1 Month To Go

It's 1 Month To Go until I turn 40.

40!!!  I can't really believe it!  The other day at work, one of my colleagues said that she thought I was in my 20s - that's a nice compliment, however the reality is that I am turning 40.  

And I am feeling 40.  Starting my new job has been challenging and rewarding and stressful and tiring - it has been a great move and I am enjoying my job - and I am tired and feeling old.  My favourite thing to do when I get home is to have a hot bath and I do look forward to trying to get into bed before 10pm, so that I can feel fresh when I wake up early in the morning.  My Man and I laugh about it - although I do wish I did not feel so tired and so "middle-aged".

With 1 Month To Go I was hoping to use tonight as a chance for Reflection - where I am, where I want to be - and how I can take Steps to close this gap.  And yet as I sit here I am already feeling tired and ready to turn in for the night.  Of course I also have a cold and so am not feeling 100%.

Hmm... not a positive start to my 1 Month To Go Review.  

The great news is that today we sold our Apartment - and so we are 1 Step closer to being able to buy a new home, a 3 bedroom townhouse or villa where we can start getting ready to grow our Family - now that would be the number 1 Dream - having a beautiful baby.  In turning 40, having a baby is what I feel is most missing from our lives - and I feel that this is the next chapter in our lives.  Having a baby of our own will be the greatest Dream come true. 

Another thing that is also missing from my life, at the moment, is a regular exercise routine.  I have fond memories of when I would be out running every morning, training for an upcoming running event.  I would be up early and out the door full of energy and excitement.  And yet now I allow time for my snooze button to catch a few extra minutes before getting out of bed to get ready for work.  I do walk and I do stay active through the day - and yet I am missing a training program.  I must get back onto the treadmill as well as longer walks outdoors.  

From today, starting today I am also making a Commitment to give up chocolate - at least for the next 1 month - chocolate is not the best for my well-being, I often get quite sick eating chocolate and the next day after eating it, I feel very less than my best.  Giving up chocolate for the 1 month, at least, will also be a good practice of my willpower.

With 1 Month To Go before I turn 40 I am feeling so Grateful for all the greatness in my life - My Man, my Family, my Coaching, my new job, Community, Friends.  Definitely within the next few weeks I am looking forward to some Self-Care and pampering - perhaps some nice long walks, perhaps a massage, actually definitely a massage, maybe/ definitely a facial.  And maybe a new craft hobby - I did start doing knitting, enjoyed it, not sure if this is right for me since I had to keep undoing all that I have knitted when I make a mistake, as the Perfectionist in me wants to get it right - maybe back to crochet or sewing and definitely photography.  And I know I definitely want to start writing, or do more writing - Trusting in the power of Inspiration and I must remember to tune into this Space.

Hmm... 1 Month To Go - and how Grateful I am that I AM HAPPY!!!

Thank You God for all your Blessings.

Hmm... time for bed...  and what a Blessing it is to feel safe and warm, feeling a sense of Home and feeling relaxed and at peace.

Choice and Commitment

I've been having a lot of Dreams lately - they seem so real that I wake up in a daze.

The other night I had this Dream that I was getting married and I was trying to do this dance routine, like a show, and I wasn't marrying My Man.  The Dream was just on me, I did not see the groom in the Dream - and yet I had such a strong feeling of sadness that My Man wasn't the groom.  In the Dream I just wanted to be slow dancing with My Man.  When I woke up, I was so relieved to see that it was a Dream and that My Man was sleeping next to me.  Phew!!!

This morning I had another strange Dream that was very confusing.  I had a very restless night, I was up and down all night, feeling very sick in the stomach.  When I finally did get to sleep I had this Dream that I was going to ring up sick and in the Dream I couldn't work out who I had to call.  I couldn't work out if I was at school, I thought I was in Year 7 and that I had to ring a Teacher, then I had this fear in my stomach that I was in Year 12 and better start studying for the HSC, and then I realised I was working and I couldn't work out where I worked and who was my boss that I needed to call.  No wonder I have had a headache today.

I always love the words of wisdom and quotes that I receive every morning and yesterday I received these quotes
- “Take the world as it is, not as it ought to be." – German Proverb –
- "Instead of trying to change the world into what it ought to be, accept it as it is, instead of trying to change who you are into who you ought to be, accept yourself as you are. Then you will realise that the parts of your life and yourself that you had been trying to change into what they ought to be were only the parts of yourself that you had not yet loved the way you ought to love.  The UNIVERSE"

These quotes allow me the freedom to be okay with not feeling 120%.  Today in feeling at about 60%, I allowed myself the opportunity for Self-Care.  I gave my Self permission to have a sick day off work and rang my Boss.  I take the Commitment of my work seriously and yet when it comes to Choice and Commitment for today, I choose to Honour my Self.  I enjoyed the opportunity to crawl back into bed and slept for a few hours.  I feel so much better after sleeping.

And then I had another Dream.  My Soul is definitely sending me messages.  I had a Dream that My Man and I had a disagreement and then he left and then I called him only to find that he didn't pick up the phone, he must have bumped the phone and so I could just hear him in the background.  In the background he was buying an airline ticket and I didn't know where he was going and he couldn't hear me, and I was yelling out and he still couldn't hear me.  I was also relieved to wake up from that Dream by My Man ringing me to see how I was feeling.

I'm still feeling less than 100% and I'm okay to just be real with how I am today.  I am also learning to be in relationship and in love in the everyday and in the realness.  We had such a fantastic day on our engagement and I am a woman in love and I can also say that this is a Choice and Commitment that I choose to Honour, even on the days when we are both feeling less than 100%.

I have baggage from my Past, given that I have been married before and engaged another time.  I have had almost had a fear of whether I could take this big step again.  And yet when I have uneasy feelings of my Past, I see an image of boxes that are all packed up and I remind myself that I can leave the boxes closed.

This is my chance to Design my Life.  And I am glad that My Man is the one in my life, the one in my everyday.  I'm glad that my recent Dreams are not Dreams come true - if anything they made me feel terrible at the prospect of not having my Man in my life.

It was great when My Man got home from work.  It was great to go for a walk outside together.  I love being outside.  This is my medicine.  I love walking out by the beach and we are delighted to see the moon over the ocean - what a beautiful sight - the sky is a pinky blue colour.  At this time I wished I had my camera to capture the beauty.  We take a moment and capture the beauty in our mind's eye.  By the time we get home, the sun has set and we look back and see the glow of the full moon.  I just love being outside.

Another positive part of my evening was also running to an old friend from school - he is now married and due to have his first child any day now.  One of my favourite parts of living where we do, is running into people around the local Community.  I love being in Connection and Conversations.

As I reflect on today I wonder what Archetypes naturally came into my world today.  I definitely felt my Sage this morning when I made the decision regarding Self-Care.   I love having my Sage as a Resource.

My Sage activated my Caregiver Archetype - choosing to give Care to my Self.

I also reflect on the questions - What has changed?  What I am consciously applying in my day?  I feel that I am bringing myself back to the Present moment and out of my mind by consciously bringing in the image of my Yellow Heart.  If I am triggered to go into my Past, I am able to bring in the image of boxes that are packed up and this brings me back to the Present moment, rather than wasting mental or emotional energy on my Past.  I am also able to be Present and Real to what is, in my own feelings and in my relationship.  This is allowing me the opportunity to sit still in the moment.

I am happy to love and be loved at a deep level - to feel the bond at a deep level.  In my Heart, I have such a strong sense that there is nowhere else I would rather be - I have a sense of being at Home with My Man.  And it is also a Choice and Commitment that I make on a daily basis, in the sunshine, in the rain, on cloudy days, when flowers are blooming.  My Mum and Dad have been married 42 years and I have such great role models of Marriage and Commitment.  I am Grateful for my Man and I am very glad that we can both be real.  I especially love holding hands with My Man - it is the small things that are the BIG things.

Today I am Grateful to be able to go out walking with my Man, I am Grateful for extra sleep, I am Grateful for peppermint tea, I am Grateful for My Man making me dinner, I am Grateful to enjoy the beautiful sight of the full moon.  I am very Grateful that my Dad came home from hospital.  And I am Grateful that I can sit in the Space of not feeling 100% Fantastic.   And I am Grateful that I am learning to hold the Paradox of Dark and Light.

Holding The Paradox

There is so much that I am learning.  There is so much that I am wanting to apply in my own life and as areas to bring into the Consciousness of my Coaching Clients.  There is so much that I am naturally applying in my own life and I love the opportunity for Self-Reflection to see what is working and new opportunities for growth.

Often it is just the Awareness and the bringing into Consciousness that can create HUGE Shifts.  For me I have been Consciously bringing myself into a State of being Present (more often, most often), being more in Body, and less caught in my Thinking or Feelings.  Being in my Body is my resting place - and from here I am Guided by my Intuition.  When I am resting in my Body, being Present, I feel that I am in my Soul's Home, My Yellow Heart.  The image of My Yellow Heart always brings me back to this place.  When I find myself Overthinking or getting caught up in the Past or be in my Worrying Shadow - I bring in the image of My Yellow Heart, and I come back into being Present in the Now.  This Awareness and Consciousness is changing my life.

In this place of My Yellow Heart, I am able to experience and enjoy Holding The Paradox.   This is a new Concept for me, so simple and so Powerful.  I can hold the Dark AND the Light.  It is no longer about quickly shifting from the Dark to the Light, or just staying in the Dark, or there being just Dark OR Light.  When I am Holding The Paradox, it is not about 'but', it is about using the word 'AND' - using it from a genuine, felt sense, heartfelt place.  When I am Holding the Paradox, I am in Balance - there is one hand Holding the Dark and one hand Holding the Light.  In My Yellow Heart I am Grounded and I am filled with Spirit, I am in my Strength and Authentic Power and Truth.  I am not just saying the words I can have a strong sense and feeling of Holding The Paradox.

In my Life I feel comfortable Feeling into my Emotions, being Present to my Emotions.  By Being in my Body I can feel at a gut level what is real for me, not what I Think I am Feeling.  And as I sit in my Emotions, sometimes sadness or pain, I can also Hold the knowing that there is Light and Joy.

I am Holding The Paradox in many Areas of my Life right now.  Paradox defined -
" A seemingly contradictory statement that may nonetheless be true: the paradox that standing is more tiring than walking."
- "An assertion that is essentially self-contradictory, though based on a valid deduction from acceptable premises."

I can be in pain and sadness AND feel Happy and Grateful.  I can feel a sense of isolation and aloneness AND a strong sense of Love and Connection.  I can feel a sense of being stuck AND know I can take a step and start to move.

By Holding the Paradox, I do not feel distressed or weighed down or overwhelmed.  Especially when it comes to my loved one - right now I am Holding The Paradox of concern about my Parents and my Man who are all sick AND believing that they are getting the care and medical attention that is required and the Love and Light from me.  By Holding The Paradox I do not waste mental or emotional energy that does not serve me or serve the situation - instead, I can be fully Present to what is needed on a day to day, needs by needs basis.

I am Holding The Paradox that I am not earning as much money as my previous Management Career AND I can Trust and be Excited that I have found my Lifework as a Coach.  

I am Holding The Paradox that my work Monday-Wednesday does not make my heart sing and does not utilise all of my Strengths and Skills AND I am Grateful to work close to home and be busy in my job without a feeling of stress.

I am Holding The Paradox of there is so much still to learn and embrace AND I have learnt and grown so much.

I am Holding The Paradox of feeling less fit and not being able to run AND I can enjoy Walking and Yoga and a more relaxed pace of exercise.

I am Holding The Paradox of feeling I have so much to organise in my Home and garage and clutter to clear AND I am taking steps every day to create a Happy Home.

I am Holding The Paradox of day to day living with my Man and whatever that brings us in our day AND the Excitement of a deep and loving bond and wonderful times for our Future.

I am Holding The Paradox of being tired AND energised with all of my Dreams that I want to fit more into my day.

By Holding The Paradox I am Holding and Acknowledging the realness and the Truth AND I am also Holding a Light, Holding and Acknowledging being Grateful, holding Hope, holding my Dreams.

I can be Present to both Light AND Dark.  I can Hold both Light AND Dark.

In this Space of Holding both, I am neither Light or Dark.  I am at Peace.  In My Yellow Heart I am Love and Light.  And from this Space, I can draw in my Sage, my Wise Self.  My Sage is my Resource, infused with energy of God and Spirit, filled with rays of energy, helping me for my Highest  Good.  My Sage is Present when I am Acting, Speaking and Being in Wisdom.  While I am Still when I am Holding The Paradox, my Sage can help guide me towards my Next Steps.

And in my Purpose to Spread The Yellow, I am Holding The Paradox of:

- I am only one AND still I am one
- I cannot do everything AND still I can do something.

I am Holding The Paradox of wanting to rush out and get busy with Action and 'To Do' Lists AND  allowing space, living in the flow and trusting the Universe to show me the way.  I am asking God to show me the way and show me how I can live my Purpose to Spread The Yellow each and every day in the big and small ways.  By Holding The Paradox, this allows me more mental and emotional energy, more freedom, to be in the right Space to Love and Serve others.

And now it is time for me to wash up - one of the simple ways I can Spread The Yellow in my Home (since my Man hates washing up).  And then time for bed - Self-Care.

Exceptional Self-Care

I am happy to revisit the topic of Self-Care, which is the final Activity in preparation for my College Course next week.  What I love about Transformational Life Coaching is that it offers the opportunity for Clients to achieve balance in their lives in terms of Physical, Emotional, Mental and Spiritual Aspects of Self, essentially a Balance of Yang Masculine and Yin Feminine.  I also love the opportunity to bring in Self-Awareness of the importance of Self-Care.  This is great for me and for my Coaching Clients. 

I read my notes from my Teacher "Exceptional Self-Care... establish or renew a commitment to take VERY good care of yourself.  Underpinning any Self-Care behaviour, such as getting sufficient rest, receiving bodywork, not doing every little thing that others expect of you, etc, is an attitude of valuing one's Self-Care, and a willingness to follow through... When you support clients to learn to support themselves better in this way - and role-model Self-Care yourself - they are likely to adopt better habits and thus experience a boost in their energy.  This then makes it naturally more possible to be more present in their life, and the lives of others.  The term 'Exceptional Self-Care' highlights an intention to uphold this way of living."

I look up the definition of 'Exceptional' - "Being an exception; uncommon; well above average; extraordinary".  I feel Inspired.

I look at the 'Exceptional Self-Care' Activity, a Holistic Approach that looks at what can be done on the Physical, Emotional, Mental and Spiritual levels to improve my Self-Care.  Rather than just being in the mind in a Yang mode - I tune into my Yin Intuition and Feelings and I have a sense that I can be Exceptional in my Self-Care:

Physical

- Massage - at least one every three months

- Walk in Nature - at least four times per week (I love my Walks in Nature)

- Yoga - at least once a week (I love that I have finally started Yoga)

- Sweet-free at least Monday-Thursday (I remember not eating sweets for about 9 years and I enjoy being able to relax and enjoy sweets now and yet I also want to limit the sugar in my diet)

Emotional

- Check in with my Feelings on a daily basis, a few times a day 

- Trust my Body, Felt Sense, Intuition rather than just being in my Thinking

- Journal and Art Therapy when I feel called to express myself

Mental

- Meditation 15-30 minutes per day

- Affirmation to STOP any overthinking or worrying

Spiritual

- Meditation 15-30 minutes per day

- Pray and give thanks on a daily basis with an Attitude of Gratitude.

I feel that in the last two weeks I have just been reading and reviewing all of these forms and making lists of all of the gaps I have in my life and identifying Areas where I need ACTION.  And so I am especially loving that I can balance this out with Self-Care.  I am especially keen to book a massage - hmmm... that sounds like a great idea!!!

There is so much to do.  I will write this twice - THERE IS SO MUCH TO DO!!!  And yet this week I will enjoy each day.  I am not going to overthink things or worry, or even think about ALL of the things I need to do.  I am just going to be Present in the NOW.  This feels to be such a great way to Honour Self and to Practice Exceptional Self-Care.

 

 

Within My Power

Today I have so many concerns and worries.  I am worried about my Mum's health.  I am worried about my Dad.  I am worried about my Brother.  I am worried and I am upset.

My day starts off well.  I wake up earlier than normal (even after pressing the snooze button a few times), seeing my Values on the wall and I choose Health and Nature as my Priorities.  I just love being Outdoors.  I love Walking and taking the time to enjoy the beautiful world around me.  I eat healthy all day - huge salad sandwich for lunch - and healthy pasta dish for dinner.  I love being healthy.  

And while I am doing everything I can do to look after myself today, Self-Care, there are clouds above me and shadows around me, a quiet sadness.  I have been Conscious about getting in touch with my Yin and using the Strength and Confidence in my communication.   And so I decide to bring my Yang into power in my personal life - communicating to my Family what matters to me, what matters to our Family. This afternoon I make my Family a Priority.  I leave work early to do everything I can to help with some difficult situations.  

I realise today that I can only work Within My Power - I can only do what I can do.  And so I speak to my Mum and Dad and my Brother and Sister-In-Law and I do everything I can, Within My Power, to help improve this situation. 

I have been talking a lot, even in my Coaching - about working within one's Sphere of Control.  Tonight I refer to 'The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People' by Stephen Covey, one of my favourite books - he talks about the Circle of Influence and the Circle of Concern.  I like what he writes -

"Proactive people focus their efforts in the Circle of Influence.  They work on the things they can do something about.  The nature of their energy is positive, enlarging and magnifying, causing their Circle of Influence to increase.  Reactive people, on the other hand, focus their efforts in the Circle of Concern.  They focus on the weakness of other people, the problems in the environment, and circumstances over which they have no control.  Their focus results in blaming and accusing attitudes, reactive language, and increased feelings of victimisation.  The negative energy generated by that focus, combined with neglect in areas they could do something about, causes their Circle of Influence to shrink."

I love that Coaching helps people develop an Internal Focus for Change - "Developing an Internal Focus means enabling the Client to make a transition from seeing the source and solution of a problem in others, or the situation, to within themselves.  Rather than externalising their problem the Client begins to recognise their own Choices about the way they think, feel and act or react.  These choices effect the Client's experience of, and relationship to, the issue or problem."

After referring to Stephen Covey's book and my College notes, I realise that I cannot lose sleep tonight, I cannot keep talking over and over to my Man about how worried I am - I can speak from my heart and offer my help to my Family - and most importantly I can offer love to my Family.  And rather than worrying about what might happen, I can just focus on the Now - focusing my energy, thoughts and emotions  within my Circle of Influence - working Within My Power.

As a Life Coach, it is important that I Coach myself, and live by the principles that Make A Difference.  Not only is this important - this is my life - I have a Vision to Spread The Yellow - and even though there are times I don't feel Yellow - I still have Choices of how I act, react and think.  I am Inspired by the image of my Goddess - I am glad that in being a Visual person I can so easily bring this image to my mind's eye.

Now is the time to be the Goddess.

Keep It Real

It is cold.  It is so cold.  I am sitting here in my layers of jumpers and a scarf and a tracksuit, with a heater and my rug.  

It took me a long time to get to sleep last night, my thoughts were racing.  And then again this morning.  I tried a Meditation and yet my mind was way too busy.  And so I reluctantly got out of bed, and  enjoyed a hot shower (probably the last one for a while, as our hot water has now shifted to warm water - I am disappointed as I was looking forward to another hot bath). I then enjoyed some Art Therapy - just getting out my textas and crayons and blank paper.  I am certainly not an artist and yet I enjoy just playing, letting thoughts and feelings in my unconscious mind come to the surface.  I love the opportunity to express my inner experience.  Here are my drawings from this morning - the first one is a current reality regarding my current room for my Coaching Business and the second image is my desired reality.  

As I share these images and write these words, I get a sense of 'should I share so much' - and yet, it is interesting that my theme for today has been to Keep It Real.  I have realised, quite to my surprise, that although I am Committed to being honest and true and authentic, I have realised that I am not entirely happy with where I am setting up my Coaching Business.  This is a surprise, as I have been saying how much I love my Coaching space.  My strength of being naturally happy and positive and looking at the sunny side of everything may be getting in my way.  I do love that I am starting my Coaching Business.  I ldo love setting up my room.  And yet I feel that there is not enough natural light in my room, I love natural light.  I also feel that I am isolated - whereas my desired reality is to be working in a Community of healers.  I feel that I am needing to work hard at bringing the light and energy into the room.  Perhaps it is just the rainy weather - and yet when I draw an image of my desired reality, it is naturally a place of light and energy and it is dynamic with other healers working in a Community.  I am in a room with natural light.  There is less need for me to fill the space with "stuff" - there is space for the power and energy of the relationship.  

Hmm... this is all very surprising to me.  Time to sit with this insight, do some research on other opportunities within the Bookstore or within the local area. 

I really love Art Therapy - I take away the pressure of having to produce artwork and let myself enjoy the process.  I look up Art Therapy and I read on Wikipedia -
"Purpose of Art Therapy - The purpose of art therapy is much the same as in any other psychotherapeutic modality: to improve or maintain mental health and emotional well-being. But whereas some of the other expressive therapies utilize the performing arts for expressive purposes, art therapy generally utilizes drawing, painting, sculpture, photography, and other forms of visual art expression. For that reason art therapists are trained to recognize the nonverbal symbols and metaphors that are communicated within the creative process, symbols and metaphors which might be difficult to express in words or in other modalities. By helping their clients to discover what underlying thoughts and feelings are being communicated in the artwork and what it means to them, it is hoped that clients will not only gain insight and judgment, but perhaps develop a better understanding of themselves and the way they relate to the people around them. According to Malchiodi (2006) 'Art making is seen as an opportunity to express oneself imaginatively, authentically, and spontaneously, an experience that, over time, can lead to personal fulfilment, emotional reparation, and transformation. The creative process can be a health-enhancing and growth-producing experience.'"

After the Art Therapy I feel tired - I have a lie down - it is rainy outside - not much to do - I decide to just rest.  My Man is lovely and he buys us lunch and then I enjoy reading on the Couch - reading my wonderful 'Soulcraft' book - WONDERFUL!  There are some beautiful paragraphs that speak to me - especially since I feel that since being made redundant I was given the chance to hear the Call To Adventure
- "The angels have arrived to summon you to the adventure for which you have longed.  They are your guides to your Soul.  But the opportunity does not arrive in the form you had imagined.  It arrives in the middle of an enormous storm: now the immense loneliness begins."

- "Why an immense loneliness?  In surrendering the mainstays of your former worldview and separating yourself from everyday community life, your old anchors and familiar reference points disappear.  You will have to rely on yourself more deeply and fully than ever before.  You will have to surrender the cherished belief that someone is going to protect you, save you, do the work of growing for you, or show you the way.  The descent necessarily begins with an immense loneliness, and only someone who possesses the skills required to complete a first house of personality ('the worldview you began forming in the expansive growing season of adolescence and that carried you through your first adulthood') - only that person is going to be ready to handle that degree of loneliness.  Although the knock on the door does not require you to be alone per se, it does require you to go your own way."

- "Once you have been called, you will have to separate - psychologically if not physically - from the ordinary life of your community.  During your young adulthood, you had some confidence in your personality and you felt you could trust the powers of nature.  Now... your life becomes 'a riddle again, and you again a stranger' - to yourself and others.  You will have to relinquish your temptation to conform or to seek acceptance from others.  You will have to go out on your own."

I could lie on the couch and read all afternoon - and yet I love being outdoors.  My Man and I decide to enjoy a walk outside  together - despite the rain.  We equip ourselves with a large umbrella and enjoy a lovely walk together - we have a lovely time.  We walk to Cronulla and enjoy a chai - I love being in Cronulla.  I feel this is where my Coaching Business belongs - this is where I belong.  My Man and I walk through Gunnamatta Park - I just love Gunnamatta.  I just love being out in Nature.

Gunnamatta Park has an amphitheatre and when I walk past this outdoor amphitheatre, I often think of a key message that I would present if I was the one on stage.  The other day I had a sense that the message I should present would be 'Make Your Life Great'.  Today I stand on the stage and it feels very real standing on the stage - what would be my key message if there were people in the crowd?  I look around - the message is obvious - Keep It Real.

I love being outdoors and in Nature.  This is so important to me - HUGE for me.   I love witnessing the beauty of Tress.  I love seeing Birds flying and listening to their songs.  I am blessed to be surrounded by such beauty.  I am Inspired when I am in Nature.  I love starting my day Walking around the Bay and through the Park and to the beach.  I am blessed.  I am Grateful.

When I get home I have a sense that there is a book with a message - words that will speak to me.  I scan my bookcases - shelf by shelf - wanting something to jump out - and I then pick up a few books that I thought (rather than felt) would contain some words of wisdom.  I flicked through a few pages and yet no words spoke to me.  So I get comfortable again on the couch and start reading 'Soulcraft'.  Within minutes I read the words I need to hear - powerful words -
"... anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you."

WOW!!!  These words raise questions for me - does my room bring me alive?  Or am I bringing it to life?   I close my eyes and almost have an image of me shrinking - is it taking away my energy?   

 

Perhaps I am also attaching too much importance to having a room, booking a room every week, making sure I have space and belong.  Perhaps the real adventure belongs in letting go of certainty, being free and just having a few options available and trusting that the Clients will come and see me - that the power is not in the room.  I do believe that the power of Coaching, the magic, is in the power of the relationship.

I am concerned that I am paying money every week and just sitting waiting for Clients.  Instead, if I am honest, and to Keep It Real, my preference would be to have a room or two available where I pay for the space when I see a Client.  This would mean that I would be free to be in Community, meeting people who may be Clients or be able to refer Clients, as well as designing Programs from my notes - working on my business - rather than just sitting in my business.  I just need to Keep It Real and spend some time, tuning into my Yin, and using the strength and confidence of my Yang. 

In true Yang style I decide that I will write a list of what is important to me (some of my findings from my Art Therapy and insights after writing this Blog) and then I will see whether the current space is the best place, as well as exploring other options.  Most importantly, I just love working with people.  I am very passionate about wanting to help people move towards a life they love - and so I want to work in an environment where I am not isolated - a place that is dynamic and energetic and there is the potential for people to be referred to me (as other healers know that I am Committed to working with my Clients so that they may feel Successful, Happy, Inspired, New, Energetic, Empowered).

Tonight I Keep It Real - I ask my Man if he will take me to Woolworths so that I can buy some Clinkers, the last chocolate for a while, and now I am having a glass of wine.  Tomorrow, 24 May 2010, I start my Detox - with Health being a HUGE Priority for me.  This will be easy for me - my greatest desire is to have my own Baby and so I am choosing Self-Care.  No matter where this Journey may lead, Self-Care will always be important - as well as my Commitment to Keep It Real.

I Love Words

I Love Words. 

I Love to read Quotes or Words from a Book first thing in the morning - just taking a few minutes to pick a page of one of my Favourite Books by random (or so it seems).  I love 'Goddess' by Toni Carmine Salerno - LOVE the images and LOVE the words.  I choose a page - the words (and image) are perfect as always -

"Create
For it is in creation that you exist
In this world full of wonder 

Through love and hatred
Joy and sadness
Laughter and tears

The unknown awaits you
Step into the void
With courage and strength

Allow your inner light to unfold
Like a budding rose
Searching for the sun

Go where love leads you
Keep your pockets full of dreams
And allow them to be your guide."

I Love Words.  I Love these Words "The unknown awaits you   Step into the void   With courage and strength" - perfect for my day of going out into Community to build my Coaching Business.

I go outside to Exercise - and it feels great - I allow myself to enjoy Running for 10 minutes to the beach and then I enjoy Walking - it feels great to be alive.  I spend some time enjoying housework when I get Home, so that my Man and I can put our energy into other Priorities this weekend.

I love being in my Coaching room - I love setting up my room and getting ready for Clients.  I lay out my Angel Cards and pick two cards that speak to me 

- Astara - "You deserve the best!  Reach for the stars with your dreams and desires, and don't compromise" 

- Archangel Ariel - "Prosperity - Your material needs are provided as you follow your intuition and manifest your dreams into reality"

I enjoy a Meditation, I really love just sinking in my chair and enjoying the quiet, the peace.  I have a sense of me rolling down a hill and that I am like a ball of wool that becomes bigger and gathers momentum.   In my Meditation, I also get a sense of a mirror and that it is most important how I see myself - that when I look in the mirror I have Self-Love.

I have a sense that Self-Care is very important to me - and that I must look after myself.  I also see an image of me in Gunnamatta Bay - one of my favourite places - I am in the park and I am just relaxing, enjoying Nature.  And then other people come to the park and relax in Nature.  I have a sense that I should combine my love of Nature, Walking and Coaching - Inspiring Medicine Walks and then time for Reflection (WOW -  I LOVE this insight).

In my Meditation I ask - "What can I do to move my business forward?" - the Word TRUST comes to me.   My Meditation ends when I get a sense of the words "Do It Now", "Do It Now", "Do It Now".  I am Inspired by these Words.  So I ring a potential Client and I am Excited that he is interested and mid next week we are going to organise a time for next Friday.  With Confidence (and my Yin and Yang in Commitment to work together) I walk (with no fear) into two of the doctor's clinics in Cronulla and make appointments for next week.  I am so Passionate about helping people - THIS MATTERS TO ME - I am Delighted that I have times in their diary so that I can explain Coaching and that they can then refer people to me that may need Support and help to move forward in their life.

I also enjoy a trip to the library - wow - I had forgotten how great it is to visit a library.  I follow my Intuition and I am guided towards a book 'Now Is The Time' by Patrick Lindsay.  I read some great Quotes that really speak to me.

"Now Is The Time To...

Focus Your Energy

We are constantly faced with competing demands,

And easily distracted by the noise and the interruptions.

To be effective in our lives and work, we must focus.

We must decide on our priorities.

We must channel energy and attend to the task before us."

"Now Is The Time To...

Commit Yourself

Those who succeed set themselves apart by their commitment.

Most of us make an effort.

We prepare; we try; but then we hope.

If you really want to achieve something,

You must be prepared to stretch yourself.

You must distil your energy and focus all your efforts.

You must give of yourself."

"If you're not actively involved in getting what you want, you don't really want it."

"Now Is The Time To...

Show Your True Colours

If you believe passionately that something is right,

Fight for it with all your might.

Dig deep in your Soul and refuse to give ground.

Even when the odds seem overwhelming, keep fighting.

You'll be amazed how often persistence wins the day."

"Now Is The Time To...

Follow Your Heart

Never underestimate the power of your heart.

We are Passionate about someone, or something,

Few obstacles can defeat us,

Our hearts can inspire Greatness,

Sweep aside adversity,

Break new ground

And draw others along with us."

I Love Words.  I Love Books.  I am happy that I joined the library and borrowed two books that I was drawn to - 'Law of Attraction' and 'The Everything Self-Esteem Book' - books and information and Words that may help me in my work with Clients.  While I have studied so much and love what I have studied, I love that I can constantly read and learn Self-Development books that will help me on my own Journey and in my walk with my Clients.  While having lunch I flick through 'The Everything Self-Esteem Book' and there are three pieces of information / paragraphs/ Words that catch my Interest:

- "Research shows that people spend less than thirty hours over their entire lifetime thinking about and researching their career choices.  If you begin work at twenty years of age, work forty hours per week, and retire at sixty-five, you will have worked 93,600 hours in a job that may not have been your Calling."

- "Your Uniqueness - If you try to place a value (worth) on your life based on other people, you are denying your uniqueness, your rareness.  You are saying to yourself, 'It is of no importance to have qualities that belong exclusively to me.  You are saying to yourself, I am not a miracle.  I am not a marvel.  I have no specific purpose for being here.'  Think of the tragedy in those statements.  Think about your life at this very moment.  What is your miracle?"

- "Dr. Wright made the following statement: 'What you think about me is none of my business.' Let me give that to you again. 'What you think about me is none of my business.'  Profound.  When you think about Dr. Wright's statement, you realise just how brave that statement is and how much self-esteem one has to have to ever think it, much less say it out loud.  He went on to discuss the fact that the students present did not know him as a private citizen, as a son, a brother, a partner, an uncle, or a friend.  When you think about it, how many people know us in every capacity?  Dr. Wright's statement is prophetic.  He was right.  Others' opinions of you are none of your business, because they don't really know you."

WOW.  I Love Words - Words that Inspire.  I am so glad that I am a Life Coach.  I AM A LIFE COACH!!  I Love saying these Words.  Not from a position of Ego or Arrogance - instead from a position of loving what I do and being proud that I am making my dreams come true.

Written Words are wonderful - and I also love Words spoken from the heart.  Tonight I am so Grateful that a Family Friend came out in the rain on a Friday night to fix our hot water system - and I kept telling him how Grateful I am - he is a really nice man - and his act of kindness has definitely Spread The Yellow to me.  I am so Excited that I will be able to enjoy a hot bath tonight and read a book.  I love reading in the bath.  After reading so many Words from Self-Development books, I think tonight I will enjoy a chapter or two from a Love Story.  I was saying today that I would like to enjoy more Fiction books - while I have about 5 Non-Fiction Books on the go - I do love a good Story - just a chance to relax.

Time to relax...

... Or so I thought - after I had already Published this Post - I ran my bath, all set for a hot bath and to my surprise the lovely hot water that first comes out of the pipes, very quickly becomes cold - oh no, the hot water is gone again.  I boil water for a while and yet it does not boil fast enough to keep me warm.  And I realise that this is not very relaxing.  Just as I find myself getting disappointed, I find myself being Grateful that I have a Home, warm clothes, a heater and water - whereas I think of families living in Poverty who do not even have these basic needs being met.  I am so fortunate.

I am so Grateful and so fortunate and yet I still have a disappointment that my Friday night is not going so well - especially since my Man is locked away trying to fix his computer and now the hot water system.  I Love Words and yet right now we need some Silence and Distance - my Man is not very happy after working long hours all week.  And now he tells me to watch the DVD on my own.  And I am not very happy that he is not very happy and that we are spending the night apart, rather than relaxing together.  After my bath, I put out a fresh towel for my Man and the towel that I first pick up is the Yellow towel I bought for him for Christmas with the words "My Mr Wonderful" - of course (despite my disappointment) my Man is My Mr Wonderful ... 

I wish I could find the right Words to make my Man feel better - and yet I will just give him Space.  And  I am choosing right now to enjoy my night and enjoy a movie, relaxing on the couch...

Life Is Not Perfect

Life Is Not Perfect.  Today I feel like a fraud - I certainly don't feel Yellow - I certainly have no energy or motivation to go out into the world and Spread The Yellow (and when I read back over this sentence - I do not feel like a fraud - I just feel real).

We went to bed late - I am worried about my Family - and as I am stressed, this had a ripple effect and caused my Man and I to have a disagreement.  Before we fell asleep we were Best Friends again and we went to bed saying all these nice words to each other, taking turns to shower each other with compliments. - it was so sweet - my Man would say a word and then I would say a word - it just went back and forth - "Sexy", "Spunky", "Princess", "Prince", "Queen", "King", "Goddess", "Handsome"... it was a wonderful way to fall asleep.  I am eternally Grateful for my Man.

I woke up and I was so tired.  I dreamt through the night - I can't remember what my dream was about - yet dreaming makes me feel tired.  When I am conscious that I have been dreaming through the night, I wake up exhausted, almost like I have actually been on the adventure through the night.  I was talking to the Manager at the Bookstore and she was telling me that she also dreams at night and that it is important to write down the dreams - she said that if we do not pay attention to the dream, it is like, not opening a letter that has been sent to us.  I like this analogy.  This morning I can't remember the exact details of the dream - although it is about my Family - and the real life emotions are the same.  I have been told that the most important part of remembering the dream, is remembering the emotions (how did that make you feel?) rather than the story.

I didn't want to get up today.  My throat hurts, my head hurts, my back hurts.  Life Is Not Perfect.  My Life Is Not Perfect.  I could have actually stayed in bed all day - and I had this feeling, to my surprise, that I couldn't wait for the day to be over.  I bring out my Cheerleader part of me and get out of bed to go Walking.  I enjoy being out in the world - I just enjoy being out in the fresh air.

After a visit to the chemist and a bag of potions for my throat and headache, I walk home.  I decide to stay home, and not go to work today.  I make myself a Priority and choose my Health.  Life Is Not Perfect and I am not feeling my usual 120% and yet I can still look at what is within my power and make a Choice.

Life Is Not Perfect - I just want to hang out on the couch.  I even google Yellow flower images and Yellow images - and I love seeing Yellow. 

And as I look at the images of Yellow flowers, I look over on the dining room table and see my Yellow roses - I am so Grateful that my Man buys me flowers.

I love sleeping for a couple of hours and hanging out on the couch is a treat - just a chance for Self-Care.  I read a chapter 'Discovering Your Values' from my book 'Spiritual Business' by Kate Forster - "When you live with your Values, then you are on the right track.  But how on earth can you live them if you have no idea what they are?" - I also like the quote "Too many Values and you are never sure what to grasp at when the winds of change are blowing."  I also love the words "I believe that your own Values as a person, when they are brought into your own business, will make an exceptional company.  It will be a 'self-realised' company.  A company that understands what it is here to provide and is more successful as a result."

I love this book - it is making me think about my own Business - in a natural, flowing way, involving my Yin, rather than just being in a traditional Yang corporate style.  I reread some of my notes about Values from our Coaching Textbook 'Co-Active Coaching' - some of the key sentences I like that help define Values are - "Values are who we are.  Not who we would like to be, not who we think we should be, but who we are in our lives, right now... Our Values serve as a compass pointing out what it means to be true to oneself.  When we honor our Values on a regular and consisent basis, life is good and fulfilling... Important life decisions are easier to make and outcomes are more fulfilling when the decisions are viewed through a matrix of well-understood personal Values."

I remember looking at Values at College - considering our own Values and also the Values of our Clients.  Rather than looking at a long list of Values I loved the process of identifying Values by considering - Peak Moments In TIme, Suppressed Values ("looking at times when a Client was angry, frustrated, or upset") and "Must-Haves" ("look at what they must have in their lives").  I love the idea of having my Values in print - and also having Values that are both my Values for my Life and my Business.  I find that my Journal, and artwork paper and coloured crayons are perfect for putting my Values on paper.

I love putting these words on paper - My Values.  I will now put this sheet of paper up in our Study, next to my Vision Boards - so that I may see them on a daily basis.  These are my Values for My Life and My Business.

Today's main feeling has been that Life Is Not Perfect and yet when I look at my Values, I see LOVE large and right in the centre - and I know that I am so blessed to be able to score this Value 10 out of 10.

Yes, Life Is Not Perfect, and sometimes, like today, I am going to feel less than 100% - and yet I can Honour myself and just have a day to myself - sleeping, relaxing, sitting on the couch watching a fun TV series.  And I am Happy that today I was guided to relook at my Values.  Health is a big one for me - and that is why I decided to stay home.  I know that I could have gone to work and put on a Happy face and yet I am glad that I put my Health as a Priority - as now I feel ready to get back to work tomorrow and give my best - to Honour my Commitment of work, to strive for Achievement, to be in Celebration when I exceed my Targets.

I have listed 17 Values - there are a lot of Values on this list and yet they are all very important to me.  There is the opportunity for me to look at a Values-Based Decision Matrix - make a list of Values in Priority and also Scale each Value, the degree to which I am honouring each Value - this is the type of work that would be beneficial to a Client.  And yet, as I look at my List, I am so Aware that I do Honour my Values - today I just needed a day to Spread The Yellow to myself.  And soon my Man will be home and he has offered to make us dinner - I am so Grateful that he is so capable and so natural and has such a huge capacity to Spread The Yellow to me - just the small things that Make A Difference.

And I hear a knock at the door - and I am Excited - our Organic Fruit and Vege Box has arrived.  I love Mondays - did I just write this right - this morning I had Monday-itis - and yet now I feel so happy with this delivery.

I am also Delighted that I get to talk to the owner of the Business and tell her how much I love getting the Fruit and Vege Box and that I have been telling my friends about her Business.  I ask her how long she has been in Business - Emma tells me that it has been 1 year.  It was so great to talk to Emma about Business - Emma tells me that she has had such great results from being involved in the "Shine" Magazine - and that it is very affordable for each quarter and that I may be able to get an article written about me.  I love the "Shine" Magazine - it is a wonderful magazine - this is how I found out about Shire Organics and now I am a raving fan.  I may have just been given a Next Step from the Universe for my Business - yes, time to introduce myself to the Community - time to tell them that "I Am Here".  Promoting my Business SHINE Coaching in  the "Shine" Magazine is a perfect fit.   I fill my fruit bowl with all the wonderful pieces of fresh, organic apples, oranges, bananas, kiwi fruit, nashi pears - yum!!!  Life Is Perfect!!!

Stand Tall

I wake up with my 7am alarm - I am tired, I could stay in bed longer.  So, I stay in bed longer - pressing the snooze button every 10 minutes.

The best part of my morning is going for a Walk.  While I love Running, I have decided that Running is not right for me, right now.  It is difficult to give up Running - I feel fantastic when I run - and yet, I have pain in my back and neck and need to get my body strong again.  Otherwise, I end up just paying a fortune for treatments from my physiotherapist, chiropractor, osteopathic, massage therapists. 

I do love Walking - in a different way to my love of Running.  Running for me is about fitness and getting my heart pumping and a Challenge to run farther and longer than the last run.  I just love the feeling of Running and love the sense of achievement after a run.  Running is my number 1 choice of activity.  And yet, for now, I will enjoy Walking.  I love the gentleness of Walking - the exploration, the opportunity to see the beauty in the world, the opportunity to be present.  I love being guided by my Intuition, letting my Yin decide the direction of my Walk and instructing my Yang to take the steps.   My time Walking is the opportunity to be with me, time for myself, time to Spread The Yellow to me, Self-Care, Self-Love.

There are so many sights I enjoy when Walking.  I love being totally present to enjoy the sights and sounds and delight my senses.  I like seeing these old palm leaves hanging over the fence like a man's beard.

As usual, I smell the red roses at a house on the corner - I just love smelling the roses - literally - the smell is beautiful.  Of course, I am also very lucky that my Man buys me flowers every week, and I have my own yellow roses at home.

I am led, by my Yin, to Gunnamatta Bay - I just love the park.  It is one of my favourite places.

As I Walk up through the park, I Run for about 2 minutes, just a brief Run on the grass to feel the joy of Running.  And then back to Walking.  I stand at the top of the outdoor ampitheatre and I wonder - if I was on this stage, what would I present - what could I share to Make A Difference to others, a difference in the world?

When I look at the photo above, I just love seeing the rays of sunlight - wow I love the rays of sunlight shining towards the ampitheatre.  If I had to stand on this stage, right now, I would talk about the Power of Yin and Yang in bringing life to your dreams, your Vision, your heart's desires - in bringing out the best in yourself.  Essentially, the meaning of my Coaching Business Logo.

    

My Yin guides me to go further into the park.  The Yang, thinking part of me, wanted to go and visit one of my favourite Trees in the park - and yet to my surprise, my Yin takes me in a different direction - and two Trees catch my eye.  At first I have a sense that they are one Tree, but they are two separate Trees. 

          

The beauty of these two Trees is that one Tree stands so tall, reaching for the sky, while the other Tree is bent and curved, and reaching in different directions.  I put my hand on the Tree that stands so tall - and ask for a message - and thank the Tree in advance for the Gift of its message.  I feel into the silence and I feel the energy and wisdom of the Tree.  I have a sense of the words - "Listen To Your Heart" - "Stand Tall".  I have been conscious of Listening to My Heart, as I tune into my Yin - and yet it is good to hear these words.  I especially love the "Stand Tall" message - I love these words - that I am living my truth and can be proud of who I am and that I am living my Vision.  I also have a strong sense of the Tree communicating to me that all of the energy of all of the Trees will support me and hold me and help me Stand Tall.  I also notice that half the Tree is in the sunlight, and half in shadow - this speaks to me - Balance.

I walk home Inspired!

When I get home I turn to my books.  I pick up 'She' by Kobi Yamada - I love these quotes

- "She ran ahead where there were no paths. Celebrate her bravery."

- "She went out on a limb, had it break off behind her, and discovered she could fly.  Celebrate her faith."

I also turn to 'Gaia Body and Soul' by Toni Carmine Salerno and find more perfect words - perfect for me to read today

- "By facing our fears and accepting them as valid aspects of who we are, we heal and become whole.  Instead of swimming against the current, life starts to flow naturally and we realise that most of the stress in our lives is simply the result of our inner fear and turmoil.  Fear clouds our ability to think and see clearly, so start to be aware of your thoughts.  When you find yourself thinking fear-based thoughts such as 'I should...' or 'I have to...', pause for a moment.  Instead of worrying about what you think you should do or have to do, ask yourself this question, 'What is it that I would love to be doing right now?' (I love these words) Transforming Fear = Liberation"

When I read these words I realise that I do have some fear - and yet in knowing my Vision, loving my Vision, I can work with my Yin and Yang to move me towards my Goals.

Just 45 minutes of Walking and also 5 minutes of Reading and Reflection - makes for a perfect start to my day.  And I have a great day - I go to work - I am Motivated to do my best and I exceed my Target.  And I get home from work and I am So Grateful that my Man is busy chopping up bowls of vegetables and makes dinner for us.

It is now great to be home relaxing... what a great start to the week - I am Inspired to Stand Tall...

Feeling Blue

I have been Feeling Blue - Yellow is always close to me and within easy reach - yet today I have been okay to sit with Feeling Blue - to just Surrender to it.  It would have been easy for me to get busy and run towards the Light - yet I have been okay with being Blue - at least for today.   Yesterday I woke up and had to find some Inspiration - I am noticing a pattern - so today I just allow myself, to make it okay, to honour my Feeling Blue.

I woke up in pain with my back and I had a headache - I definitely didn't feel well enough to go to work - and this is not good - work is important to me - I don't like letting my Boss down when I know he has scheduled me on a Project - and my need for the security of my pay is also high.  Yet today I choose Self-Care and decided to just rest and indulge myself in Blue.  I even gave a friendly directive to my Man that he doesn't have to cheer me up - that it is okay if I'm feeling Blue today.  My Man still took one of the pink roses from my vase of VERY beautiful roses (that he bought for me yesterday) and handed it to me and gave me a kiss. 

I look through 'The Blue Day Book' by Bradley Trevor Greive (that sits on my bookshelf) - great images they make me smile.

In my Feeling Blue today - there is a blankness, a feeling of no emotion, no energy, no excitement, no Yellow.  And so I honour this feeling of Blue - after breakfast I go back to bed for Meditation - I fall asleep, no alarm set, I just trust what my body needs right now.  There is so much that I could have done today - I read a few pages of a book and watched a bit of TV.  My Yang likes to be productive and get things done - yet my Yin is happy for quiet and rest as I am not feeling motivated or inspired or energised. 

I am so Feeling Blue that I even Google 'blue images' -

My Yin is enjoying this time - and then I am Inspired to look up bluebird - my Yin emotional part of me remembers having a bracelet with bluebirds -

My Yin is Inspired to get out the pencil case and paper and I do some Art Therapy for myself - I use every Blue crayon, pencil and texta that I have - as well as a black and then a yellow crayon.  I cannot draw - I am not an Artist - yet Art Therapy is fun - I actually love it - I can just colour and do what I want - there is no Judge here - I just draw from an emotional, spiritual level.

Whenever I am Feeling Blue, it is sometimes so reassuring - it reminds me that I am human and grounds me.  Feeling Blue also helps me in always having empathy for others - I do not believe that we can explain or Judge the emotions of another - or even Judge or disown our own Feelings.  Whenever I am Feeling Blue, I am very conscious of not falling down the black hole - I have been deep in the black hole before - a long time ago - another lifetime away - yet I remember - and this is what has brought me to Coaching - wanting to catch people before they fall down the black hole.  As I sit in Feeling Blue, I am very conscious of so much Yellow so close to me.


I find a drawing from my Man that he had previously drawn for me - this does make my heart sing.

I decide to go and rest - Meditation calls me...

WOW!!!  Something shifts in me after the Meditation - I feel much lighter - I feel surrounded by Light. 

In the Meditation I was able to witness, sense some beautiful images.  I had a sense that at first I was like a blue foetus, alone, all alone, a sense that I am separate to the world. 

And then I had this sense and visual of me standing up and rays of Light were coming through me and around me and the Yellow rays came within and I was Yellow and blue and then the Yellow and blue became green and then pink whirled around and through me, around me - it was incredible - I was connected to everything - the Universe, Light and Energy surrounded me, flowed to me, flowed through me, THE UNIVERSE IS THERE FOR ME.  After my Meditation, I look up images, these come close (yet so far) to the images of my experience (and I hold the image in my mind's eye). 

                       

                       

         

I then had a sense of looking over at the blue foetus and loving the blue foetus, this part of me, the part that is alone - and the blue foetus part of me, opens up and holds out its hands, my hands, my hands holding a heart. 

I then had an image of my Coaching logo, realising that I am not alone, that it is not only about me giving out my energy - yet that I am surrounded and loved by the Universe and that I will be guided and held in a space of Light to bring my dream to life.

This experience was AMAZING. I have heard others talk about such sensations and visuals - and how wonderful to experience this sense of Joy and Connection and Energy.

After my Meditation I feel ALIVE.  I look at the Artwork for my Flyer with fresh eyes.  I have been so in Yang mode, trying to get this 'done', getting quotes from different flyers, ACTION, ACTION - that I had abandoned some of my Yin.  I print out my Business Card and my Flyer and my Yin feels emotionally connected - my Yin intuitively knows that I can approve the Flyer Artwork.  I am excited as despite all the different quotes and that (unfortunately) printing on recycled paper is more expensive, this is not a difficult decision for me - I am committed to making business decisions that minimise the harm on Mother Earth - I email the Artwork to the printer and I can't wait to get my Flyers.  I can't wait to Spread The Yellow through my Coaching.

I feel that the Universe has given me the opportunity today to rest and relax.  I am Grateful that I didn't ignore or race away from my Feeling Blue - I actually enjoyed the quiet time, hanging on the couch time.  After my Meditation, I am also feeling less pain in my back.  The Meditation was so powerful.  I love to witness my emotions shifting naturally - without the need to force myself back to Yellow.

I have my energy back.  I am excited when I get a knock on the door - knowing it is my Box of Fruit and Vegetables that I ordered from a local Organic company.  It is a mystery box - a surprise!! And I am delighted - love that there is plenty of fresh fruit and love that there is broccoli, my favourite.

I make a Vegetarian pasta dish - happy!!!  And now I watch "Australia's Got Talent" - GREAT SHOW!  I just love to see people Passionate about what they are doing, committed to their Passion, giving it a go - and I loved the words of one of the contestants, a beautiful opera singer - love these words - "IT'S MY TIME NOW"...