reality. I am especially Excited about helping Clients access their Sage, learning to access and Trust their own Inner Knowing. And I love helping my Clients get in touch with their own Creator, allowing them to see their own potential to Create A New Story for their lives. And of course I see that my own experience with My Caregiver, and the huge lessons that I am learning, will allow me to be empathetic and understanding of my Clients and also helpful in looking at the possibilities and opportunities for change. And as I bring in My Magician more and more in my own life, I am hoping this will increase my own confidence in helping activate this Archetype in others.
I have been busy putting together my Toolbox with all of my Coaching Tools, and there are so many Coaching Tools available on so many different areas. Although, I enjoy having all of these Resources available for my Clients, I definitely have a sense that the greatest Resource for me as a Coach is being in My Presence, being in My Yellow Heart and feeling a Heart to Heart Connection with my Clients. And from this Sacred Space of Love and Light, I Trust that My Archetypes (My Inner Toolbox) will naturally emerge in my Role as a Coach.
As a Coach I am Honoured and Passionate about helping my Clients Love Self and Love Life.