1 Month To Go

It's 1 Month To Go until I turn 40.

40!!!  I can't really believe it!  The other day at work, one of my colleagues said that she thought I was in my 20s - that's a nice compliment, however the reality is that I am turning 40.  

And I am feeling 40.  Starting my new job has been challenging and rewarding and stressful and tiring - it has been a great move and I am enjoying my job - and I am tired and feeling old.  My favourite thing to do when I get home is to have a hot bath and I do look forward to trying to get into bed before 10pm, so that I can feel fresh when I wake up early in the morning.  My Man and I laugh about it - although I do wish I did not feel so tired and so "middle-aged".

With 1 Month To Go I was hoping to use tonight as a chance for Reflection - where I am, where I want to be - and how I can take Steps to close this gap.  And yet as I sit here I am already feeling tired and ready to turn in for the night.  Of course I also have a cold and so am not feeling 100%.

Hmm... not a positive start to my 1 Month To Go Review.  

The great news is that today we sold our Apartment - and so we are 1 Step closer to being able to buy a new home, a 3 bedroom townhouse or villa where we can start getting ready to grow our Family - now that would be the number 1 Dream - having a beautiful baby.  In turning 40, having a baby is what I feel is most missing from our lives - and I feel that this is the next chapter in our lives.  Having a baby of our own will be the greatest Dream come true. 

Another thing that is also missing from my life, at the moment, is a regular exercise routine.  I have fond memories of when I would be out running every morning, training for an upcoming running event.  I would be up early and out the door full of energy and excitement.  And yet now I allow time for my snooze button to catch a few extra minutes before getting out of bed to get ready for work.  I do walk and I do stay active through the day - and yet I am missing a training program.  I must get back onto the treadmill as well as longer walks outdoors.  

From today, starting today I am also making a Commitment to give up chocolate - at least for the next 1 month - chocolate is not the best for my well-being, I often get quite sick eating chocolate and the next day after eating it, I feel very less than my best.  Giving up chocolate for the 1 month, at least, will also be a good practice of my willpower.

With 1 Month To Go before I turn 40 I am feeling so Grateful for all the greatness in my life - My Man, my Family, my Coaching, my new job, Community, Friends.  Definitely within the next few weeks I am looking forward to some Self-Care and pampering - perhaps some nice long walks, perhaps a massage, actually definitely a massage, maybe/ definitely a facial.  And maybe a new craft hobby - I did start doing knitting, enjoyed it, not sure if this is right for me since I had to keep undoing all that I have knitted when I make a mistake, as the Perfectionist in me wants to get it right - maybe back to crochet or sewing and definitely photography.  And I know I definitely want to start writing, or do more writing - Trusting in the power of Inspiration and I must remember to tune into this Space.

Hmm... 1 Month To Go - and how Grateful I am that I AM HAPPY!!!

Thank You God for all your Blessings.

Hmm... time for bed...  and what a Blessing it is to feel safe and warm, feeling a sense of Home and feeling relaxed and at peace.