Love

For me, Love is the most important of all - spending time and being Present with those that I Love in my life.

I remember years ago when my life was so busy and I was always worrying or thinking about work or about relationships that weren't working out, or thinking about the past or worrying about what was out of my control.  And now, right NOW, I feel very relaxed, my mind is clear - I can be totally Present in the NOW.  It is so great to have a quiet mind - I feel that there is space - time to breathe.

I Love that I can enjoy time with My Man - enjoying time out, time at home, time together.  I loved celebrating My Man's birthday recently, it was so great being at a beautiful restaurant together, enjoying a long lunch - I am so happy that I have found Love.  To Love and Be Loved is the greatest gift - my greatest dream come true. 

And I Love spending time with my Mum and Dad.  I am blessed that they have always filled my life with Love.  Just the other day we were shopping and I was ordering lunch for Mum and Dad and I took a few moments to just look over at my Mum and I waved to my Mum - in that moment I just looked over and saw such beauty in my Mum - my Mum waved back - this was a moment of just feeling such Love for my Mum.  I captured this moment in my heart.  Since my Mum has been unwell I have been so conscious of just enjoying time with my Mum, telling my Mum how much I love her and telling my Mum she is beautiful.

And today was a wonderful day - time with the Family, enjoying my Niece's dancing concert.  I Love my Nieces - they bring such Joy and Love into my life.  It was great to just enjoy the day, without thinking about anything else, just being totally Present and also feeling the warmth of Love from being with my Family and my Nieces.   I especially loved seeing my Niece Ashley up on stage smiling and dancing and having a great time - what a great feeling to feel such Love in my heart as I watched Ashley performing her ballet and jazz.  And I Love the hugs from my Nieces and I loved when my Niece Olivia sat on my lap and relaxed into me, so comfortable, so relaxed, moments filled with Love.  Here are some of my favourite photos from today.

 

I Love taking photos and I also Love just capturing moments in my mind's eye.  Today I was sitting next to my Mum and my Niece Olivia who had been sitting on my lap most of the day came over and climbed onto my Mum's lap, her Nana - and it was a beautiful moment, Olivia cuddled into my Mum and I just enjoyed feeling this moment of Love.

For a long time I was searching for My True Love and during this search I was so Grateful to be surrounded in the Love of my Family.  And now I have so much Love in my life - so much Love that I Value above all else - this is Life's Greatest Treasure for me.

I remember at College we enjoyed a Meditation about our Purpose - it was a Meditation based on when your Soul is about to become human form, at the time of conception - and we were asked the question - what will be your Purpose in this lifetime?  The word that came up for me was... Love - so simple - so true for me.  

And with Love as the main Priority in my life, this guides me in my Life Design.  I now choose a job and a career that allows me to enjoy work-life Balance with plenty of time dedicated to the key relationships in my life.  I also ensure that I have time for Self, enjoying one of my favourite books, relaxing in the bath, a walk out in Nature - Self-Love.

My Commitment is to Love - Love of Self, Love of My Man, Love of My Family and Friends, Love of ALL - LOVE.

Different Parts Of Me

Today I am Grateful for my day.

When the alarm goes off this morning I feel tired and I would have been happy to stay in bed a little longer, a lot longer - I stay a little longer.  I feel my Athlete Archetype wanting to come on stage.  Last night I read about the Athlete Archetype in 'Sacred Contracts' by Caroline Myss - "This Archetype represents the ultimate expression of the strength of the human spirit as represented in the power and magnificence of the human body."  I have been Walking rather than Running - and I have enjoyed Walking - and yet I love Running.  This morning I felt Inspired to go Running and it felt wonderful to be Running.  I only ran for 8 minutes and it was slow - and yet it was just for me.  I remember the days when I would be out Training every morning, Running, Racing, Competing, Sprinting - and it was an incredible feeling when I was Racing and it was amazing crossing the finish line and winning Races.  And there may come a day when I Race again.  And yet for today and for now, I am happy to just Run.  I am glad my Athlete Archetype came through for me this morning.

When I reach the Park I am happy to be in Nature.  I love being in Nature.  In the Park I have a sense of the words "I Am Health, I Am Beauty, I See Beauty".  I could stay in Nature all day.  I love being in the Park, I love looking out at the ocean, I love watching the seagulls.

On my way to work I am delighted that I see a beautiful Kookaburra - I love Kookaburras.  The Kookaburra is sitting in our backyard, peacefully sitting on the wooden outdoor setting.  I am running a bit behind time, and yet I love Kookaburras and so I walk up and say hello - not being too close - just close enough for me and enough space for the Kookaburra not to be scared.  Seeing Kookaburras brings back wonderful memories for me of when I was a child and would be away with my Family and we would feed the Kookaburras on the balcony.  I look up Google Images and yet I cannot find a photo that would capture the picture in my mind's eye.  I love having my camera on hand to capture images and yet I very much love just being in the moment to capture the moments in my heart and mind's eye.  When I am in the Park, in Nature, spending time with the Kookaburra I feel I am in my Yin Goddess Part of me - my Goddess Part that I have affectionately called Rose.

In 'Sacred Contracts' I read about the Child of Nature Archetype - I find information on this website
- http://www.goddess-guide.com/archetypes.html
"This Goddess Archetype feels most at home in the outside bonding and communicating with the forces of nature. The Child of Nature is often emotionally very sensitive and prefers solace and the company of animals to being with people. They are often independent and physically fit... To have this particular stereotype you need more than a love of nature. Your health and well-being is affected if you are unable to spend time outside working with animals, plants and other nature spirits. Your idea of hell is likely to be working in a busy office in the centre of town."

I love being in Nature.  And when I am in Nature, I wish I could stay there all day.  When I am at work in the office, I love getting out, at every chance I get - just to be out in the fresh air, enjoy the Trees and Flowers and hear the Birds singing.

I am really enjoying getting to know the Different Parts Of Me and then I love reading about the Archetypes.

Peak Moments In Time for me involved me being in Connection with others.  I love being in Connection, enjoying Conversations with others.  Today I loved listening with interest to the stories of some of the ladies from work, I really enjoyed sharing a sacred space, just for a few minutes.  This weekend at College I have been reminded of the power of listening, attentive silence, reflection - the power of being totally present.  I feel that when I am in Connection with others and when I genuinely offer an acknowledgement from my heart, I feel that this is my Gift to Spread The Yellow.

I am happy to receive some beautiful Flowers from my Man - we have been together for 10 months today. My Man is so important to me and I am very important to me - and so I am now Consciously choosing to find the Balance.

I am happy to be in love and there is so much else going on for me.  I feel that I am overloaded with so much information and yet there is also so much simplicity - therein lies the paradox.  My Mentor and Teacher used this word "paradox" on the weekend and I feel that this word and reality resonates with me.  I am joyful and I also have a sense of sadness.  There is so much and yet it is so simple.

I feel that there are some big learning opportunities for me.  I feel that I carry a lot of heaviness on my shoulders.  I feel my Caregiver Archetype is strong and yet the Shadow of the Caregiver is that it wants to take care of everyone.  I feel that I sometimes worry about what is not within my control - and yet the opportunity for my growth is to allow others to take responsibility for their own lives and not feel that I have to worry or give advice or even place judgement or step into a Parent shadow.

All of this Self-Reflection can put myself at risk of turning into Overthinking or Analysis - and I really just want to smell the roses and be in Connection.  And yet I feel that this work is valuable and helps me be in Connection with me.

Self-Reflection offers me the opportunity to get to know the Different Parts Of Me and how they play out in my life.  Through Self-Reflection there is the opportunity for me to Consciously make Choices in my life.  I love that I have now made the choice to not put the TV on until after dinner - instead tonight I put on music and enjoyed dancing, I felt my Goddess dancing around the loungeroom and then I enjoyed creating dinner for my Man.

I listen to one of my Shania Twain CDs and I love this song - I feel like I am singing this to my Self  "Wanna Get To Know You That Good" - I also love this clip - Shania Twain is a beautiful Goddess -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3iJvLdcvbis&feature=related

As I get to know the Different Parts Of Me, I learn to love the Different Parts Of Me.  I learn to love that I have all these Strengths and Resources within me.

And I love that I Am A Coach and I love that I can help my Clients discover their Beauty, their Self.  This is my greatest desire - to help my Clients Love Self and Love Life...

Yin-Yang Project Review

On 11 April 2010 I set myself a Project:
1. To get to know the Union of Yin-Yang, feminine-masculine, these 2 Parts of myself - not as separate or competing entitites that abandon each other or isolate from one another - but that embrace each other, support each other, work together.  The Project I am setting myself is to understand the Union - the coming together in Love - getting to know the Love Story of my own Yin and Yang - my feminine and masculine

2. To bring these 2 Parts of myself together in birthing my dreams - loving and protecting the spark and yellow inside me - and then through their Union they are able to make it happen - by feeling into the creative tension between them - holding the creative tension.  Yin is in the magic and mystery and ease and flow of life - and Yang waits.  Yin will feel into her intuition and guidance and will have a knowing when it is the right time to act and will know the right action to take - and Yang who has been a rock, stable and strong and waiting will step into action - will move forward with power in a clear direction...

I am looking at my Project in relation to Bloom's Taxonomy and the 6 different levels of learning.

* Knowledge - I love that I have learnt about Yin and Yang

- Yin - Feminine, Spiritual, Intuitive, Feeling, Emotional, Heart, Internal Energy, Being, Goodness, Right Side of the Brain

- Yang - Masculine, Logical, Thinker, Organised, Analytical, Head, Physical, Doing, Strength, Left Side of the Brain

- The two parts of ourselves that are opposites

- Yin and Yang need each other for Balance, together they make the Whole

* Comprehension

- To comprehend this new knowledge, I have enjoyed spending time researching these two parts of myself, I love researching Yin and Yang and learning more - wanting to compare these two parts of myself and fully understand their role and their strengths - and how I can bring them into my life
- I love reading about the Masculine and Feminine Side (article by John and Micki Baumann), an article that is great at comparing the Yin and Yang - "The masculine side deals with the strength of the self... The thing that is most important in determining the strength of the masculine side, is the value that you, at a deep level, place on yourself... Placing a high value on yourself affects your whole being and helps you feel strong and confident in operating your life."
- I love this part - so in line with the Coaching Process - "You can build the masculine side through progress and small Wins, through positive reinforcement, by practicing, and by doing things and generally taking an active part in operating your life."
- I just love this article - I am learning a lot from reading this article - "If you have a strong masculine side, you are in charge of your own life because you are internally controlled.  You tend to look people in the eye.  You stand straight, and you usually command attention when you walk into a room, whether you say anything or not.  This happens because of the strength within.  If you have a weak masculine side, you also have a lot of doubts.  You doubt yourself, your abilities, your capability to do things.  Things intimidate you and you don't move forward well.  You are afraid to put yourself out there because you know you are going to fail, so you don't even try to accomplish things."
- "The masculine side also includes the ability to take risks when appropriate, to be decisive when necessary, and to focus or concentrate in order to get something done.  In addition, it includes being able to figure out how to accomplish things so you can get more of what you want out of life."
- "The feminine side is based on a value that you, at the same deep level, place on others... The value you place on others affects your whole being.  If you have a strong feminine side and place a high value on others, you are often giving and unselfish."
- I love this part as it talks about enthusiasm - "The feminine side also includes having enthusiasm and zest for life, and recognising what things are worth getting enthusiastic about... In addition, the feminine side also includes being kind, compassionate, patient, responsive to the needs of others, and it includes knowing how much energy you can put into each of these without hurting yourself by draining your own energy."
- I love Knowledge and Comprehension - and I find myself having a thirst for more information on Yin and Yang - and yet I also know that Applying this Knowledge is so important  


*Application

- I have been enjoying using this new knowledge - being an Observer/ Witness to myself and making Conscious Choices, using the power and force of Yin and Yang working together

- Looking back I have realised that after being made Redundant, I abandoned my Yang, wanting to let go of the business, corporate part of me - and live in Yin, loving the Spiritual, Emotional, Feminine, Intuitive part of me

- With this Project - I decided to bring Yin and Yang together - to use the strengths of both to bring my dream to life - starting my Coaching Business

- An example has been my Business  Card – my Yin was loving all the creation, loving getting my crayons and textas out and I kept sketching and sketching – but I needed to bring this Card to life – I needed to get my Yang into action – I needed to get organised, be clear and direct with a graphic designer and keep focused on what I wanted to reflect my Coaching Business.  My Yin and Yang worked together - my Yin looked at each design at a heart level, felt into the card at an Intuitive Level and then my Yang went into ACTION and gave feedback to the graphic designer.  By getting my Yang to work for my Yin, I now have printed Business Cards that I love

* Analysis

- I really don't like this word "Analysis" - shows I am naturally more Yin, than Yang

- Today seems like a perfect time for a Yin-Yang Project Review - an opportunity to see what is working and what is the future direction of this Project

- When I start out on this Journey I feel like I am in a Child Yin and Yang State/ Story - children getting to know each other - it is fun, it is exciting, there is no pressure, it is natural and flowing, it is day to day, spontaneous, no planning for the future - just being in the now

- My Child Yin and Yang Story - My Yin loves playing dolls, loves colour, loves imagination.  My Yin loves being outdoors, smelling the flowers - Yin follows her heart - she loves lady beetles, dogs and  cats.  Yin and Yang are childhood friends - they become best friends

- I watch 'My Girl' and I love watching the friendship between Vada and Thomas - Yang always there for his Yin
- And I love these cute images of children

- I look back on my own Childhood and love looking at photos of my own best friend

- And I love the photo below of myself and my Childhood Friend - with my Nana and Papa (I miss them)

- As I Reflect back on my journey over the last 5 weeks, I can see changes in my Yin and Yang - as I feel that I am becoming more familiar with their power 

- And yet I feel that this Yin and Yang Journey is still developing - I still need to bring them into their power

- I feel that I am in an Adolescent/ Teenager Yin and Yang Story

- My Yin has a teenage crush - she dreams about her Yang, the one she wishes is her boyfriend

- My Yin knows about her Yang, she dreams about her love in Science class, not particularly interested in Science, much preferring to write his name in coloured textas in her diary and colouring the margins in her exercise books

- Yin hangs out with her group of girlfriends - Yin loves being with her Yin friends

- And then in magical moments, Yin sees her Yang at a party or at a school disco where they dance and finally kiss

- Yin loves kissing her Yang

- My Adolescent Yin and Yang Story reminds me of the movie 'Sixteen Candles'

- What I loved about this show was that the main character Molly Ringwald had her own style and was happy to just be herself - in considering this realisation, it seems that the Yin character also had a well-developed Yang

- I look back on my photos when I was a teenager - here I am going to a disco - feeling very feminine, very Yin - definitely in search of Yang

My Yin-Yang Project Review highlights to me that I am still very strong in my Yin and that I am getting my Yang to work for me, in terms of bringing Projects to life - and yet I am mostly in Yin.

The key for me is to bring Yin and Yang into maturity - not just having them kissing at the school disco - but Consciously bringing them together everyday to move me towards my Vision for my Coaching Business.  My greatest desire is to Make A Difference and Spread The Yellow - it is time to create a new story - and bring my Goddess and Strong Man into their power - a strong union of LOVE and PASSION...

Stand Tall

I wake up with my 7am alarm - I am tired, I could stay in bed longer.  So, I stay in bed longer - pressing the snooze button every 10 minutes.

The best part of my morning is going for a Walk.  While I love Running, I have decided that Running is not right for me, right now.  It is difficult to give up Running - I feel fantastic when I run - and yet, I have pain in my back and neck and need to get my body strong again.  Otherwise, I end up just paying a fortune for treatments from my physiotherapist, chiropractor, osteopathic, massage therapists. 

I do love Walking - in a different way to my love of Running.  Running for me is about fitness and getting my heart pumping and a Challenge to run farther and longer than the last run.  I just love the feeling of Running and love the sense of achievement after a run.  Running is my number 1 choice of activity.  And yet, for now, I will enjoy Walking.  I love the gentleness of Walking - the exploration, the opportunity to see the beauty in the world, the opportunity to be present.  I love being guided by my Intuition, letting my Yin decide the direction of my Walk and instructing my Yang to take the steps.   My time Walking is the opportunity to be with me, time for myself, time to Spread The Yellow to me, Self-Care, Self-Love.

There are so many sights I enjoy when Walking.  I love being totally present to enjoy the sights and sounds and delight my senses.  I like seeing these old palm leaves hanging over the fence like a man's beard.

As usual, I smell the red roses at a house on the corner - I just love smelling the roses - literally - the smell is beautiful.  Of course, I am also very lucky that my Man buys me flowers every week, and I have my own yellow roses at home.

I am led, by my Yin, to Gunnamatta Bay - I just love the park.  It is one of my favourite places.

As I Walk up through the park, I Run for about 2 minutes, just a brief Run on the grass to feel the joy of Running.  And then back to Walking.  I stand at the top of the outdoor ampitheatre and I wonder - if I was on this stage, what would I present - what could I share to Make A Difference to others, a difference in the world?

When I look at the photo above, I just love seeing the rays of sunlight - wow I love the rays of sunlight shining towards the ampitheatre.  If I had to stand on this stage, right now, I would talk about the Power of Yin and Yang in bringing life to your dreams, your Vision, your heart's desires - in bringing out the best in yourself.  Essentially, the meaning of my Coaching Business Logo.

    

My Yin guides me to go further into the park.  The Yang, thinking part of me, wanted to go and visit one of my favourite Trees in the park - and yet to my surprise, my Yin takes me in a different direction - and two Trees catch my eye.  At first I have a sense that they are one Tree, but they are two separate Trees. 

          

The beauty of these two Trees is that one Tree stands so tall, reaching for the sky, while the other Tree is bent and curved, and reaching in different directions.  I put my hand on the Tree that stands so tall - and ask for a message - and thank the Tree in advance for the Gift of its message.  I feel into the silence and I feel the energy and wisdom of the Tree.  I have a sense of the words - "Listen To Your Heart" - "Stand Tall".  I have been conscious of Listening to My Heart, as I tune into my Yin - and yet it is good to hear these words.  I especially love the "Stand Tall" message - I love these words - that I am living my truth and can be proud of who I am and that I am living my Vision.  I also have a strong sense of the Tree communicating to me that all of the energy of all of the Trees will support me and hold me and help me Stand Tall.  I also notice that half the Tree is in the sunlight, and half in shadow - this speaks to me - Balance.

I walk home Inspired!

When I get home I turn to my books.  I pick up 'She' by Kobi Yamada - I love these quotes

- "She ran ahead where there were no paths. Celebrate her bravery."

- "She went out on a limb, had it break off behind her, and discovered she could fly.  Celebrate her faith."

I also turn to 'Gaia Body and Soul' by Toni Carmine Salerno and find more perfect words - perfect for me to read today

- "By facing our fears and accepting them as valid aspects of who we are, we heal and become whole.  Instead of swimming against the current, life starts to flow naturally and we realise that most of the stress in our lives is simply the result of our inner fear and turmoil.  Fear clouds our ability to think and see clearly, so start to be aware of your thoughts.  When you find yourself thinking fear-based thoughts such as 'I should...' or 'I have to...', pause for a moment.  Instead of worrying about what you think you should do or have to do, ask yourself this question, 'What is it that I would love to be doing right now?' (I love these words) Transforming Fear = Liberation"

When I read these words I realise that I do have some fear - and yet in knowing my Vision, loving my Vision, I can work with my Yin and Yang to move me towards my Goals.

Just 45 minutes of Walking and also 5 minutes of Reading and Reflection - makes for a perfect start to my day.  And I have a great day - I go to work - I am Motivated to do my best and I exceed my Target.  And I get home from work and I am So Grateful that my Man is busy chopping up bowls of vegetables and makes dinner for us.

It is now great to be home relaxing... what a great start to the week - I am Inspired to Stand Tall...

The BIG Things

"The little things in life?  The little moments?  They aren't little.  They often turn out to be the most memorable and meaningful things we encounter.  We may not recognise them while they are happening, or have the words to describe how they make us feel... If we sat down to think about the precious little things in life - those that make our lives more vibrant, connected and inspired - we would find genuine, heartfelt moments that shape our lives and make us who we are." 'The Little Things' by Kobi Yamada

Today I am grateful for the little things that are The BIG Things:

- Sleeping in with my Man (so nice to just relax together)

- Lunch with friends - catching up, chatting, laughing, sharing, caring (naturally a time of Spread The Yellow)

- Buying a Yellow coffee table to be used in my work when meeting with Clients - Yellow - Yay!!

- Afternoon tea with my Mum and Dad - so lovely to share time together - I am Grateful, I AM SO GRATEFUL for these moments with my Mum and Dad - love sharing stories, laughing... lovely

- Home now with my Man - HAPPY to be at Home - Happy to have a Home - HAPPY to have a GREAT MAN in my life

- Vegetarian cooking - today I made a nice Vegetarian risotto - love making home-made meals and sharing them with my Man

- Dancing around the lounge room, my Man twirling me - we laugh and kiss.

I Love to make time to reflect and appreciate The BIG Things - for me it is about being present to these moments - I really like this quote -
"We do not remember days, we remember moments" Cesare Pavese


I was talking to a friend today and he asked me what I Blog about - I explained that I just write about my journey and what Inspires me for the day.  What I write about may seem to be small, and today may just seem like an ordinary day - yet to me, these are The BIG Things and I AM SO GRATEFUL.  I like to appreciate the extraordinary in the ordinary.

And the most important Priority in my life is my Man, my Mum and Dad and Family and friends.  People are always the most important priority to me.  I am just so glad that I have found life Balance now - no longer working on weekends - so much more time to enjoy time with those I love. 

This morning I was reading a small book 'Because Of You' by Dan Zadra - I like what he writes - "Some of the best and most important people in our lives may never show up on the 11 o'clock news or see their names up in lights - but the world would definitely miss them if there were gone." 

He asks "What kind of people will make your everyday heroes list?" - I AM SO GRATEFUL that I know the answer to this question...

Self-Love

This morning before I go for my morning walk - I look to my Love Life book and read -

"Love Yourself"
"The greatest Gift you will ever
receive is the Gift of Loving
and Believing in Yourself.  
Guard this Gift with Your Life.
It is the only thing that will
ever truly be Yours."
Tiffany Loren Rowe

On my walk I reflect on these words.  My Yin and Yang can relax and just see what shows up today (and I will be a witness and observer of my own mind and process).  I don't need the power of Yin-Yang to help me on my run.  My Yin - the feminine part of me is relaxed, smelling the roses, intuitively being guided around the park and loving the beauty and uniqueness of each Tree.  My Yang - the masculine part of me, is thinking about Self-Love - reflecting on the past 4 years before I met my Man - I am curious how I could let myself be treated so badly?  I am curious - was this lack of common sense, lack of logic - was I just so in love with the wrong men - did I just want to be loved so much, that I was willing to settle for less than what I deserved - simply it seems, I had a lack of self-esteem and Self-Love.  I was definitely so caught up in Yin, being all sexy and loving - being in my heart - and definitely abandoned my Yang, the thoughts in my head.

The last 2 years in becoming a Coach have been an amazing journey.  Words cannot articulate or express this wonderful experience.  I have been inspired by 3 wonderful woman, teachers, mentors - who with passion and humily show me their love of their work and desire to serve.  I am also touched that they have shared their own journeys - and do not claim to be perfect or have all the answers, as they are on their own journey, they are only human.  And yet with time and experience, they have learnt to tap into their own strengths and resources, that help them survive and thrive. 

These woman Inspire me to be real and authentic.  That is one of the reasons I have started this Blog.  I believe in being real and authentic - long gone are my own masks, or my endeavour to be perfect.  My mentors have taught me that I can still be on my own journey, and yet still, so powerfully, have a passion and the skills and insights to help others on their journey.  I do not need to have all the answers - as I believe that people are creative, resourceful and whole - and everyone has the power and answers within - to check in, with what is right for them - and in my Coaching, I can offer support, facilitate awareness and help my Clients put their dreams into action. 

While I can't wait to get started as a Coach - life Balance will always be important to me - as well as honouring and being a witness to my own journey.  Self-Care and Self-Love. 

Self-Love for me is now getting to know myself and accessing all parts of myself so that I may SHINE and Spread The Yellow.  It is about my Yin and Yang working together - and embracing each other - loving each other.  

I am more Yin - I am Intuitive,  I love the big picture, love ideas and I am imaginative - I am also a Feeler, basing my decisions on how they will impact people - and a Perceiver, I love flexibility and like to keep my options open - I am great at generating alternatives and true to Myers-Briggs Typology, I am surrounded by clutter and I love variety.  Yin is easy for me.  I actually love my Yin, my feminine part of me.

It is my Yang part of me that I need to get working to help my dreams and goals come true.  After years of working in the corporate world, I do have some Yang muscle - the Thinker part of me is a friend I have always relied on - logical and analytical - sometimes the Shadow part of me comes up and I can go into Overthinking or Judging - and as I observe myself - and bring the Shadows to the light - I get back on track.  Looking back on certain corporate jobs, there were certainly many times of stress - and so I have recently, happily, released my Yang - loving the freedom of my Yin, feminine, flowing part of me.

And yet now I am realising that to release my own MAGNIFICENCE (love this word!!) - I must get my Yang, masculine part of me, working for my Yin - I can choose to use my Yang resources - being practical and detail-oriented, organised and ordered, setting and making my own deadlines.  I CAN CHOOSE!  I have the capacity to be Yin and Yang, Intuitive and Sensory, Feeler and Thinker, Perceiver and Judger.  I can choose to use all these resources - my Yin has the imagination and the colour and the creativity and my Yang is my feet on the ground, my marathon runner, getting it done - getting it done for his beloved Yin.

I am excited by the power of Yin-Yang working together - in fact I am gaining more clarity and achieving my Goals faster - some key Wins for me in the last few weeks since I learnt about Yin and Yang, and am choosing to be a witness, an observer to myself, have been:

- Designing my business card which goes to print tomorrow - my Yin has been having a ball for months, and kept sketching and drawing and sketching and drawing, loving coloured pencils and crayons - and then finally my Yin invited my Yang to help her get this project happening - my Yin and Yang working together with a Graphic Designer to make this happen

- My running, where I have been wanting to get back into running for 1 year - running for a while, then getting injured, etc - usually I have been too much in Yang, the Thinker and Overthinker Shadow, worried about my back and health concerns - yet with my Yin-Yang in harmony - I am loving my running and feeling free and in the flow - and building up my time to 43 minutes - the most I have run in over a year

- My cooking - I am absolutely loving how my Yin-Yang parts of me are working together to create healthy, vegetarian dishes - this has been a Goal for me for a long time - I have probably been talking about this for a year - now I am loving this - my Yang reminding my Yin that we need to get groceries, my Yin having so much fun exploring the fruit and vegetable shop, Yang looking up some ideas for inspiration, Yin adding her own ingredients, pizzaz. 

 

Just tonight I loved Cooking a Vegetarian dish - a Tofu and Vegetable stir-fry - loved it - chopping up a huge array of vegetables, cooking Tofu in lime olive oil (always brings great memories from our trip to the Hunter), soy and sweet chilli sauce, mixing in the vegetables, and once in the serving dish, throwing on some fresh cherry tomatos (cut in half) and fresh lime juice.  Delicious!!! 

 

I love cooking healthy meals and running - as this makes me feel good - and is an important part of my Self-Care and helps with my Self-Love.  Although, I can also accept and have Self-Love for all parts of me.

I am also learning that Self-Love and the opinion I have of myself is the most important and I don't need to rely or crave positive reinforcement from others.  I can be my own best friend.  I can just be myself.

And of course, it is always lovely and encouraging to get positive feedback or compliments from others - such as today, I was so touched and excited to receive an Award at work - it is called 'The Peer Award' - I was so touched to have my Manager say a nice speech about me and have colleagues come up to me and congratulate me and say they voted for me and why they chose me.  It was beautiful.  It was definitely an experience, through Connection and Intention, of Spread The Yellow to me.

         

It makes me Happy.

I am Happy.

Happy to want to keep Creating.  Tonight while creating in the kitchen (thanks again Christie for all your inspiration) I was playing Shania Twain.  Without surprise or reaction, I listened to a song that had been played at my wedding, the first dance with my now ex-husband – "From This Moment". Listening to these words tonight did not bring me sadness or take me down the road of looking at the past - instead, I felt inspired to nurture my own Self-Love - my own Yin-Yang love story – I love the words - "My dreams came true because of you" - and that is true for the love story of my own Yin and Yang - by maximising the abilities and potential of each part of me, I am making my dreams come true - here is a clip - really love this song - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GhS2zI_IXGM&feature=related.  I also love her other songs including - "I Won't Leave You Lonely" - these words are also great - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7fjMBPFmt4.

So where to from here - what is my next project that is calling my Yin-Yang?  As I am more geared towards Yin, I am definitely prone to clutter - so I have to get my Yin-Yang energy working together to get my study and work area clean, ordered, organised - and my finances and bills in order - my Yin needs my Yang - I start tomorrow...