White Butterflies

Has anyone/ everyone noticed that White Butterflies are everywhere right now?   I love Butterflies and I am in delight when I see them prancing and dancing among the flowers.  I especially love when I see two White Butterflies dancing together - seeing Butterflies makes my heart sing.

It is perfect to be seeing and enjoying the beauty of Butterflies - a symbol of change and transformation - timely for me and most probably true for many as we journey towards the end of 2010, towards 2011.

I am very Excited to be finished my Diploma of Transformational Coaching Course.  It has been an amazing, AMAZING Course.  I am very Grateful for my Teachers who have Inspired me and helped me be the best Life Coach that I can be and have taught me the importance of Self-Reflection as an opportunity to keep learning and growing - and Inspired me through their commitment to study. 

And I am also very Grateful that I belong to a Community of wonderful women who have made the experience of becoming a Life Coach so rich and alive and meaningful and real.

Our final weekend for our Course was a chance for Self-Reflection and Honouring, Sharing, Transition and Celebration.  I loved the opportunity to create a Journey Stick, choosing a stick from Nature and decorating it with colour, representing where we have been and where we are going to - our Past and our Future.  And I loved having the symbol of the Butterfly on my Journey Stick. 

I felt like it was the ‘Love Fest’ - so much Love, Heart-Felt Acknowledgement, Warmth, Authenticity, Presence, Connection, Community.  When I talk about Spread The Yellow, this was it - the exchange of Love, Light, Positive Energy, seeing the Light and Spirit in each other - WOW!!!  On the final day of our Course I loved that our Teachers set up a Threshold to represent this time of Transition - Completion of our study and Forward Movement to a new time in our lives. As we were walking down the stairs towards the Threshold, I was looking around at all of the beauty, aliveness, incredible-ness in each of my fellow Soul Sisters and I felt so Excited - Excited at the difference we can make in the world.  May we be the White Butterflies prancing and dancing among the flowers.

With the White Butterfly a symbol of Transformation, this is true in so many ways for me (apart from finishing my Course).  It is interesting as the last two years has highlighted the importance of Balance for me - Balance of Personal and Professional, Doing and Being, Solitude and Intimacy, Activity and Relaxing.  I am Excited that although I love Coaching and love working with people on their Journey - I am also committed to my own Journey, my own life, my own life separate from my lifework.  Two years ago I never would have guessed that I would be here planning my wedding, finally letting go of relationships that did not serve me, and being open to True Love. 

This year sharing Christmas Day together and together with our Families was very special.  Although My Man and I exchanged so many Gifts and there were so much Gift giving with my Nieces - my favourite Gift of all is that of being together - it is what I appreciate the most.  We enjoyed a beautiful, relaxing lunch with My Man's Mum and I was so happy that my Mum and Dad were also guests for lunch.  

 

And after enjoying the relaxing day, we then entered the chaos of time with my Brother, Sister-In-Law and my three beautiful Nieces - and I loved it all!!!  Presents, giggles, hugs, kisses, laughter.  And more food!

And time on the trampoline - the new trampoline that Santa brought my Nieces.  I love My Nieces - they are White Butterflies in my life - dancing and prancing and so in the moment.

For me Love and Family are the most important and I am Grateful that my Coaching Course also helped me come Home to my Self - where I feel relaxed, at peace and HAPPY.  Meditations from our Final Course at College and the experience of creating our Journey Stick, highlighted to me that I was once a person chasing Happiness, so busy being busy, busy chasing Love - now I AM HAPPY, now I AM LOVE.  Now I AM.  Now I AM ME.

It is definitely a time of Change and Transformation - the merging of our two Families and the creating of our own Family.  We are getting married in 12 weeks and there is much to do - and we are also looking forward to having our own baby - now that will be most wonderful!!! 

And I want to be like the White Butterflies - just enjoying the flowers, the sunshine, the freedom of being alive, the joy of being me, the joy of being in relationship.  We have a poster in our living area that speaks to my heart and is a great reminder of what to bring into each and every day "Live - Laugh - Love".

The ironic thing tonight is that as I am about to publish this Blog about White Butterflies, there are two small moths flying around our home, flying close to me.  I have never been a fan of moths and yet they are so similar to Butterflies (and very different) - as I am reminded by My Man.  It is interesting, Google tells me that Butterflies fly during the day and moths fly during the night - and without doubt this is symbolic of one of my other greatest learnings of the last two years - that there is Light and Dark, day and night, sunshine and rain - and I can be with all - I can be with the Paradox - I can be with Joy, I can be with Pain.  Perhaps it is true that I most delight when I am in the Light and see the Butterfly - I have a natural tendency to move towards the Positive and the sunshine - this is my nature and my strength as a Life Coach.  And I have learnt to be in Sacred Space with sorrow - I can be still and calm (rather than panic) when I am in the Dark or feel the movement of the moth.  

I am now Home in my Self - and I can take that with me wherever I Am - I have all of my Strengths and Resources - when I am at Home in my Self I am in My Yellow Heart - I Am Love, Light, Truth and Peace - this is my Soul's Home, in the quietness I feel the rising of Spirit, I am in Connection with God.  When I am Home in my Self I can see that I am the Butterfly, I am the Moth, I am All.

My Goddess Dancing

It is rainy and cold and grey outside - and yet I feel happy, alive, Excited, Inspired.  I feel Joy!!!  I put on my music and I dance - I feel My Goddess Dancing.  I am in Celebration of a milestone for my Coaching Business - my first official Client since I officially launched my Business.

Today I worked with my new Client and I loved being in this space.  It is an Honour for someone to share their story with me.  I feel happy that my Client has made another appointment next week.  When my Client was leaving today, and I was saying goodbye, I felt Connection, and my Yin Part of me had a sense that my Client had a feeling of hope of a better and brighter outlook - this made me feel wonderful.  I am Excited that I have found my lifework and that through Coaching I can help in the enabling of new Awareness and a Plan for Clients to move forward.

I am Excited that I can bring my Strengths to my Coaching - I genuinely care about people, I am Committed to helping people have a sense of Self-Love and love of their life, I believe that all people have a light and spark within them, their Soul, a uniqueness and greatness.  I feel I can share my enthusiasm and help people see the light.  This morning I had a definite sense of being on Purpose - a sense that I did Spread The Yellow to my Client.  This is my Purpose, this is what I am supposed to be doing - this is what I would do, even if I wasn't being paid.  I just love being a Coach.  It is a bonus that I do get paid to be a Coach.   And I do want to be able to spend more of my time Coaching so that my Business does become a major source of income for me.  And yet I am just enjoying the Journey, there is no pressure.  And I certainly do not want Clients to be just numbers or nameless to me, where I am trying to fit Clients into an appointment schedule, and just racing to get more and more Clients.  I genuinely care - each Client is important to me.  I am Committed to helping my Clients achieve their Coaching Goals.  I am especially keen to see people SHINE - to have a sense of Self-Worth and Happiness, to be Inspired, to feel a sense of Newness and to be Empowered.  It is also important that Clients show Commitment - when people come to Coaching, they are saying that they are ready for change, ready to take steps forward.  And payment can be important in helping Clients value and have Commitment to the Coaching Process.

I love that I can feel into my Yin and Yang.  I feel my Intuitive Yin supportive during the Client's Process, and sharing of their story - I feel My Goddess Dancing, just being in the moment, trusting and being in the flow.  And I also feel the Yang part of me present with a Structure for the Session and tools and techniques I can use and maps that can help my Clients understand and the ACTION Yang part of me is keen to help the Client establish a sense of movement.  I was in Yin and Yang and in my job as Coach I am very Conscious of bringing my Client into their Awareness of the Power of their own Yin and Yang.  My Client is interested in looking at Myers-Briggs and I am happy that I have been trained in this area of Yin and Yang.  I am Excited as I believe that this can help people experience Self-Love, become Confident and Self-Reliant and become Empowered to want more for themselves and their lives.  I definitely felt my Goddess in Power today.

I love Coaching.

I love my Coaching room.  I feel comfortable working in this space.  I love setting up this space unique to me and my work.

I love the new addition to my Room - a Lotus Flower (with a Yellow candle).

The Healing Centre where I work is also called "The Lotus Rooms".  I Google Lotus Flower tonight and find some wonderful words regarding - "What makes the Lotus Flower so special?" - I find this information on a jewellery website, such beautiful pieces http://www.ka-gold-jewelry.com/p-articles/lotus-flower.php (I am not a big jewellery person, and yet I will definitely be having a good look at this website)

"The lotus flower is one of the most ancient and deepest symbols of our planet.  The lotus flower grows in muddy water and rises above the surface to bloom with remarkable beauty. At night the flower closes and sinks underwater, at dawn it rises and opens again. Untouched by the impurity, lotus symbolizes the purity of heart and mind. The lotus flower represents long life, health, honor and good luck."

"Universal symbol for spiritual unfoldment
Egyptian Lotus flower - The Egyptian Lotus flower symbol was called Sesen in the Egyptian language. In the Egyptian mythology the lotus flower is a symbol of the sun, of creation and rebirth.

Eastern Lotus flower - In the East, the lotus flower is viewed as a symbol of spiritual unfoldment. The lotus has its roots in earthly mud, but as it grows upward in aspiration toward the light, its petals open out in a beautiful flower. Om Mani Padme Hum, meaning, "Hail to the Jewel in the Lotus" is the sacred mantra of the Tibetans.
 
Christian Lotus flower
The Christian alternative to the lotus is the white lily which, relating to Mary as queen of heaven, signifies both fertility and purity. Traditionally the Archangel Gabriel carries the lily of the Annunciation to the Virgin Mary. 'Blessed are the pure in heart' said Jesus, 'for they shall see God.'  The teachings of the Galilean Master and those of India's great yogis were cut from the same cloth of self-realization.

Indian Yoga Lotus flower
The Indian Lotus flower symbolizes divinity, fertility, wealth, knowledge and enlightenment. It is associated with the goddess of wealth, Maha Lakshmi, who brings prosperity, purity and generosity. She sits on a fully blossomed lotus flower, symbolizing purity, beauty and everything that is good."

I also love this poem - Lotus flower: Symbol of Spiritual Unfoldment - By Swami Kriyananda
"We were talking - about the space between us all and the people -
Who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion never glimpsing the truth
Then it's far too late when they pass away.

We were talking - about the love we all could share
When we find it - to try our best to hold it there - with our love
With our love we could save the world - if they only knew

Try to realize it's all within yourself - no-one else can make you change
And to see you're really only very small
And life flows on within you and without you.

We were talking - about the love that's gone so cold
And the people who gain the world and lose their soul
They don't know, they can't see - are you one of them?

When you've seen beyond yourself
Then you may find peace of mind is waiting there
And the time will come when you see we are all one
And life flows on within you and without you."

I am Inspired when I read about the Lotus Flowers and I am happy that Coaching can support "spiritual unfoldment".  

I love my Angel Cards.  I loved when my Client picked up a card today and my Client expressed that these words resonated with her, and we smiled - magical!

I meet with my Doctor to present my Coaching material and he keeps one of my Business cards and says that he will recommend people to me.  He does say that he mainly gets patients who are looking for the free Sessions with a Psychologist, however to qualify you need to be found by the doctor to be medically depressed.  I explain that at this stage Coaching does not have a provider number and explain the opportunity to help people who may need support, to be preventative.  The Doctor asks me about me being so happy and that I am always smiling and have this spark inside of me - this is a lovely compliment - I tell him that this comes naturally for me, this has been my dominant state most of my life.  And my belief is that everyone can be so happy.  We agree that there are many people that are not happy and my Doctor understands now that Coaching is about people becoming Empowered to take ACTION in their lives.  It is always nice to see my Doctor, he is a very caring man.  I am happy that he put my card on his desk so that it is in his view.  I asked him if he would like other cards or Flyers and the Doctor said that he will just write my name on a piece of paper and give to any of his patients (which makes me happy - a note handwritten by him) and he says that I should leave Flyers in the Clinic waiting rooms.  I am delighted that the Office Manager leaves them on the front counter for everyone to see - I am very Grateful to them both for their support.

While waiting at the Doctor's Clinic I also ran into my Osteopath - I haven't been to him for a long time and yet he remembers my name and remembers about me starting my Business.  He is lovely and friendly and encouraging as always and I give him some brochures.  He offers to recommend people to see me if he thinks that Coaching may benefit any of his Clients - wow - thank you!!  I ask him if he would like me to make time to explain what I do and he says that I should just email him some information and that he is also interested in my philosophies.  He is interested!!  I am thankful to him.  I am also thankful to the Universe - timing was perfect - he was leaving work for the day, I was just sitting and waiting for my Appointment.  Perfect!!

It has been a wonderful day.

I am Excited and keen to keep reading and learning and developing so that I can be the best Coach I can be.   I love that I have a Checklist developed from the International Coaching Federation Competencies that I use to help me review each Coaching Session.  Rather than going into analysis or even falling into Overthinker or Critic, I can check in with the Competencies of Coaching and I can always strive to offer the best opportunities to my Clients.

Coaching is so important to me.  And I am also Conscious of being in Balance in my own life - and so even though this is my life interest and my lifework - I also want to make time for my other life Priorities.  I ring my Brother and it is always good when he has time for Conversations, I miss him, I love him.  I talk to my Mum and Dad and I hope to see them tomorrow.  And I ring a Yoga Centre where I have been referred by my Chiropractor - a new sign from the Universe (just when I thought I had found the right class) - this is important as this has been one of my Goals for a year - I want to make this happen.  I also look up times of the movies where I am planning a morning out with one of my close Friends on Sunday morning.  I ring my Man's Mum who is important to me and with whom I wish to build our Connection.

And tonight, it is about my Man - tonight we are looking forward to spending time together.  I love that he is happy for me and interested in me and that he is so supportive.  I am so Grateful for my Man.

I am so Grateful for my day.  I am so Grateful that I am always so Grateful - as I write this I feel again a sense of My Goddess Dancing - music, light, love, colour, energy, movement, grace, happiness, joy...

Well Done My Yin-Yang

I am very Excited - today I had true Yin-Yang Success - my Yin and Yang working together in harmony.  I had an appointment with a Physician in Cronulla and I was able to meet with him and tell him about my Coaching Business.

First thing this morning I looked at my Art Therapy from Sunday 11 April 2010 (the last day of my College Intensive Course).

In preparation for the Intensive College Course, I completed the Myers Briggs Personality Profile which identified my Strengths and Preferences as ENFP - slightly expressed extravert, distinctively expressed Intuitive, very expressed feeling personality, moderately expressed perceiving personality. I am strong in my Intuition (especially that I now allow space in my life to hear the whisper of my Soul, and voice of Spirit) and I am in touch with my Feelings and Emotions.  Through my Coaching Studies, I learn that being ENFP means that my Yin, my Feminine part of me is strong.   

While my Myers Briggs Personality is Intuitive, rather that the Thinker, I have developed a strong Thinker through 17 years in the Corporate/ Business world - I can be Logical and Analytical. - these are  the qualities that belong to the Yang part of me, my Masculine.  The problem is that the Shadows of Overthinker, Critic and Judge can surface - and then I often abandon the Thinker, in preference of being in touch with my Intuition and Feelings.  

The College Project, which is actually proving to be so beneficial to my life, is about choosing an area that needs development.  In realising that I had abandoned my Yang, the skills I had developed from the Corporate World, I realised that I needed to get to know my Yang again.  I also realised that while I had a strong Thinker (Logical and Analytical), I needed to develop the Sensor part of me, the Organiser, Sequential, Planned part of myself.

I have been a Witness to my Yin and Yang for the last 7 weeks, their childhood friendship of them first getting to know each other, their adolescent first teenage crush (my Yin's first kiss with her Yang) and now bringing their true love into maturity.  My learning style is Visual, which I love, as I love seeing images in my mind's eye - and as I walk into the Doctor's Clinic I draw on images to give me strength.

 
I love my Goddess - she is beautiful and caring and natural and spreads light and energy.  For this appointment I need my Beloved Yang, my Masculine part of me.  I had been imagining an image of Richard Gere in a business suit, and yet this seems not me - too corporate for me.

And so I bring in a new image for my Yang - one that I can draw on, that makes sense for me - my male energy.

As I began this journey I became more in tune with allowing the creative tension between my Yin and Yang - where my Yang would wait patiently, and just be there, just waiting for my Intuitive Yin to know the next move.  I still love this powerful process - and rather than getting into Overthinker, I love that I am in touch with my Intuition and allow her to guide me.  And yet I am also loving the Strength, Confidence, Thinker, Planner, Action of my Yang and I am more Conscious of bringing my Yang onto the stage.  It reminds me of the clip that my Teacher and Mentor shared with us - I love it - "Stand By Me".
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7P5jWu9JLo&feature=related

When I Consciously draw on my Yin and Yang, there is an internal dialogue happening - almost like a real conversation between these two parts of me - where I definitely feel my Yang male reminding my Yin female part that he is here and ready to go to work for me - he is saying "what now, where to next".  I feel my Yang man is there for me.  It is a great feeling.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gcITElLbSow&feature=related 

I feel my Yin and Yang together, working together as a Team, in partnership.

While I sit in the Doctor's Clinic waiting for my Appointment, I feel happy and at peace.  I am relaxed.  There are 4 patients in front of me and yet I feel happy, content just to sit and wait.  This is important to me.  I sense the image of my Yin-Yang Union - my Goddess in Power.  I love this image - it speaks to me - I am a Goddess on a Mission - THIS IS IMPORTANT TO ME.

While still waiting for the Doctor, waiting about an hour, which feels like about 10 minutes, I visit the restroom and when looking at the mirror, I feel the Yang, Masculine Part of me speaking to the Yin, Feminine Part of me - I feel his energy speak to me - "You look beautiful, especially beautiful when you smile".

When I meet with the Doctor, he is welcoming and relaxed and I feel happy to be there, talking about Coaching and how I may be able to help his patients.  Thanks to the help of my Yang and  Yang's Strengths of being Logical and Planned and Ordered, I had prepared a folder with two pages of notes about Transformational Life Coaching, Confidentiality, The Types of Clients  Who May Benefit From Working With a Coach, Client Benefits Transformational Coaching Process and about SHINE Coaching - and so I felt Confident.  The Doctor is very relaxed and I am relaxed and rather than speaking from my notes, and being in Yang, Business, Salesman mode, I just speak from the heart.  I tell him I am Passionate about helping people in the local Community.  I tell him that Coaching offers the opportunity to support people who who may be looking to move forward in a new and positive direction, who may be experiencing stress and  may be at risk of falling into depression - offering support and being preventative.  The Doctor asks me questions about my background and education and in hindsight I am happy that I do not go into my Defensive or Justifier Shadows - instead I am relaxed in my communication and I feel very comfortable.  I am happy that the Doctor is happy to sit and talk with me.  I share with him why I am choosing to work in this line of work.  I feel we have good rapport and that we have enjoyed a Connection.  As I write this Blog, I am happy that I do not go into a Shadow of Overthinker, analysing everything or go into my Self-Doubt Shadow.  I feel my Yin and Yang, all parts of myself, worked well in building another bridge in the local Community.  My Yang, Businessman, has offered up the suggestion to Yin to write a follow up letter - good idea!

In Evaluation of my Yin-Yang Union I feel happy that I can be Consciously drawing on all the Strengths within me - my Feminine and Masculine parts of me.  I love that I now have strong images in my mind's eye and that I can choose to bring these parts of myself on to the stage of my life.  I do love that we all have Choices, that we may have Strengths and Preferences, and love that we have all parts within us, and can develop these parts so that we are Self-Reliant and become more Self-Confident.  I love that there is a whole love story happening within us - so often I have searched for a man to make me feel good or give me Positive Reinforcement and yet I have the capacity to love myself and offer support to myself.  The experience at the Doctor's Appointment will be a good example of my Yin and Yang in Union, working together to bring about love and light and energy for the greater good.  There were none of my Shadows in sight - my Overwhelm, Lonely, Self-Obsessed, Seeker of Positive Reinforcement, Judge, Comparer, Critic, 'Used To Be', 'Ghosts of the Past' or Stressed Out - all these parts were nowhere to be seen.  I felt my Yin and Yang holding hands, supporting each other, relaxed together, head and heart.  Well Done My Yin-Yang.

After the appointment, when I am sitting having a chai latte, I draw a picture of a heart with rays coming from the heart - this is how I feel after the appointment, my heart is open and I felt in Connection with the doctor who also has an open heart.  I find this image on Google images and it speaks to me.

After my Doctor's Appointment I go to the Bookstore (where I have a room booked on Fridays for my Coaching) and I am happy to see the Owner and Manager and I thank the Manager for the idea of making Appointments with Doctors in the local area.  I tell the Manager that the Appointment went really well.  I feel happy being at the Bookstore, I feel a sense of Belonging.  I am also happy when the Manager says that she has a feeling that I am going to do really well - it is genuine and heartfelt.

I look back over my notes that I printed out regarding an ENFP personality type.  I am happy when I read the Jung Career Indicator and it lists the following careers: Psychology, Counsellor, Journalist/ Reporter, Literature/ Writer, Film Producer, Marketing, Public Relationships Specialist.  I also love reading about my Strengths and Preferences, of my ENFP Profile, from different websites (http://www.keirsey.com/handler.aspx?s=keirsey&f=fourtemps&tab=3&c=champion + http://www.personalitypage.com/ENFP.html):
- Can't wait to tell others of their extraordinary experiences (this is true and is true today when I tell the Manager about my positive meeting with the Doctor)
- Take things in primarily via my Intuition and can tell what is going on inside of others
- Warm, full of energy, enthusiastic, live in the world of possibilities, become very passionate and excited about things 
- My enthusiasm gives me the ability to inspire and motivate others
- Love life and see it as a special gift to strive and make the most of it
- Everything I do must be in line with my Values
- Need time alone to centre myself
- Interested in people and place great importance on their inter-personal relationships
- Speak or write in the hope of revealing some truth about human experience or of motivating others with powerful conviction
- Strong drive to speak out on issues.

When I read these Strengths and they resonate with me, it makes me feel happy - a sense of Self-Love.

This afternoon I watch love stories "Serendipity" and "Sleepless In Seattle" - I hired 5 weekly movies for $7 and I love when two people fall in love.  I also watch youtube and enjoy beautiful love songs.  I could listen to love songs all day.  I love this link - Greatest Long Songs - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUittJXChGY&NR=1 I love these words of these love songs, I imagine my Yin and Yang singing these words to me - saying the words to myself - embracing myself in Self-Love and reassurance, beautiful words with so much love:
- "And you're here in my heart and my heart will go on and on"
- "Fly me to the moon, let me play among the stars"
- "Hold my hand"
- "You will always be my endless love"
- "Baby, I'm amazed at the way I really need you"
- "Nothing compares to you"
- "I can't stop loving you"
- "I took the good times, I'll take the bad times, I'll take you just the way you are"
- "How beautiful life is while you're in the world"
- "I want to spend my life with you"
- "In your eyes, the light, the heat, your eyes, I am complete"
- "Have I told you lately that I love you, have I told you there is noone else above you" (WOW)
- "I will always love you" (WOW!!!)
- "I can't help falling in love you"
- "I need your love"

WOW.  I say these words to myself, twice over.  I realise that I do love so many wonderful aspects of myself and that I am amazing, I can recognise and Honour myself, be Grateful for myself - I am in Celebration of myself.  Once upon a time, a long time ago, about 6 years ago, I was deeply depressed, I didn't value myself, I couldn't see a bright, happy future, I thought my life was not worth living.  It was so long ago and the experience taught me so much.  This experience was also the catalyst to want me to help people - this experience led me to my lifework of a Coach.  And now, in this Journey, I am learning to know myself  The greatest gift is that I am moving from Self Acceptance to Self-Love.  I remember when I was married and my ex-husband would say that he "accepted me" - I hated this, this made me sad - I wanted him to tell me he loved me, that I was the love of his life, that I was wonderful and amazing and FANTASTIC!  And over the years I have dwelled in other unhealthy relationships.

And as I write this Blog I realise, up comes this Awareness, an "AHA" moment, that over the years, mainly before my Course, and sometimes now, I have allowed myself to dwell in an unhealthy relationship with myself - self-doubt, at times low self-confidence and self-esteem, at times negative and critical self-talk, certainly times wanting to change to be better or be more perfect.

And today I can Honour myself and say Well Done My Yin-Yang, Well Done Kath in Consciously choosing to bring these parts of myself together, to get to know myself and develop my Strengths - Well Done Kath, Well Done Me.

I can also be in Celebration for all my Achievements and Wins in the last 7 weeks.  I am in Celebration for all that I have accomplished in my Business through working with my Yin and Yang, relying on myself, bringing myself into my own power.  When I look at the Art Therapy painting from College from Sunday 11 April 2010, I am reminded that this was the Inspiration for my Business Logo.

By using the Strengths of my Yin part of me and my Yang part of me I was able to bring a Business Card and Flyer to life.  My Yin and Yang have also been essential in helping me organise two spaces for my Coaching - at a Bookstore and a Physiotherapist Clinic.  My Yin has loved more time in Nature, more time doing Art and listening to music that speaks to my Soul.  And my Yang has been so powerful and wonderful in getting organised with Client Forms and emails and preparation for the material for my meeting with the Doctor today.  While my Yang had all the material today, and was so in full support of his beloved Yin, it was wonderful that my Yin part of me was so present today, where I was able to show my Passion and my love of helping people.  And in the Process of Evaluation of my Yin-Yang Project I realise that I have become Self-Reliant and I have gained more Strength and Self-Confidence.

The GREATEST GIFT is that I am in a place of Self-Love.  I can now say to myself, the words I have longed to hear - YOU ARE wonderful and amazing and FANTASTIC!  I see you.  I see the Greatness in you.

I love these Love Duets - they make my heart sing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MG4TL3ZktyQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6Dg1Ymji-Q

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iv1zsxa-qb0&feature=fvsr

Tonight I receive an email from the Manager at the Bookstore - her favourite quote which is also one of my favourites:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” Marianne Williamson

I love these words.  My wish is that through my Shine Coaching business I can help people Shine - I can help people "manifest the glory of God that is within" them.  I am so happy that I am in touch with my life purpose to Spread The Yellow.   

Tonight I watch 'Garden State', a story about life, a love story, and I love these two quotes, they speak to me tonight - "Let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is that we are" and "This is beginning of something really big" - this is how I am feeling tonight, as I Honour myself and Honour my Journey.  YES - THIS IS THE BEGINNING OF SOMETHING REALLY BIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear God

In one day, one moment, your life can change.  Today at 11.20am I received a call from my Mum and Dad - I was sitting there waiting for the call. My Mum has been the specialist and she has found out that the brain tumor has grown - it is not the news that we want to hear.  I have been Praying and Praying and I feel an instant sadness when my Mum tells me about her MRI results.  I wish that I had have been with my Parents at the specialist, so that I could ask more questions.  I feel helpless right now. 

My Mum is Positive and after a few Conversations, my Mum offers that she will ring her own specialist (who is away for 2 weeks) and ask his opinion - yes, yes, this seems like the best Next Step.

This morning in my Meditation I felt that I had fear inside me and I practiced the NLP Technique of looking at the fear, taking it out of your body and then letting it go above you, around you, through you, so that it was now behind you.  I then had a sense of standing close to glass, and my Mum is behind the glass and I am just standing watching, so close and I am sending so much Yellow light to my Mum, and I have an image of my Man coming to stand with me and holding my hand.  I was sending Yellow rays all morning.  And then I received the call, and everything stopped - most of the day I have felt in a cloud, a dark, rainy cloud - laughter and smiles and lightness and brightness do not feel close to me right now.

There is so much out of my control right now, and worrying about what might happen or what this all means will not be helpful.  Right now I just feel sad and numb.

I speak to one of my close friends, and she tells me that her older parents are also not very well - where she is now being her Dad's full-time carer.  My friend was also saying, how easily, so unexpectedly, life can change.  There was a Gift in talking to my friend, she said that she is just cherishing every day with her Dad - really enjoying the time that they have together.  So much truth in these words.

On Saturday I had such a great day with my Mum and Dad - we enjoyed walking and talking and laughing.  These are some of my happiest times, just enjoying time together.  I love seeing my Mum smile.

I refer to my 'Law Of Attraction' book by Michael J. Losier - I have a feeling that I need to get this working for me - I need to get this working for my Mum.  I often talk about the Law Of Attraction and now I am motivated to learn more.

"Have you noticed that sometimes what you need just falls into place or comes to you from an out-of-blue telephone call?  Or you've bumped into someone on the street you've been thinking about?  Perhaps you've met the perfect client or life partner, just by fate or being at the right place at the right time.  All of these experiences are evidence of the Law Of Attraction in your life.  Have you heard about people who find themselves in bad relationships over and over again, and who are always complaining that they keep attracting the same kind of relationship?  The Law Of Attraction is at work for them too.  The Law Of Attraction may be defined as: I attract to my life whatever I give my attention, energy and focus to, whether positive or negative."

I also like these words "What you radiate outward in your thoughts, feelings, mental pictures and words, you attract into your life." Catherine Ponder, Dynamic Law of Prosperity

I read on "Every single moment you have a mood or a feeling.  In this moment right now, the mood or feeling you are experiencing is causing you to emit or send out a negative or positive vibration... For example, when a person wakes up first thing Monday morning feeling a little bit cranky and irritated, they are sending out a negative vibration, the Law Of Attraction responds, matching the vibration they are sending and giving this person more of the same." As I read this passage, it makes me realise that I need to be focusing on my Mum's track record of always beating cancer, she has a hurdle and then she has an operation or a treatment and she is well again.  My Mum is well, my Mum is feeling well and healthy.

I am really enjoying what I am reading - this book is an easy read and it makes sense - it is all a very good reminder to me today - "When you make a statement containing the words don't, not or no, you are actually giving attention and energy to what you don't want.  Simply ask yourself 'SO, WHAT DO I WANT?'"  I could sit here and say I don't want my Mum to get sick - instead I must choose my words - I want my Mum to be well and live to old age to see her Grandchildren grow up.

I like reading about "Contrast" and the step that needs to be taken when I recognise  "Contrast" - "Contrast... anything you don't like, doesn't feel good, or causes you to be in a negative mood.  The moment you identify something in your life that feels like contrast and you spend time complaining about it, talking about it, or declaring that you don't want it, you are offering a negative vibration.  The Law Of Attraction then responds to your negative vibration by giving you more of the same... By observing contrast and identifying it as something you don't want, you become clearer about what you do want.  Simply ask yourself 'So, what do I want?'"

First step is to Identify My Desire - I will repeat (and rewrite these words) - I want my Mum to be well and live a healthy life to old age to see her Grandchildren grow up.  I want my Mum to be with me when I get married and have children (although my Man tells me that I write in my Blogs too much about having children - hmm... this is not a good sign - and yet I am not going to focus on this tonight - and I will  maintain my clear Vision for my future which includes having children - and definitely includes my Mum seeing my Baby and enjoying my Baby growing up).

I really like this part of the Law Of Attraction, reinforcing the importance of being Grateful - "If you like what you are observing, then celebrate it, and in your celebration you will get more of it."  I am in Celebration of he wonderful times I spend with my Mum and look forward to so many more wonderful times, happy days together.

I love my Mum and my plan is to stay positive and send out positive vibrations that Mum will get the help that she needs to be well and healthy.  I am in Celebration of every phone call, every day spent with my Mum, every day I hear my Mum's happy, positive voice.

I love the concept of the "Vibrational Bubble" and as suggested in the book - "If you build your desire list and put it away in your sock drawer, your desire won't manifest because the Law Of Attraction doesn't respond to things in a sock drawer.  It only responds to what is currently in your Vibrational Bubble."  I will be Conscious of including in my Vibrational Bubble:

- talking about my desire

- noticing something I like

- daydreaming about my desire

- visualising my desire

- when I say yes to something

- when I remember something positive

- when I'm observing something positive

- when I'm praying about my desire
- when I'm celebrating something I like.

I am also Conscious of my Yellow bubbles - using the Law Of Attraction to Spread The Yellow to my Mum and putting positive images and thoughts out into the Universe.

As I read and write about the Law Of Attraction,  I have a sense that I should Pray again.  I have been Praying - I was Praying last night and this morning - and I know that God is close by to me and my Family.

Dear God, I am sorry that I sometimes forget to pray to you, or even say hello.  And, I am always Grateful, every day, for the beauty of the world.  Thank you God.  Please bless my Mum, heal my Mum.  I need my Mum.  Please send your love and light and healing power and miracles.  I thank you God for helping my Mum be so brave and positive and strong.  Please keep a watch over my Mum and send your angels to look after my Mum and help her contine to be healthy and well and live a long and healthy life.  Thank you God.