I Wish

The other day I went into Paddington to get some makeup for my wedding. As I do not wear makeup very often and like a very natural look, I have been looking for a makeup artist and the right makeup. And after meeting a lovely beautician on Thursday night, my journey took me into Paddington.

I am not a big shopper and yet when I arrived at Paddington, I heard the faint whisper of a Part of me that said “I Wish”... I was shocked - the voice said “I Wish I was rich...” In a second I thought about how I would go to the day spa all the time for facials and massages and “I Wish I was rich to go into all of the fancy clothing boutiques” and ”I Wish I had the confidence to go into the fancy boutiques”. And then in an instant I thought “I Wish I was more beautiful”,” I Wish I had perfect skin”, ” I Wish I had perfect features”, “ I Wish I had beautiful long hair”, “I Wish I looked all dressed up and fancy like the ladies passing by me”.

I was very curious about this Part of me...

Normally I sit in a place of Gratitude and Thankfulness for all I am and all I have. Very big in my Awareness is the fact that so many people live in poverty and struggle for their basic needs or even just people who are affected by sickness and disabiity. And yet here I was wishing for more.

And it is not that I can’t afford clothes in those boutiques - maybe one or two pieces (maybe a scarf) if I made it a Priority - yet it actually comes back to the larger Part of me that does not really like shopping. And yet I have noticed that there is this Part of me that is become louder and wants to wear nice things and wear makeup and look pretty. For a long time I did competitive Running, it was always about being faster - short hair, skinny, Running shoes, Running clothes, Running, training, competing - very Masculine and Yang. I even remember a boyfriend at the time who grew sick of my tracksuits and wished I wore more skirts - I still remember him saying that to me. And after I hurt my back I started wearing shapeup joggers to help my back, and they do make a difference - and yet now I want different. Now my Feminine Part of me, my Yin, is coming more alive, back alive - where I am finding myself wanting to buy magazines, wear pretty blouses, wanting to paint my nails - and even travelling to Paddington to get the right makeup that is right for me.

These thoughts in my head of “I Wish” only lasted about one or two minutes. I was then able to return to the Part of me that knows I am so fortunate. And then I also sat in a Space of what is really most important to me - what “I Wish” for the most - “I Wish my Mum didn’t have cancer”, this is the big number one - and “I Wish we have a baby soon”, another big, very important Wish.

Being in the Space of “I Wish” made me think of the Serenity Prayer - “God grant me the Serenity to Accept the things I cannot Change; the Courage to change the things I can; and the Wisdom to know the difference.” For me there are many things outside my control, some of the big things. And if my greatest ”I Wish” is about Family for me, I can continue to treat this as a Priority in my life.

And if I am finding my Spirit come alive and some excitement regarding matters of the Feminine, it does not mean that I have to get caught up in Consumerism, Materialism, Shopping - yet I can enjoy my trip to Paddington to buy makeup, I can buy and enjoy flicking through magazines, and I am really enjoying now that I am back again wearing more dresses, embracing my Feminine. And it doesn’t mean I have to spend a lot of money - I even enjoyed a look at St Vincent De Paul’s at Paddington and found a really nice designer blouse and also a dress - all for the total price of $18 - I was Excited. I don’t really care about the “designer” bit, although there was a Part of me quietly Proud as if I had bought it at full price - and the main Part of me loved the bargain. Mostly I always love the opportunity to be on a treasure hunt to see what surprises and delights me in second hand stores and I love the chance to Recycle and Reuse.

The “I Wish” related to the Feminine Part of me is loving colour and fabrics and fashion. My Spirit is highlighting that I could get back to sewing again - I remember with fond memories sewing clothes -back when I was about 16-20 years of age. I used to love sewing dresses and wearing them out. Perhaps a new hobby when the time is right. And I am also interested in expressing my creativity through photography - another hobby I once loved.

I am not going to say” I Wish I had more time”.   I know I have the power to manage my time so that I can focus on my Priorities and Values.

I just realised that if I stay in the “I Wish” Space for too long (more than a couple of minutes), I am almost sitting in powerlessness, almost waiting for someone to rescue me or make my dreams come true.

Instead if I use the “I Wish” Space as a window to when my Spirit comes alive and when I feel Inspired, I can decide if this is really my heart’s desire.  There is almost a childhood Innocence here -  I can ask my Innocence Part of me what I really want, and in the quietness listen to my inner voice.

For ages and always, since I have stopped Running over the last couple of years, whenever I see a runner, I always say to myself “I Wish I could run again”, and so today on my walk, I allowed my Self to enjoy a few minutes of Running, in between Walking, enough to make me feel the aliveness and Joy of Running. Wonderful!!!

From the “I Wish” Space I can also check to see what is underneath the “I Wish” and show Curiosity of how I can fulfil Needs for my Self, my Soul. As an example the “I Wish I was rich and I would go to day spas more often”, I know this for me is about yes being pampered, but most importantly just wanting time to relax and have “me time”.  And so this morning I made it a Priority to get up early and take a walk in nature, and this evening made time for a relaxing bath.

And so from the “I Wish” Space, which feels so distant and far away, I am able to move to a place of feeling Excited and Empowered.

Opportunity For Self-Reflection

Over the last couple of months, I have been enjoying the Opportunity For Self-Reflection.  This has been a recommendation as part of my Life Coaching Professional Training and it has been life changing for me.  I feel that I have learnt so much about my Self and that I am now so in touch with my Inner Strengths and Resources.  I have found Peace.  My Journey is only just beginning and I am Excited. 

MY YELLOW HEART
Initially my Self-Reflection was about observing where I spend my time - in my Mind, Feelings or Body.  I quickly realised that I was spending a lot of time thinking, a lot of time overthinking.  In my Mind I was thinking about the Past and the Future, thinking about things I couldn't change, thinking about what I did and didn't like about work - just thinking, thinking, thinking.  NOW I am excited that I am able to bring myself into the NOW - to be fully Present - I am not in thinking mode, or feeling mode, I am in a neutral, relaxed position.  My Touchstone, my symbol of this Presence, is My Yellow Heart.  I have a sense that My Yellow Heart is my Soul's Home.  It is a place of Love, Light, Peace and Truth.  It is a resting place.  I feel myself totally relaxed in my Body, totally Present.  When I am sitting with my Clients I am in My Yellow Heart - totally Present, creating a Sacred Space.

When I reflect on my Coaching Business logo, and what my work is about for my Clients, I feel that I am able to experience the essence of my logo - where I am sitting in a relaxed place, in My Yellow Heart, and then from this place I will naturally bring my Yin and Yang into the Coaching Space.

I find that I am no longer wasting energy thinking about my Past or what is not within my control.  I find that I am more at Peace.  I find that I have an Inner Strength that supports me.  If I find myself going back into an old pattern of worrying or thinking, I imagine a STOP sign and with the image of My Yellow Heart, I am able to come back to the Present moment.

Or if I am drawn back to the Past, I bring in the image of boxes all packed up and come back to the NOW.  I bring in the images of the boxes if I start thinking about my Past, wasting mental energy - in this way I am able to see that these memories are in the Past, the boxes are closed and stacked away.

And if I look at my Past from a Spiritual perspective, I am able to see that all of my experiences are part of who I am and my Journey.  My Past experiences have motivated me to become a Coach and a Healer.  From this perspective, when I do turn to my Past, I feel that all my stories and life experiences are like books in a bookshelf.  As books in the bookshelf I am able to open and close them and certainly refer to the lessons to help me in my life.  My life experience also gives me an incredible sense of Compassion for my Clients.

 
In My Yellow Heart I feel Love and Light, I am Presence, I am in the NOW.  In this place I am able to hear the whisper of my Soul's longing and feel the rising of Spirit in my Self and my Life.

Being in Presence has been very important to me, especially with all of the ups and downs and swings and roundabouts in my life.  When I am Present, I also have a sense of Trust that all will be okay, that I have the Strength within me.


MY ARCHETYPES

I have also loved the Opportunity For Self-Reflection to get to know my Archetypes - I have loved this Opportunity.  I have found that there is so much Power and Strength in knowing all of these Parts of me and choosing how they show up in my life and when to bring them on the Stage in my life.

I have also found, that these different Parts of me, naturally emerge when I am in my Presence, totally Present in My Yellow Heart, when I am living in the Now.

I have enjoyed Art Therapy, sketching and colouring with my crayons and pencils.  I have enjoyed walks in Nature.  I have enjoyed being a Client and working with my Coach.  I have enjoyed Meditation.  I especially loved the 'Gathering of the Whole' Meditation where I was able to be a witness and interact with my Archetypes.  I have also enjoyed reading about the different Archetypes and selecting images that resonate for me.  While I have been researching the Archetypes, I am not sitting in a place of trying to understand the theory - instead, I am really sitting into the truth of what this is for me, and with a curiosity of what is possible from this Part of my Self.

I loved getting to know my Yin and Yang and now I am loving getting to know my Archetypes which have both Yin and Yang in them.  I feel that when I am in tune with my Yin Intuition, my 'gut feel', I am able to get my Yang to speak and act for the Highest Good.  I am still learning about these Parts of me and I am enjoying getting to know My Sage, Nature Child, Innocent Child, Caretaker, Regular Gal, Wanderer, Warrior, Jester, Destroyer, Organiser, Creator, Magician, Visionary, Lover, Healer.    

My Sage

I have a strong sense of My Sage - My Wise Self.  In my 'Gathering of the Whole' Meditation I imagined meeting My Sage.  My Sage stood right next to me, the Observer part of me.  My Sage is glowing and full of Light.  I feel energised in her Presence.  My Sage tells me "I am here, I am always here".  My Sage is connected to the Love and Light of the Universe.  I am Grateful to find this Part of me to be so Resourceful and Helpful.  I draw on My Sage to Guide me.  My Intent is to draw on the Wisdom of My Sage and speak and act more often from this Part of me. 

There is the question of what is the new belief that is true for me?  Looking at the Shadow of The Sage, perhaps the belief in me was that I had to know everything, or find the answer outside of my Self - however, now I am learning that My Sage is connected to God, Inspired by Spirit and I can draw on Universal Wisdom.  From this place, I can Trust my Self, rather than searching for the answers outside of my Self.   

My Caregiver

In the last few months I have spent a lot of time in My Caregiver Archetype.  I am learning a lot about My Caregiver Part of my Self.  I naturally move into a Caregiver with my Nieces and my Parents and My Man and my Brother.  There are many positives of My Caregiver in that I am loving and caring and helpful and want to take away the pain of my Family.  In terms of images, I felt that this was My Caregiver - a traditional image of a Mother and Child.  What I am learning is that this Caregiver image can best serve me and encourage me to look after my own vulnerable child within - making sure I make Self-Care a Priority.  My Caregiver is learning to balance Self-Care with Care for others.

And in my Self-Reflection I am realising that I need to also evolve the essence of My Caregiver - moving away from coming across as the Parent of my Nieces, Brother, Parents or My Man.  And so I am Consciously shifting My Caregiver Part of me.  By being a Witness to my Self, I am learning that I need to be there for my Family and offer help and yet I need to remember the words "I am I, You are You".  With my Family, especially my Brother and my Parents I need to communicate from a place of Sacred Space and Trust my Family - not try to be the Parent.  I need to Trust that we are all on our own separate Journey and allow us each the Space to walk our Path.  I need to Consciously tune into My Sage to help me with My Caregiver Role as it can be challenging when I have Parents who are not well and I am wanting my Brother to be different in his Caregiver role - and of course this is outside my control - and I need to respect Boundaries.  In particular I believe that My Sage and My Caretaker can work together for the Greatest Good.   

I also sense that in My Caregiver Part of me I can offer the sense of holding hands with those I love and looking out in the same direction - looking at shared objectives and facing the future together.  This is one of my most challenging parts of my Journey right now - and I am Consciously trying to move away from the belief that "I need to be in the boat with you and I give my advice because I care" to "I am here for you and I respect your choices".  I feel that I can Consciously bring My Healer energy into my personal relationships to join together with My Caregiver.

When I feel drawn to work with children and communities living in poverty, I also feel a Call to My Caregiver Part of me.  I am not sure where this Call will lead me, although I know that one day I would love to visit and work with these communities.  For now, I am glad that we sponsor a little girl in Laos.  I am also committed to donate $5 every Coaching Session to Plan Australia, who is committed to helping empower children and communities to create a positive future.  I am drawn to images of Princess Diana and her charity work.

The other night I was watching a segment on ABC about the disaster in Pakistan, it breaks my heart seeing these people who have lost everything, babies are sick and families are hungry.  It is heartbreaking seeing a mother losing her baby.  We live in a world of consumerism, people wanting bigger TVs and jewellery and fancy clothes and cars and these children don't have food.   What is going on with this world?  Time to donate money.  My Man and I donated money to help bring food and relief to families in Pakistan.  I would like to do more.  There is something that is definitely resonating for me.  It was interesting when I reviewed my Family of Origin and Family Tree last year as part of my Counselling Certificate where I found that there was a Christian Missionary in my Family.  If I was younger now and not so keen to start my own Family, I would definitely be travelling to work in third world countries.  And for now I will continue to be aware and do what I can in terms of contribution.  


My Healer

I love My Healer Archetype - a Part of me that I have discovered since becoming a Coach.  In My Healer I can hold a Sacred Space with another, totally in my Presence.  I feel a Connection Heart to Heart.  When I was reading 'The Four-Fold Way' by Angeles Arrien, I loved reading about the Healer "Effective Healers from any culture are those who extend the arms of love: acknowledgement, acceptance, recognition, validation and gratitude."  One of my favourite parts of being a Coach is acknowledging my Client's Beauty and Strengths, acknowledging the Light within my Client, seeing my Client's Uniqueness and Greatness.  I ask God and the Universe that I can Love and Serve by being a Channel for Divine Energy - in my Coaching, I call on the Power of Spirit and my Angels to help me in my work as a Healer.  I feel the message of My Healer is "I Am Here to Heal with My Heart".

Similar to My Sage, it is exciting to move away from a belief that I have to know everything or have everything prepared and organised - instead, I can Trust that I am here to Serve and I can relax in the mystery and spaciousness and Trust I will be filled with Spirit.  My Healer energy also moves me away from having to be in my mind and always thinking, or self-conscious of having to get the right words, to a place of genuine, Heart to Heart Connection.

My Regular Gal

In my Regular Gal Archetype I feel that I can easily relax in this Part of me - there is no pressure to play a Role or perform, or try to fit in.  It is where I am just one of the Staff at work, or among Friends or Family.  In this Part of me I can enjoy a sense of belonging to the group, by being relaxed in my Self.  In this place I can stand in a belief that we are all the same - that we are all human, that we are not perfect, that we all have triumphs and we all have pain.  This Part of me believes that everyone is of value and deserves to be valued.  And I can hold the Paradox that we are all the same and that we all have our own Uniqueness and Greatness.  My Regular Gal, My Healer and My Sage can work together with a desire for Connection for the Highest Good.    

My Organiser

It has been great for me to Consciously bring My Organiser into the Stage of my life.  I have found that I often create clutter in my study and kitchen.  I can get enthusiastic and excited and so I bring in paperwork and my "things" and find that I don't always have places for all my "stuff".  My Man and I have moved in together and so between us we have combined our "stuff" in a combined Space - and yet this is not a reason or excuse.  I also find myself getting stuck sometimes, I organise for a while and then lose momentum.  In working with the different Parts of me I found a Sub-Personality that was almost keeping me stuck in the Past, it was the Part of me that was always searching and looking for my Path which would mean that I would continually have paperwork and moving from Project to Project.  And then My Sage comes in and guides me to see that I have found my lifework and I can therefore simplify my life and my home.  I have been working with My Organiser and I feel that there is so much potential for this Part of me to find a place for everything.  I also want to bring in My Organiser to help me with my time management and organising my Priorities - although I definitely want to ensure that there is Space for Spontaneity - just to follow my Heart and go with the flow.

I also feel that My Organiser is very hands on and physically active in getting things "done".  I definitely need to bring in the essence of both of these as I organise my study, my superannuation, my Spring clean and my garage sale - projects that are important to me.

In terms of My Organiser I feel that I am moving away from a belief of "I can't" to a new belief of "I can".  I always believed that it was my personality type that does create clutter in my home and study - now I am choosing a new belief of "I can choose to get organised and create systems, to create space and simplify".  It can be overwhelming as I have a lot to clear and organise - this is when I bring in my Sub-Personality of My Cheerleader.  My Cheerleader has been an essential part of me - encouraging and cheering me on - helping me to be motivated and focused for my Goals.

My Destroyer

I feel that My Destroyer has been fairly active in the last 2 years - cutting out of my life what is no longer working for me and no longer serving me.  I believe that the energy of My Destroyer will be important in working with My Organiser in some Spring cleaning Projects.  My Destroyer can be very Passionate, working with My Warrior and standing up for what is right and what is no longer relevant or outdated.  I also ask My Destroyer energy in, when I am looking at maintaining a healthy lifestyle, helping me cut out sugar and chocolate, where I would rather be eating healthy all the time (although not wanting the Perfectionist to rule my world).

 

My Lover
I have been getting to know My Lover Archetype at different levels - Love of Self, Love of My Man, Love of what I do, Love of All.  A few months ago I asked My Sage for some guidance in my relationship.  In my Meditation I could see my Future with My Man, a wonderful Future of Love and Ease and Laughter and Dreams coming true.  In the Meditation I was also shown an alternate Future, a life shared with a man from the past - in this Future, I saw myself walking through mud, being in hardship, feeling unloved and me trying to get love from him.  In this Meditation I also saw that I had stayed in that bad relationship for so long since it brought out my Lover and Goddess Archetype, which had not been Present in me for a long time.  I had been so focused on running and living the life of an athlete, and training my Body to be lean and fast, and was strict on myself, that this did not bring out the freedom and joy of being in my Goddess.  And so when I rediscovered this Part of Self, I did not want to let this go - and so I continued in a loveless relationship.  And then I cut this Part of Self off again, perhaps cutting my hair was an act of letting this go within Self.  I am now bringing this Part back in me again.

My Lover loves music and dancing and loves My Man.  My Lover is also discovering the joy of doing what I love, doing what has heart and meaning for me (a new belief) - rather than me trying to do something to attract or please others (which is where I spent years living in the Shadow of the Lover).  I love Shania Twain's music and she reminds me of My Lover Part of me.  In my 'Gathering of the Whole' Meditation, My Lover states "I Am Free, I Am Love".  Yes, I love the idea of freedom.  I definitely felt My Lover emerge when in a moment we decided to go skinny dipping late one night - I felt so free and it was wonderful to just embrace the moment.

And My Lover definitely loves turning off the tv, putting on music and dancing in the living area - life is to be enjoyed, moment to moment.  I am enjoying My Lover being present in my life, this is an energetic and enthusiastic part of me.

My Warrior

I look at the Exceptions, when I have been in My Warrior energy.  One of the recent examples was last year when I stood up for my Self and ended a relationship that was no longer serving me.  I remember feeling so in my Power, feeling so empowered.  There was also another time, when I met with a doctor recently to talk about my Coaching Business, and I also felt in My Warrior - communicating with Passion about my Coaching Business. When I am in My Warrior I feel that I communicate with Clarity and Strength.  I still have more to learn about My Warrior and yet I believe this energy and Part of me is an excellent Resource for my Journey.

I love reading about the Warrior Archetype in 'The Four-Fold Way' by Angeles Arrien and would like to build and strengthen and access the Universal Powers of "Power of Presence, Power of Communication and Power of Position".  I feel Excited that I am now very Present in the NOW.  In terms of Power of Communication, this is an area that I would like to develop further in my life - "Skillful communication means we have aligned content, timing and context".  "Communication that empowers and inspires us is communication that is delivered at the appropriate time and place for the person involved to hear and receive it."  I would like to communicate with more clarity and be succinct, fewer words and making every word count.  It's funny I have always thought that I was an Extravert and yet now I feel that I am enjoying a more inner, Introvert world - where I am feeling less need for words and I am enjoying more silence.  I find that this is allowing My Warrior to emerge when there are important words to be shared with another.  In terms of Power of Position, "The Warrior demonstrates the willingness to take a stand.  This is the capacity to let others know where we stand, where we don't stand, what we stand for, and how we stand up for ourselves." 

I am still working with this Archetype, wanting to be conscious of not bringing in a Shadow part that may speak from a place of anger or that may challenge another and creates conflict - especially with my Brother or in a difficult work situation.  Instead in My Warrior, I want to be able to be assertive and calm in clearly expressing my Truth and allowing others to respond with their Truth.  

My Nature Child

I love that My Nature Child Part of me is out in the Light.  I have been enjoying this Part of me all year.  My Nature Child just loves being out in Nature - I love Walking in the morning, being outdoors, feeling the breeze, listening to the Birds singing, loving the beauty of the flowers, enjoying Connection with Trees.  In my 'Gathering of the Whole' Mediation, when this Part of me comes forth, I notice a quietness and I have a sense that this Part of me has a strong Connection with all.  My Nature Child loves to come out everyday - the problem is, once My Nature Child is out in the world, My Nature Child does not want to go to work in an office.

My new belief in terms of Nature is that I am in Connection with all, and being in Nature is so important to my well-being, it is not just something that I want to do sometimes - being in Nature daily is vital to me.  I am also learning that as I say to God "I am here to serve you today, show me the way", that I am definitely being asked to step up, to show that I am true and authentic.  Just last week, as I am starting out for my Nature walk, very excited that I had an hour to enjoy the outdoors, I see a possum being attacked by a crow.  There were some workers from the school next door and we thought the possum might be dead.  Automatically I went into "save the possum" mode and we worked together as a team to get the possum safely in a box, and ensured the possum was taken to a local vet.  I realised that I never quite know where I will be called to service, and I was glad that it came naturally for me, to help rescue the possum.

My Wanderer

I am enjoying My Wanderer Part of me.  I feel My Wanderer is closely aligned with My Nature Child, enjoying a sense of wonder and freedom.  I love going for my Nature walks in the morning and My Wanderer would be happy to explore all day long.  I have a sense of setting off into the world, like a backpacker on a Journey.

And as I am in the NOW of my Journey I feel that there is so much joy, as if I am in a field of Sunflowers.

In My Wanderer I have a sense that I am on this Journey to discover my own individuality.  I am no longer the Executive or Manager working in a Corporate office.  I am here to live my Purpose to Spread The Yellow.  I am here to Connect Heart to Heart through my Coaching.  I am inviting My Wanderer more into my life where I can trust my Yin, my Intuition and allow my Yang ACTION to take me forward as I express my Individuality and Uniqueness, and help others to also connect to their own Light and Greatness.  I love this image of the Sunflower in the Field of Lavender which captures the essence of my Journey to stand in the sunlight and SHINE as ME.

I am changing my belief, where I would normally need to have the entire plan worked out.  I now have a sense that I need to relax and REALLY enjoy My Wanderer more often, allow my Self to enjoy the freedom, where I am no longer restricted by a corporate career and I CAN just relax more, walk more, be in My Wanderer more and just listen for the whispers of my Soul.  I can celebrate that I have the opportunity to be in My Wanderer.  When I find my Self going into an old pattern of busy, busy, busy, work, work, work, plan, plan, plan - I bring in the opportunity for more space in my day and my life - to allow my Self to be in My Wanderer.  The Shadow of this Part of me also believes that I have to keep searching, searching, searching, looking, looking, looking - and yet in the true essence of My Wanderer, I can just enjoy each day and Trust that as I follow my Intuition, this will lead to the Greatest Good for my Self and all.

I know that My Wanderer, My Visionary, My Creator and My Magician can all work together.

My Visionary
When I am out Walking, when I am not caught up in my thinking, I am conscious of allowing Space for My Visionary.  A long time ago I possibly believed that I had to think about my Future and think up ideas - now I believe that Vision is not of the mind, that it is of Spirit.  Just the other day, when I was out Walking, I had a Vision, the same Vision I have had a few times.  It is a Vision that feels so real, where I am lighting candles, one-by-one, and then those people go and light other candles, and then those people go and light candles, and so many people enjoy Light.  I look back on my very first Art Therapy from the first year of my Coaching Course and this is the image that I also created on paper.  In January this year, in a Meditation, I also had a Vision of me being in a Village, living and working among the community, where I am handing out Yellow pieces of paper.  I was also Gifted with the words 'Spread The Yellow' and I have a knowing that this is definitely my Purpose.  I feel My Visionary Archetype is around me and I would like to be more in touch with her Inspiration.  Most important is to get My Visionary working with My Creator, My Organiser and My Magician.

My Creator

In my Self-Reflection, I am realising that I would like My Creator to be more active in my life.  I feel that My Creator is the key to putting my Dreams into ACTION.  The essence of My Creator is colour, energy, enthusiasm, Light and bright and active.  My Creator is flowing and graceful. 

In my Coaching I am here to help my Clients Create A New Story for their lives.  And so it is important for me that I am active in Creating My Own Story.  I feel that I have the Power within me to write my own Story, not just journaling about the Past or Present - but putting my Vision and Goals down on paper.  I want to write an Exciting Story and make this come true for me.

As well as painting the picture, My Creator is also active in putting all of the pieces together to Create the extraordinary artwork of my life, and bring projects alive.

I recently felt My Creator in action when I designed a competition for my Coaching Business, which has been wonderful in connecting with new Clients.  I followed my Yin Intuition and my Yang made it happen.  In My Creator I definitely want to be maximising the Power of my Yin and Yang to bring my Ideal Life into reality.  Every morning I look at my Vision Board that I have Created and yet I also know that I have to take ACTION and allow My Creator to be active in my life.  In My Creator Archetype I believe that ALL IS POSSIBLE!!!  I have the Power to make my Dreams come true!

My Magician
In my 'Gathering of the Whole' Meditation I am moved to go down a flight of stairs, where I enter a deeper Meditation and through the forest I can see a Light.

I have a sense of My Magician - this is another Part of me that I am inviting to play a bigger part in my life.  I have a sense of my Magician sending out Yellow bubbles of my Dreams and Intent and trusting that these will Manifest for me.  I feel that My Magician is the Part that can become more active in my life - where I am able to activate the power of the 'Law Of Attraction', where I can clarify what I want, and I can send this wish out to the Universe, asking for God and my Angels to help me.

I was very touched recently when a Friend of mine called me 'Magic Girl' and referred a Client to me for Coaching and said that I bring Magic into people's lives.  Hearing these words made my heart sing.  I definitely want to be more in my Magic.

I am enjoying reading 'Everyday Grace' by Marianne Williamson and I am Inspired by her words "Each of us carries, in the depths of our consciousness, a boxful of mystical tools.  And central to our tool kit is the magic wand.  A wand is not just stillness from children's literature.  Fairy tales are rife with Archetypal truths that teach not only children, but open-minded adults as well, deep and fundamental truths about the nature of our reality.  A wand is a medium of power, not just for wizards, but also for you and me.  A wand is essentially a principle, an intention, a focused thought.  When focused thought is negative, it creates ill.  And when focused thought is loving and enlightened, it creates miraculous breakthroughs."


My Jester
My Jester Part of me loves to laugh and have fun.  My Jester likes to play, make jokes and be funny.  I feel My Jester come out at work and at home, living in the moment and lightening the mood for Family, Friends and colleagues.  My Jester loves shaking things up and seeing everyone laughing.

I welcome in My Jester to be more Present in my life.  I love that Humor is one of the Coaching Competencies and I am really Excited that my Jester has just started coming forth in my Coaching, very naturally, and creating lightness and brightness during a Session.  


My Innocent Child
Today in Meditation I found the energy of My Child - the Innocent part of me.  I have read that the Innocent Archetype is a Call for the "desire for purity, goodness and simplicity".  As I bring in all My Archetypes I definitely don't want to lose a sense of My Innocence.

 
I sometimes feel that there is so much to do and so many books to read and so much to do and so many books to read.  And then I stop and remember that all of the answers are inside me, that I can just Trust my Self.  And then this sounds all so serious - and so I remember to lighten up, be less serious, be playful and have fun.  My Innocent Child takes away the Part of me that makes life complicated - and gets me back to simplicity.  In the past My Innocent Child may have walked alone - now My Innocent has the backing and protection of all of the other Archetypes - where I am realising to walk only in one Archetype does not serve me or others.

FEELING INSPIRED

I have learnt that each Archetype has a way of being, a posture, a way of moving.  I am also conscious that each Archetype has a Shadow Sub-Personality with beliefs that do not serve.  Some of my Archetypes have come out of the Shadow and into the Light, and in the Light they have a different way of being, with Empowering  beliefs.  When they are in the Light I can choose the way they "show up" for me.  Now that all of these Parts of me are in the Light, I am wanting them to work together as a Team and help me live a life of Love, Light, Peace, Truth, Service.  Every morning I look at my Vision Board and I believe that the Strength and Teamwork of my Archetypes is the key to my Present and my Future.  

This experience has been so beneficial to me.  It has been so wonderful in helping me learn about the depth of our Being, the Energy and Power that is within us all - that can help us to be Empowered in our lives.  I know I have so many Choices in terms of my Internal Focus for Change - I can choose and design my inner experiences and my life.  I have found my Strengths and Resources.  I can choose what Archetypes to bring on the Stage in my life and I especially love that My Archetypes naturally emerge when I am in my Presence of Love and Light.  I have found my Self.  I feel Excited and Inspired. 

I will continue to enjoy the Opportunity For Self-Reflection on a daily basis, to be a Witness to my Self, as I commit myself to living a life of Love and Service in my Professional and Personal Life.

This is my Journey and I CHOOSE TO LIVE!!!  AND LOVE!!!  I CHOOSE FREEDOM TO BE TRUE TO MY SOUL'S JOURNEY.

I am VERY Excited that I can now help my Clients at a deeper level - I can help them get in touch with their own Archetypes, accessing their own Lifetools to Serve them on their own Journeys and bring their own Dreams into reality.   I am especially Excited about helping Clients access their Sage, learning to access and Trust their own Inner Knowing.  And I love helping my Clients get in touch with their own Creator, allowing them to see their own potential to Create A New Story for their lives.  And of course I see that my own experience with My Caregiver, and the huge lessons that I am learning, will allow me to be empathetic and understanding of my Clients and also helpful in looking at the possibilities and opportunities for change.  And as I bring in My Magician more and more in my own life, I am hoping this will increase my own confidence in helping activate this Archetype in others. 

I have been busy putting together my Toolbox with all of my Coaching Tools, and there are so many Coaching Tools available on so many different areas.  Although, I enjoy having all of these Resources available for my Clients, I definitely have a sense that the greatest Resource for me as a Coach is being in My Presence, being in My Yellow Heart and feeling a Heart to Heart Connection with my Clients.  And from this  Sacred Space of Love and Light, I Trust that My Archetypes (My Inner Toolbox) will naturally emerge in my Role as a Coach.


As a Coach I am Honoured and Passionate about helping my Clients Love Self and Love Life.

New Way Of Being

I just love Wattle Trees.  Today when I was getting out of my car, just about to rush out in the rain, I noticed a beautiful Wattle Tree bush next to my car - and for a few seconds, my Soul felt alive, soaking in the beauty of the Yellow Wattle Tree.  And everyone knows how much I LOVE Yellow.

I am Consciously shifting to a New Way Of Being.  In My New Way Of Being I am Totally Present and more in my Body.  In my Other Way Of Being I can get stuck in Thinking or Overthinking or in the Shadow of Worrying, or be swept away with my Feelings.  In this New Way Of Being I notice the Yellow Wattle Trees and I love to hear the Kookaburras singing.  Very important to me is spending time in Nature and enjoying smelling the roses (literally).

  
I love that I am a Transformational Life Coach and I am very Passionate about working with my Clients when they are working at embracing a New Way Of Being, discovering and exploring their Inner Journeys.  And I am Passionate about my own Journey.  For me my New Way Of Being is about being "Present and Warm To What Is", it is about being Real and Authentic, it is about Being in the Now.

In this New Way Of Being I am Totally Present in my Relationships, I am not in a rush or having to be somewhere else, I enjoy the Present Moment.  I am Grateful for my Man and my Family.  The image of this New Way Of Being for me is My Yellow Heart – where I am relaxed and at Peace and there is purity in my Love and Connection for all.  In this New Way Of Being there is Joy and Happiness and Gratitude for Beauty and Simplicity.

In this New Way Of Being where I am Totally Present and in tune with my Body, I am able to decide my ACTION.  Both of my Parents are not well at the moment and I today I felt a sense of being uncomfortable in my Body.  My Mum said that they were okay and that I should just be at work today, and yet it was an easy decision to talk to my Manager and advise him that I needed to leave within the next few hours.  My Values came into this decision today, an easy decision for me, where Family and Love are my biggest Priorities.  I am just so happy that my lifestyle and my work allow me the flexibility, where I can leave work to look after my Mum and Dad.  I knew that I needed to see my Mum and Dad and once I was with them, at their Home, that still feels Home to me, I felt relaxed and calm and Grounded in my Body. 

Rather than worrying about what may or may not happen, which is my Other Way Of Being, I am able to rest and relax now that I am at Home, knowing that I have been Present to my Mum and Dad.

Of course, I sometimes need reminders to keep me on track in this New Way Of Being, to bring me back to being Present in the Now. Sometimes I remind myself when I catch myself worrying about what I cannot control - I say "Stop" and this moves me out of my Thinking and back to the Present.   Other times, like this afternoon, when I was driving Home from my Parents, I was lost in Thinking about my Brother and what I wish could be different, and then I see a car number plate, I feel it is a message from the Universe for me - "I AM I".  This reminds me of my Counselling Courses where we are trained to recognise that "I Am I... You Are You", and from this place I bring myself back to the Present Moment and not take on all the worry and responsibility.

 This can be challenging when it involves the people that I love.  Today I feel myself stepping into my Caregiver Archetype, which comes naturally for me. 

And yet the Shadow of this can be when I go into worry.  My Man is also sick, and it would be easy for me to create all of these possible scenarios about what this means and the fear of test results, and yet my worry will not serve us - instead I can be in the Present and approach day by day.

Being Present in the Now for me is about letting go of my Past.  I love the quote that hangs in our living area "Yesterday is history, Tomorrow is a mystery, Today is a Gift."  Stories from my Past often come up for me - when I was married, my divorce, other relationships from my Past, jobs and careers from my Past,  when I was a Manager, when I was a runner.  And the Past can be great in terms of leading us to where we are Now and lessons that help us on our path - for me, my failed marriage and deep dark depression and then my career in working as a Manager has led me to become a Coach – and this is my Lifework and I love that I now have my Coaching Business. 

And the Past can also be wonderful as a source of reflection where we are able to tune into times when we felt alive in our career or in our hobbies as indicators of our Passion and Purpose.  I have recently remembered how much I loved sewing and making clothes, and I am very Excited by the opportunity to start sewing again where I have been loving just walking through Lincraft and I feel my Soul alive when I see all of the beautiful material.  My Creator Archetype is all ready to start creating and yet I know that I need to bring in my Organiser Archetype and Destroyer Archetype to clear clutter and find space to bring this new hobby back into life.  I have a strong sense of my Organiser Archetype which shows up a lot more when I am in my New Way Of Being as I let my Body and Intuition guide me - where I have a sense that I need to Organise at Home or get moving on some "to do" list items for my Coaching Business or Colllege.

I am also gaining a sense of My Creator Archetype, where the other night I enjoyed making Cards to use as a Resource for Coaching Children.  I loved sourcing images and cutting and laminating the set of Cards.  I was Totally Present and in the Moment and loved being in Creation.  I am very Excited about bringing my Creator Archetype more on the stage in my life through sewing, photography, cooking, art.  I am looking forward to my Yin and Yang working together – tuning into my Intuition to be Inspired and then enjoying the process of Creation. 

From my Past, I also have such a love of Running and I often remember how much I love and miss Running.  I always notice runners when they run past me and when I hear my friends talk about Running, I always wish that I was also out there Running.  And yet for me I am choosing not to run right now where I am choosing to enjoy Walking while my body becomes stronger, since my main priority is to have a Baby within the next 12 months, this is my greatest desire.   When I am asked the question, the same question I use on my Coaching Flyer - Ask yourself from the heart, if I could be, do or have absolutely anything, I would  definitely ___________be a Mum.  As I tune into my Body and I am just Present in my day to day life, I am always drawn to the stories of Mums and love seeing and being around Babies and Children.  I am ready to be a Mum.  Every part of me feels this Call.

For me I feel that I am Creating a New Story – there is a New Book beginning for me.  While I Value my Past, where there are many Books and Chapters and so many wonderful life experiences and lessons, I have started a New Book.  The other Books are on the Bookshelf and I am closing these Books now, no need to tell stories from my Past or worry about my Past.  NOW, I can just be Present in my New Story.  And when I am Totally Present, I am also not caught up thinking about the Future, worrying about the Future - I can enjoy the NOW.  I can still dream about the Future and have Goals, and I can be unattached to the outcome and enjoy every day, the Gift of each day.
 
In my New Way Of Being I am in the flow, there is space for spontaneity and adventure.  I do not know what tomorrow will bring and yet I feel that when I am Grounded and Centred in my Body and Totally Present, I can feel into my Intuition.  I also have all of my Strengths and Resources of my Archetypes.  The key for me in this New Way Of Being is to press the Pause Button when needed, just Pause and Breathe Deeply and ask for Guidance from my Sage Archetype, who I believe is Inspired by God and supported by the Love and Light of the Universe and my Angels.  I am Loved.  I am Love.

And in Love I can Spread The Yellow.