The Organiser In Me

As part of my Preparation for my College Course of 'Life Quality and Design' I have been working through the Structured Processes of: The Ideal Scene, Wheel Of Life, Energy Leaks Inventory, Procrastinations Task Completion Sheet - and now time to look at Adrenaline.   

Reading about Adrenaline from an excerpt from 'Take Time For Your Life' by Cheryl Richardson is helpful.  "Various types of fuel give us energy needed to take action.  Some fuels are better than others.  For example, energy that comes from exercise, nutritious food, and the love and support of great people fuels you and supports your long-term health in a positive way.  Other energy sources such as adrenaline, caffeine, sugar, and anxiety may fuel you in intense bursts but ultimately put your health at risk." 

"Adrenaline is produced by the adrenal gland which regulates the body's fight-or-flight response to stimulating experiences.  These experiences can be positive and negative.  When you're late for an appointment and you hit a traffic jam, the rush of anxiety you feel sitting in the car is adrenaline.  When the deal you've been working on finally comes through, the excitement you feel also comes from adrenaline.  Adrenaline isn't bad, but when we develop habits like constantly running late or juggling too many projects at once, it gets us into trouble."

I take the Adrenaline test to see if this is fuelling me, by answering the following questions:

- Do you constantly overcommit yourself personally and professionally?  NO
- Do you double-book social engagements?  NO

- Are you usually late for appointments?  NO more than YES (I have been Consciously working on this to Honour others by Honouring appointments)

- Do you repeatedly check your voicemail or email throughout the day? Voicemail NO Email YES

- Is your schedule so full that there's no time left for you?  NO

- Do you feel lost without your beeper, cell phone, or laptop?  NO (Not anymore)

- Do you put things off to the last minute or use tight deadlines to get things done?  NO

- Do you find yourself in frequent conflicts with others?  NO

- Do you usually speed when driving?  NO

- Does it seem like your car's fuel gauge is always on or near empty?  YES

- Do you hate to stop and ask for or read directions?  NO

- Do you live on the edge financially?  NO

- Do you always feel pressed for time?  NO

- Do you put off making decisions or taking action in spite of the anxiety it causes?  NO

- Does the thought of being bored make you nervous and uncomfortable?  NO

- If the phone rings as you're heading out the door, do you answer it anyway?  NO
- Do you wake in the middle of the night with your thoughts racing, unable to sleep?  NO

- Do you juggle several projects at once?  NO
- Are you constantly coming up with new ideas to pursue? NO

- Do you often forget to follow through on commitments?  NO

I read that if I answered 'YES' to five or more questions, this would mean that I am running on adrenaline.  "These behaviours generate the constant hum of anxiety, and this anxiety pumps adrenaline into your body."

It comes as no surprise to me that I am not running on adrenaline - and I am still glad to review the questions.  It is a helpful guide for me and my Coaching Clients.  Since I was made redundant in February 2010, I have Consciously made Choices to allow Space in my life.  As a result I feel a lot more relaxed and peaceful.

This is the second time that I have read these notes, and an area that does resonate with me, and has triggered new Awareness and Behaviour is - "Start arriving fifteen minutes early for every appointment you make.  This one action can have a dramatic impact on the adrenaline cycle... you're able to arrive early and relax beforehand.  Give yourself room to breathe."  This is the only time when I feel that rush of anxiety, when I am rushing for appointments.  And I am now Conscious of Honouring the time of others by making sure that I am on time for appointments.  And I am also planning to bring into habit the practice of being fifteen minutes early for appointments.    

Apart from my rush to appointments, I do feel relaxed.  And while I have allowed the Space and have been enjoying more Space, I now feel that it is time to bring in more of the Yang Organised and Planned Part of me.  I feel I have some big Goals and I need to be doing more.  This is not to suggest that I want to be running on adrenaline - this Activity has helped highlight to me what I do not want to change.  It also highlights to me how much I have changed over the years - I remember the time when I couldn't get to sleep since I had so many thoughts racing through my head and when I used to have so many Commitments that I was so stressed and anxious.  Hmm... I am definitely enjoying being in a more relaxed and peaceful state.

As I have been studying and learning about Archetypes I am now trying to get to know The Organiser In Me.  I am wanting to create order, take full responsibility and be a leader of my life and enjoy Success of my Goals.  

I read that the Role of the Ruler/ Organiser is "to blend the other Sub-Personalities into a continuous expression.  The Ruler/ Organiser makes the decisions to leave something and start a new (enacted by the Destroyer and the Creator).  The Organiser decides who will do what in order to ensure the completion of the Goal in a timely manner."

I really want to embrace The Organiser In Me.  I have a sense that if I make better use of my diary and make lists and try to take Steps every day towards my Goals, then this will serve me well.  I know that I need to bring in more of my Yang and yet I do not want to be too Planned or Ordered or Controlled or take up all of the Space with a tight schedule.  I still want to allow my Intuitive Yin to guide me.  

I am wanting The Organiser In Me to help me with my Business, and also to continue being more Organised at home.  I also want The Organiser In Me to make sure I am making time for Meditation, Yoga, Walking, eating right - so that I am getting the best kind of energy that will support my health in a positive way.

I enjoy reading in 'The Dark Side Of The Light Chasers' by Debbie Ford "There is nothing wrong with faith.  There is nothing wrong with affirmations.  But at some point you must take the Next Step.  Make a Commitment to have what you want in life and then make a plan to get it.  It's there waiting for you but most likely it won't fall into your lap.  If you want to know whether you're serious about changing something in your life, ask yourself if you have a plan of ACTION.  If the answer is no, go back and see if you're really committed to achieving your Goal.  A plan of ACTION ought to be written down on paper.  If it's only in your mind it may be more of a Dream than a plan.  Plans in our minds tend to get lost or forgotten, or pushed aside by everyday life.  Tell yourself you'll have more of a chance of achieving your Goal if you have it written down and keep it at hand."

It is time for The Organiser In Me to get my Creator Archetype and Sage Archetype together and start writing down my ACTION Plans.

Dear God

In one day, one moment, your life can change.  Today at 11.20am I received a call from my Mum and Dad - I was sitting there waiting for the call. My Mum has been the specialist and she has found out that the brain tumor has grown - it is not the news that we want to hear.  I have been Praying and Praying and I feel an instant sadness when my Mum tells me about her MRI results.  I wish that I had have been with my Parents at the specialist, so that I could ask more questions.  I feel helpless right now. 

My Mum is Positive and after a few Conversations, my Mum offers that she will ring her own specialist (who is away for 2 weeks) and ask his opinion - yes, yes, this seems like the best Next Step.

This morning in my Meditation I felt that I had fear inside me and I practiced the NLP Technique of looking at the fear, taking it out of your body and then letting it go above you, around you, through you, so that it was now behind you.  I then had a sense of standing close to glass, and my Mum is behind the glass and I am just standing watching, so close and I am sending so much Yellow light to my Mum, and I have an image of my Man coming to stand with me and holding my hand.  I was sending Yellow rays all morning.  And then I received the call, and everything stopped - most of the day I have felt in a cloud, a dark, rainy cloud - laughter and smiles and lightness and brightness do not feel close to me right now.

There is so much out of my control right now, and worrying about what might happen or what this all means will not be helpful.  Right now I just feel sad and numb.

I speak to one of my close friends, and she tells me that her older parents are also not very well - where she is now being her Dad's full-time carer.  My friend was also saying, how easily, so unexpectedly, life can change.  There was a Gift in talking to my friend, she said that she is just cherishing every day with her Dad - really enjoying the time that they have together.  So much truth in these words.

On Saturday I had such a great day with my Mum and Dad - we enjoyed walking and talking and laughing.  These are some of my happiest times, just enjoying time together.  I love seeing my Mum smile.

I refer to my 'Law Of Attraction' book by Michael J. Losier - I have a feeling that I need to get this working for me - I need to get this working for my Mum.  I often talk about the Law Of Attraction and now I am motivated to learn more.

"Have you noticed that sometimes what you need just falls into place or comes to you from an out-of-blue telephone call?  Or you've bumped into someone on the street you've been thinking about?  Perhaps you've met the perfect client or life partner, just by fate or being at the right place at the right time.  All of these experiences are evidence of the Law Of Attraction in your life.  Have you heard about people who find themselves in bad relationships over and over again, and who are always complaining that they keep attracting the same kind of relationship?  The Law Of Attraction is at work for them too.  The Law Of Attraction may be defined as: I attract to my life whatever I give my attention, energy and focus to, whether positive or negative."

I also like these words "What you radiate outward in your thoughts, feelings, mental pictures and words, you attract into your life." Catherine Ponder, Dynamic Law of Prosperity

I read on "Every single moment you have a mood or a feeling.  In this moment right now, the mood or feeling you are experiencing is causing you to emit or send out a negative or positive vibration... For example, when a person wakes up first thing Monday morning feeling a little bit cranky and irritated, they are sending out a negative vibration, the Law Of Attraction responds, matching the vibration they are sending and giving this person more of the same." As I read this passage, it makes me realise that I need to be focusing on my Mum's track record of always beating cancer, she has a hurdle and then she has an operation or a treatment and she is well again.  My Mum is well, my Mum is feeling well and healthy.

I am really enjoying what I am reading - this book is an easy read and it makes sense - it is all a very good reminder to me today - "When you make a statement containing the words don't, not or no, you are actually giving attention and energy to what you don't want.  Simply ask yourself 'SO, WHAT DO I WANT?'"  I could sit here and say I don't want my Mum to get sick - instead I must choose my words - I want my Mum to be well and live to old age to see her Grandchildren grow up.

I like reading about "Contrast" and the step that needs to be taken when I recognise  "Contrast" - "Contrast... anything you don't like, doesn't feel good, or causes you to be in a negative mood.  The moment you identify something in your life that feels like contrast and you spend time complaining about it, talking about it, or declaring that you don't want it, you are offering a negative vibration.  The Law Of Attraction then responds to your negative vibration by giving you more of the same... By observing contrast and identifying it as something you don't want, you become clearer about what you do want.  Simply ask yourself 'So, what do I want?'"

First step is to Identify My Desire - I will repeat (and rewrite these words) - I want my Mum to be well and live a healthy life to old age to see her Grandchildren grow up.  I want my Mum to be with me when I get married and have children (although my Man tells me that I write in my Blogs too much about having children - hmm... this is not a good sign - and yet I am not going to focus on this tonight - and I will  maintain my clear Vision for my future which includes having children - and definitely includes my Mum seeing my Baby and enjoying my Baby growing up).

I really like this part of the Law Of Attraction, reinforcing the importance of being Grateful - "If you like what you are observing, then celebrate it, and in your celebration you will get more of it."  I am in Celebration of he wonderful times I spend with my Mum and look forward to so many more wonderful times, happy days together.

I love my Mum and my plan is to stay positive and send out positive vibrations that Mum will get the help that she needs to be well and healthy.  I am in Celebration of every phone call, every day spent with my Mum, every day I hear my Mum's happy, positive voice.

I love the concept of the "Vibrational Bubble" and as suggested in the book - "If you build your desire list and put it away in your sock drawer, your desire won't manifest because the Law Of Attraction doesn't respond to things in a sock drawer.  It only responds to what is currently in your Vibrational Bubble."  I will be Conscious of including in my Vibrational Bubble:

- talking about my desire

- noticing something I like

- daydreaming about my desire

- visualising my desire

- when I say yes to something

- when I remember something positive

- when I'm observing something positive

- when I'm praying about my desire
- when I'm celebrating something I like.

I am also Conscious of my Yellow bubbles - using the Law Of Attraction to Spread The Yellow to my Mum and putting positive images and thoughts out into the Universe.

As I read and write about the Law Of Attraction,  I have a sense that I should Pray again.  I have been Praying - I was Praying last night and this morning - and I know that God is close by to me and my Family.

Dear God, I am sorry that I sometimes forget to pray to you, or even say hello.  And, I am always Grateful, every day, for the beauty of the world.  Thank you God.  Please bless my Mum, heal my Mum.  I need my Mum.  Please send your love and light and healing power and miracles.  I thank you God for helping my Mum be so brave and positive and strong.  Please keep a watch over my Mum and send your angels to look after my Mum and help her contine to be healthy and well and live a long and healthy life.  Thank you God.

Yin-Yang Synthesis

* Synthesis is a stage of Blooms's Taxonomy - a stage of learning - the next stage of learning for me in relation to Yin-Yang. 

It is time for me to look at Yin-Yang Synthesis.  Synthesis - compiling information together in a different way by combining Yin and Yang in a new pattern to form something new.

As I was wrote in my Blog yesterday - the key for me is to bring Yin and Yang into maturity - not just having them kissing at the school disco - but Consciously bringing them together everyday to move me towards my Vision for my Coaching Business.  It is time to create a new story - and bring my Goddess and Strong Man into their power - a strong union of LOVE and PASSION...

When I look at Yin-Yang being a strong union of LOVE and PASSION - an image that came to me this morning in my Meditation was the scene from the movie "Shall We Dance" with Richard Gere and Jennifer Lopez - the Passion, the Connection - Yin giving her Yang instruction at first - and then Yang comes into his strength and they are in unison - this scene from the movie is electric.  See the link - Wonderful, Wow! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bibtqDxXv1o

I feel so in touch with my Yin - maybe not so much as a Goddess - and yet I am so Inspired when I look at beautiful Goddess images.

I really love the following image of the Goddess - I almost feel like it is a picture of how I would like to be with my Yin-Yang Synthesis - a Goddess in her power, with her strength.

I feel like I need to bring my Yang into power.  I am happy to let my Yin feel into the Next Step and let Yang know what needs to happen, and yet I have a sense that Yang could be a more powerful Resource in my life.  I look at the Strengths of Yang, and in true Yang style, I make a list of areas that I would like to develop:

- Doing

- Being Organised

- The value I place on myself - my Confidence in myself, my abilities, my capability to do things

- Being in charge of my own life

- Looking people in the eye and commanding attention (whether I say anything or not, because of my strength within)

- Taking risks, not afraid to put myself out there

- Being Decisive

- Able to focus and concentrate in order to get something done.

When I think about Yang and a time when Yin-Yang has been in power - I think about the time my Mum was sick with a brain tumor and we received a bad diagnosis and I rang Dr. Teo's Office and convinced the Receptionist that I needed to see Dr. Teo - my Yang would not take "no" for an answer - I spoke from my heart (my Yin) and my Yang was Strong and Confident.  We got the appointment and this changed our life - we thought my Mum would not go home from hospital and that this was the end - and yet my Mum was home by the weekend - just as Dr. Teo predicted - Dr. Teo saved my Mum's life.  When I remember this series of events - I know it happened because of my love for my Mum - that this was a life and death situation - that this mattered SO MUCH to me.

And now I need to embrace this Strength of Yang as I bring my Coaching Business to life.  I am so Passionate about Coaching - I love people - I am Passionate about helping people love their life.  This matters SO MUCH to me.  My Yin is inviting my Yang to dance.

As I imagine my Yang - these are the images that feel right to me - the Businessman Richard Gere from "Shall We Dance" + a Serious Muscle Man who has strength and is here to stay and means business + a Marathon Man who has endurance and Commitment and is my feet on the ground.

I love all these images - these bring my Yin-Yang Synthesis to life for me.

What I love about Coaching is that it is designed as an opportunity to learn new tools and techniques to help people in their life - tools and techniques that they can take away with them to apply for their own development as they move away from the Coaching relationship.  I love that I can Coach myself.  Tonight I am Grateful that I went to a NLP Course - where I have learnt some new techniques that I can apply in my own life and that will also be beneficial in my work with Clients.  In the next few days I am going to practice some of these NLP techniques to help me in bringing my Yin-Yang into power.

I am also committed to building my Yang through celebrating my Wins and through positive reinforcement of myself.

What a wonderful Journey, I am on the right path and I feel that I am moving in the right direction.

INVITATION TO MY YIN AND YANG - LET'S DANCE!!!  TIME TO EMBRACE!!!!!!!!!!!

Life Is Not Perfect

Life Is Not Perfect.  Today I feel like a fraud - I certainly don't feel Yellow - I certainly have no energy or motivation to go out into the world and Spread The Yellow (and when I read back over this sentence - I do not feel like a fraud - I just feel real).

We went to bed late - I am worried about my Family - and as I am stressed, this had a ripple effect and caused my Man and I to have a disagreement.  Before we fell asleep we were Best Friends again and we went to bed saying all these nice words to each other, taking turns to shower each other with compliments. - it was so sweet - my Man would say a word and then I would say a word - it just went back and forth - "Sexy", "Spunky", "Princess", "Prince", "Queen", "King", "Goddess", "Handsome"... it was a wonderful way to fall asleep.  I am eternally Grateful for my Man.

I woke up and I was so tired.  I dreamt through the night - I can't remember what my dream was about - yet dreaming makes me feel tired.  When I am conscious that I have been dreaming through the night, I wake up exhausted, almost like I have actually been on the adventure through the night.  I was talking to the Manager at the Bookstore and she was telling me that she also dreams at night and that it is important to write down the dreams - she said that if we do not pay attention to the dream, it is like, not opening a letter that has been sent to us.  I like this analogy.  This morning I can't remember the exact details of the dream - although it is about my Family - and the real life emotions are the same.  I have been told that the most important part of remembering the dream, is remembering the emotions (how did that make you feel?) rather than the story.

I didn't want to get up today.  My throat hurts, my head hurts, my back hurts.  Life Is Not Perfect.  My Life Is Not Perfect.  I could have actually stayed in bed all day - and I had this feeling, to my surprise, that I couldn't wait for the day to be over.  I bring out my Cheerleader part of me and get out of bed to go Walking.  I enjoy being out in the world - I just enjoy being out in the fresh air.

After a visit to the chemist and a bag of potions for my throat and headache, I walk home.  I decide to stay home, and not go to work today.  I make myself a Priority and choose my Health.  Life Is Not Perfect and I am not feeling my usual 120% and yet I can still look at what is within my power and make a Choice.

Life Is Not Perfect - I just want to hang out on the couch.  I even google Yellow flower images and Yellow images - and I love seeing Yellow. 

And as I look at the images of Yellow flowers, I look over on the dining room table and see my Yellow roses - I am so Grateful that my Man buys me flowers.

I love sleeping for a couple of hours and hanging out on the couch is a treat - just a chance for Self-Care.  I read a chapter 'Discovering Your Values' from my book 'Spiritual Business' by Kate Forster - "When you live with your Values, then you are on the right track.  But how on earth can you live them if you have no idea what they are?" - I also like the quote "Too many Values and you are never sure what to grasp at when the winds of change are blowing."  I also love the words "I believe that your own Values as a person, when they are brought into your own business, will make an exceptional company.  It will be a 'self-realised' company.  A company that understands what it is here to provide and is more successful as a result."

I love this book - it is making me think about my own Business - in a natural, flowing way, involving my Yin, rather than just being in a traditional Yang corporate style.  I reread some of my notes about Values from our Coaching Textbook 'Co-Active Coaching' - some of the key sentences I like that help define Values are - "Values are who we are.  Not who we would like to be, not who we think we should be, but who we are in our lives, right now... Our Values serve as a compass pointing out what it means to be true to oneself.  When we honor our Values on a regular and consisent basis, life is good and fulfilling... Important life decisions are easier to make and outcomes are more fulfilling when the decisions are viewed through a matrix of well-understood personal Values."

I remember looking at Values at College - considering our own Values and also the Values of our Clients.  Rather than looking at a long list of Values I loved the process of identifying Values by considering - Peak Moments In TIme, Suppressed Values ("looking at times when a Client was angry, frustrated, or upset") and "Must-Haves" ("look at what they must have in their lives").  I love the idea of having my Values in print - and also having Values that are both my Values for my Life and my Business.  I find that my Journal, and artwork paper and coloured crayons are perfect for putting my Values on paper.

I love putting these words on paper - My Values.  I will now put this sheet of paper up in our Study, next to my Vision Boards - so that I may see them on a daily basis.  These are my Values for My Life and My Business.

Today's main feeling has been that Life Is Not Perfect and yet when I look at my Values, I see LOVE large and right in the centre - and I know that I am so blessed to be able to score this Value 10 out of 10.

Yes, Life Is Not Perfect, and sometimes, like today, I am going to feel less than 100% - and yet I can Honour myself and just have a day to myself - sleeping, relaxing, sitting on the couch watching a fun TV series.  And I am Happy that today I was guided to relook at my Values.  Health is a big one for me - and that is why I decided to stay home.  I know that I could have gone to work and put on a Happy face and yet I am glad that I put my Health as a Priority - as now I feel ready to get back to work tomorrow and give my best - to Honour my Commitment of work, to strive for Achievement, to be in Celebration when I exceed my Targets.

I have listed 17 Values - there are a lot of Values on this list and yet they are all very important to me.  There is the opportunity for me to look at a Values-Based Decision Matrix - make a list of Values in Priority and also Scale each Value, the degree to which I am honouring each Value - this is the type of work that would be beneficial to a Client.  And yet, as I look at my List, I am so Aware that I do Honour my Values - today I just needed a day to Spread The Yellow to myself.  And soon my Man will be home and he has offered to make us dinner - I am so Grateful that he is so capable and so natural and has such a huge capacity to Spread The Yellow to me - just the small things that Make A Difference.

And I hear a knock at the door - and I am Excited - our Organic Fruit and Vege Box has arrived.  I love Mondays - did I just write this right - this morning I had Monday-itis - and yet now I feel so happy with this delivery.

I am also Delighted that I get to talk to the owner of the Business and tell her how much I love getting the Fruit and Vege Box and that I have been telling my friends about her Business.  I ask her how long she has been in Business - Emma tells me that it has been 1 year.  It was so great to talk to Emma about Business - Emma tells me that she has had such great results from being involved in the "Shine" Magazine - and that it is very affordable for each quarter and that I may be able to get an article written about me.  I love the "Shine" Magazine - it is a wonderful magazine - this is how I found out about Shire Organics and now I am a raving fan.  I may have just been given a Next Step from the Universe for my Business - yes, time to introduce myself to the Community - time to tell them that "I Am Here".  Promoting my Business SHINE Coaching in  the "Shine" Magazine is a perfect fit.   I fill my fruit bowl with all the wonderful pieces of fresh, organic apples, oranges, bananas, kiwi fruit, nashi pears - yum!!!  Life Is Perfect!!!